miracles do happen?

felt like its been so long since i last blogged. so many stuffs r going on in my life now i duno sometimes its weird. can be happy, sad, angry, bored all at once. hahaha! thats how complicated my life is i guess.

attempted to write a song ended up slping. cuz i kept hearing songs in my head n its not going to b mine if i were to write someone else's tunes down. hahaha.

the great n evil emoster strike me wif its evil powers 2dae. bad but not as bad as some other times. sooo emo dat i almost cried on the train for apparently..nothing. HAHAHA. ok la ok la. mayb is cuz i miss my honey. hugged him like i nv hugged him for yrs liddat. lol. crazy.

nice song dat some ppl shld b familiar wif. (notice the randomness...)

Dancing bears,
Painted wings,
Things I almost remember,
And a song someone sings
Once upon a December.

Someone holds me safe and warm.
Horses prance through a silver storm.
Figures dancing gracefully
Across my memory

Far away, long ago,
Glowing dim as an ember,
Things my heart
Used to know,
Once upon a December...

Someone holds me safe and warm.
Horses prance through a silver storm.
Figures dancing gracefully
Across my memory...

Far away, long ago,
Glowing dim as an ember,
Things my heart
Used to know,
Things it yearns to remember...

And a song
Someone sings
Once upon a December

watched a v nice movie on hbo 2dae! its called A Little Princess. i think...so super touching la! gdness.

so many free slacking daes gives me plenty of time to think of all sorts of nonsense. n i realise just how unfair this world is! its not the first time i realise this la obviously..some ppl r juz born wif everything n some ppl juz born wif so little. it juz seems like it takes them so little effort to get so many things. it juz seems like they keep getting wad they wan. ya im jealous lor i havta sae. unfortunately i wan to be like that somebody. im trying but its so different cuz i start everything from scratch. its not already there for me u noe..n im so much diff in every way. but come to think of it. chances do pop up sometimes. rare n havta put loads of hardwork n might not even happen kind of chances. hahaha. its not easy to b born being ok, average in almost everything ok. or mayb even worse than that. sux.

PATIENCE! i need more of dat. loads more.

- band
- lounge (^_^)
- pre-school
- jazz
- piano
- vocal
- financials $$
- job!
- usher?

see. i hav a bz life. HAHAHA. but of course so many things r juz chances. hoping to get but u noe the chances r real slim. its there but it takes a lot more than hopes n wishes to get.

theres juz so much to learn n so little time..AND money. cant only hav outflows n no inflows. but i think i havta treat myself a little better. tried finding something for myself n realise i cant find anithing. irony man.

miss my honey. muacks.

*there can be miracles..when u believe..*

end off wif my fav saying of the yr...

~What you get as gifts, I build with my own hands~