grass is always greener on the other side

i just got so tired n the last thing i need was being crapped at. but wad to do. i cant blame anione for making myself so tired. physically mentally emotionally.

dad made so much noise n woke me up this morning.. if i needed to go to sch. i wun still b slping.

then the damn phone pissed me off for the millionth time. always when i needed to make calls or answer them. IMPT calls that is..

then i couldn't understand a damn blardy thing the lecturer was talking about despite my 110% attention for the 1st time in the yr.

then i had to rush to work.

no time for lunch. excellence.

then i tried to study. which became crappier.

then i stupidly unconsciously made comparisons which i NOE DAMN WELL not to. when i realised that... it was too late. i hate to be compared.. so i shldnt compare. STUPID.STUPID.STUPID.

then i suddenly felt like shit.

which naturally made me wan to cry AGAIN.

this yr i've been too emotional, too tired, too often.

i don't noe wad isit i need. i don't noe wad isit i shld do. but things r really moving too fast. SO FAST.. dat MUGGING... is a LUXURY to me. if i can mug for just 2hrs.. *HALLELUJAH!*

theres just some things no one will ever understand unless they have been through the same. pointless to try travelling straight when u're on a merry-go-round.

~shutup emotions! shutup!~