love life by filling it with love not hate

haiz~ so sian. tml sch reopen liao le, budden i still haven finish the e-learning stuffs. hahaha! e-learning sux basically, i'd rather go back to school. theres a test on tue lor, n i haven even touched it yet. im so screwed, like totally.

xams r coming liao le. gotta study le lor. this yr sure die, i aim high but doubt i'll b aniwhere near my goals. the year juz started not long ago i skipped loads of lessons liao le lor. hmm..tons n tons of work not sorted out, dun understand, everything lagging bhind. YUCKS i hate this yr man.

i heard my cuzzie n his gf went australia!!! 2gether!!! my cuzzie juz got his driving license n he rented a car in australia lor. omg fun! he n his gf!! goshh..i want that too...hahaha! they went gold coast i think. hmm. gonna kill him when he comes back. go there nv tell me. im his fellow cuzzie lor! bad..hmph!

so waiting to go china, though will leave my dear mr.b bhind. would love to bring him along, stuff him in my suitcase, but we all noe thats nv going to happen. can only dream on lor. sad. juz saw him this morning, for like an hr or so, n i miss him so terribly le. how to go china liddat. hahaha. crazy girl. cant wait to see him tml! hahaha!

mondae is going to suck, i am so not going for piano lesson. programming, i think ask him give me another wk to do the e-learning la. if he dun allow den juz forgo wadeva marks that comes wif it lor. shitz.

love so totally grows man. when me n mr.b juz patched, anithing bout him n another girl didnt affect me, but as time went by, jealousy sets in. ok this is not called love, but sometimes it juz makes me think im nv good enuff lor.

duno y so emotional these daes, as usual, or mayb im juz liddat all along. watched reality tv n saw this programme that showed babies getting all those diseases n stuff, looking at them all borned so prematurely n hooked up to so many machines, juz so totally wanted to cry can. esp when i saw the parent stroking the baby, talking to the baby, telling the baby "be strong, dun be afraind, daddy is here". omg, so sad. haiz~ so small, so tiny, but go through so much pain. the baby i saw was only 24wks old! so tiny can! the daddy was alone cuz the mummy had to rest at home after the delivery. the daddy like so ke lian, so lonely, can see he needed someone to be there lor. reality tv is real la, the emotions r real n stuffs. see le heartache lor. haiz~

isit only through ppl's misfortune, we learn to appreciate wad we hav? ok, gotta go slp. so my honey bunny wun see a panda tml. hahaha!

~*muamuackx!* honey bunny!~