me..n nothing but me..isit?

hmm..ytd was alright i guess..couldnt slp though..cuz of stupid cockroach in my room..big fat n disgusting..can hear it walking round the plastic bag..so creepy! so..wad do i always do when i cant slp?! dats right..think of stupid depressing pieces of shit..n im going to type it all out..i tot bout how a big failure i am..so shi bai..u noe y? cuz mr.b's frens can make him soooooooo happy..n i cant..its official..im the most boring person on earth..y isit i try so hard to put a smile on someone's face but i cant do it..i dun mean to b a spoiler..i juz cant help it..ms.c said nobody is born sad..hahaha..true..i juz forgot how to stop being sad..doesnt mean theres no happy times..but their all juz so temporary! cuz when theres silence..when theres noise..when its dark..when theres light..whenever..where ever..my brain simply canot stop working out stupid thoughts..i bet ms.c heard me said a million times..my life is so sucky! pathetic! blah blah blah..thanx ms.c..its nice chatting wif u..hahaha..shld i take the diploma plus thingy? my mama ask me to go n take..3 sem long! really havta think bout it..muz make sure i can cope..juz wan sch to reopen asap..juz feel like sitting down to study..at least theres something to keep my brain bz..so it would not go places it shouldnt go..mr.b's been real nice these couple of days..probably cuz its his bdae..his all hyper n happy..which is gd! it shld b like that everydae..hahaha..im a v selfish person i guess..i duno..ms.v, ms.c, should noe..rite? how sian i was when anione mentioned bout mr.b n fellow frens spending hrs 2gether..its his bdae n i didnt get most of his dae..im selfish..i wan him all to myself..well..not exactly..juz wan to b wif him u noe..juz wan to spend time wif him..with or without his frens is fine..i duno..haiz~ suxxxxxxxxx..nice mr.z let out the little secret bout the "surprise" ytd..mr.b's NOT suppose to noe i was going..how nice of u mr.z..but its ok..since u n mr.v helped me get mr.b to go earlier so i could stay n watch..shortly after the cake fight..i was sent home..haiz~ nothing was working right..except for mayb buying the prezzie part..think positive..at least he was happy..but train of thoughts reminded me mr.b said he wished his bdae was all like that..n that this was the most memorable bdae he eva had..train of thoughts tells me im sad now..u see how pathetic i am? bad girl! bad girl! naughty girl! a v lousy gf..all depressed, boring, sian, dumb, self-centered person..how NICE.....lousy..happy news!..hmm..the skin my my blister cracked..n blood came ooooozzing out..hahaha..im still alive n kicking..isnt that great?! hahaha..im nuts..how can someone like me expect to put a smile on someone's face when i cant even put one on my own?! so..i'll try my best to b happy..as much as possible..=D..see me smiling? hahaha..i'll b ok ppl! chillax! all's well..dun worrie bout me..dat is if u're worring bout me..hmm..wad am i saying..hahaha..totally nuts..its so cold..i cant bend my index finger..its got plaster around the joint..hahaha..so random!! n im still hungry..hmm..muz jian fei!! mr.v said im fat..n i totally agree..hahaha..i should use i-gallop n u-zap 2gether..in my dreams..i hav like..hmm..-$33 now! canot afford to spend..negative income..*sigh..* so broke..worth it? guess so..at least mr.b smiled? er..i would like to think he did..at me..hahaha..stupid girl! bad girl! think happy thoughts!! ahh..mr.b's so qute when he smiles..=D..hahaha..i've got a retarded com..ok..i'll goooooo.......find something HAPPY to do! lala mr.b =D stay happy..dun let anithing bother u too much..

Oh, why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Don't be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
'cause I've seen the dark side too
When the night falls on you
You don't know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you

So if you're mad, get mad
Don't hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well I'm a lot like you
When you're standing at the crossroads
And don't know which path to choose
Let me come along 'cause even if you're wrong

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you

And when...
When the night falls on you, baby
You're feeling all alone
You won't be on your own

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you

I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you

~16 more days to my 18th HAPPY bdae~