can't the world just give me a break?

I'm really not feeling very happy.

I managed to beg for 1 blardy off day. I'm already working 7 days a week. Not unreasonable to ask for 1 blardy off day in the whole entire month. Begging off day from my boss, that was fine. Can understand. Now my papa's not happy that I actually take leave just to go to the beach. RIGHT. Tell me what other days I have to go ANYWHERE or rest for 1 whole day? 1 blardy day. Just 1 blardy day. I think for this I get to choose WHO I want to go out with and WHAT I want to do. 1 BLARDY DAY. F. Haven't even started and I'm already frigging pissed off. Blardy hell.

I hate to be the one making all the decisions. Hate it when all everyone else knows how to do is to ask me for this ask me for that ask me to do this ask me to do that. Then ask me howhowhow, whywhywhy, whatwhatwhat.

I'm really so pissed I feel like hiding in the toilet to cry. TAKE 1 OFF DAY SO MUCH PROBLEMS. I MUST WELL WORK MYSELF TO DEATH. NOT AS IF ANYONE CARES.

~if you don't care how I think or feel, why should I care about what YOU think?~