archival matters

was just reading the archives on my blog. had so many of the "OH that was SOOOO long ago?!" moments. somethings just felt like it happened just a while back. oh man.. i'm getting old. lols!

and there were a lot of views n opinions that i wrote about long ago that i still agree today!

about holding hands! i don't want to be the one always having to hold your hand instead of you coming to me to hold mine. i can't stand to be beside you but not holding your hand. cause i want to feel protected by you and you holding my hand gives me a feeling of security..

i'm no different from 2yrs ago and i thank my babie for that. i agree i have too much on my hands and i really REALLY gotta learn to say no. the way i work is really like the jap culture. japs don't like to reject others but even after they agree, it doesn't mean they will do it. however, i'll do it. i'll struggle to death doing it. i'll give it my best from the limited time and effort i can put in but its not enough. it sure isnt. test 1 of rejection is this wkend! *SIGH*

i thank my babie cuz he does encourage me to do what i like but always remind me to moderate my 'intakes'. i need time for him and my studies! and so many thing else... gawd.

should cut down on travelling to super far places where the student don't show much interest AND doesn't listen to me when i teach. wasting my time and her mum's money. i'm so going to find a way to not teach her anymore. ya its true i don't know how to control her, but i don't have the time and energy to 'control' her everytime i'm there! i travel what almost 2hrs just to treat her like a dog..? i've tried being nice and that obviously doesn't work. i've tried bribery (with stickers, sweets, toys). i've tried to threaten her (complaining to her mum..) i've tried to talk sense into her (since she keeps saying shes a Buddhist and in Buddhism theres a chunk bout being respectful to your elders). shes just wasting her mum's money.

alrite. too much work-talk.

i miss the part of my life where i don't have to think about sch.

~today, i'm glad that i have you~