emological science

wanted to talk bout something but its not the rite time to do it. esp not here.

everything will b easier now if i didnt "have foresight". my "foresights" come once in a while. n i realise i've tot about the same probs im thinking of now. i worry bout the same things b4. but i juz ignored them. cuz they seem ridiculous n i always think im still young, theres still time, its possible, things will change. apparently not. to me the future seems to b refering to somewhere like "10years later". but as time passes, the 10yrs shld b coming nearer n not further. putting off things will not help, u'll only get older. n by the time u realise the 10yrs has passed, u're a little too late. things will just get harder to let go, to change, n some mite not even b relevant animore.

im thinking "young ppl dun think practically, at least most of them do not..." n dat does not exclude me. is it enuff to let ur heart lead u everywhere? is it enuff to think only about now? is ur thoughts of the future practical? are u true to urself? how many more "10 yrs later" do u think u hav to change things that aren't exactly acceptable now? to engage in a war btwn ur heart n mind takes courage, time, patience n strong will to hold everything 2gether. we canot predict the future, but if we were to think of it PRACTICALLY now, isit one u wan to hav? are u sure?

im toxic im poisonous im wadeva u think i am. most importantly I AM ME. i mite hav lost myself along the way but if i start now i may not havta b waiting 10yrs to find myself again.

the irrelvance among the relevant

~chimalogy 1~