i noe now...

i noe wad isit u want now..money..$$$..when i sae ur aiming too high..u shld reflect u noe..b practical..u complain to me ur poor..but when money comes in..wad do u spend it on? fine..theres the food..the bills..transport..fine..think of wad u really wan..1 thing..save up for that thing..u wun always get wad u wan..get use to it..this horrible thing is called life..u'll never b happy again if u keep aiming so high..cuz u'll always feel ur poor..b satisfied wif wad u hav..ya..to u..i muz b bullshitting..cuz i duno how u feel..im not u..im not in ur situation..blah blah blah..n u tell me im not a burden to u..i'll tell u y im a burden to u..1) i dun seem to understand u..i always sian sian..make ur life so difficult for u..2) u feel as a bf u havta spend money on me..im juz wasting all ur hard earn money..3) everything u do seems to b wrong cuz i always comment about them..is this enuff? think back now..how u used to b happy..y arent u happy now? i think ur asking for too much..ps2, levi's jeans, new tops that i duno..cost quite a bit..n70, getting a licence..of course..there are things we all want..but we may not get now..or never ever get it..isit worth making urself sian n irritated everydae? since by now i think u should realise my emotions do fluctuate by ur actions..im not that happy either..i pick ur phone..n ur voice..it sounds so irritated..so sian..n then silence..i got a friggin pounding headache ytd after we got home..n i went to slp..after 3 hrs..i woke up n the headache is still there..im going to fall sick again..haiz~ aniwae..i realise im a damn boring person..i muz b..wif u looking so sian n tired when u go out wif me..i was really happy to b going out wif u..it started out fine..im so happy u hugged me in the mrt station..i really missed that a lot..haiz~ i really wan u to happy again..but if u carry on like that..i dun think u'll eva b..if ur starting to think i'll b better off without u..that will b the biggest mistake u'll eva make right bside picking up smoking..y invest in something that will kill u?? u wun die without it..its juz wasting money..its unnecessary..sure i duno wad if feels like to smoke..i duno how "good" it feels..but it doesnt solve ur probs either..it only makes them worst..look how much ur spending on it..its not as easy to quit as u think it is..its the cravings that make u wan to pick it up again..quitting means..not getting cravings..not getting tempted when u see someone else do it..haiz~ learn to b satisfied wif wad u hav..i havta learn that too..my nx aim..to save enuff to rebond my hair..that means..no new clothes..no new accessories..etc. ok..thats bout it..i'll go watch some tv..n continue slacking till i hav to go for the dreaded piano lesson..
~chill mr.b..chill~