Too much!

Reminded of how I always feel I'm not good enough. Sometimes I forget that problem never goes away. Probably I should stop feeding myself lies and start doing something about it..

Tell me what should I do now?

Feeling terribly $@%#^$# now. TSK! Can't deny too much have gone through my mind. TOO MUCH. I've just been silencing those thoughts because sometimes they don't even make sense to me. Sometimes it just don't seem fair. It seems too unreasonable.

I now know why I love teaching so much. Because I know the students need me. I know I can help them. Very happy when someone appreciates me. My students thank me for teaching them, their parents thank me for teaching them, I feel appreciated. I feel needed. I feel like I exist! I feel that people don't look through me, they see me.

Of course I know people who sees me, who listens to me and cares! *gives love* to every single one of you.

WHY?! Why do so many things disappear with time? Can I disappear NOW?

~Time heals, time destroys~