ponders

i wont want to know the face of the past because i'm afraid to find out it overpowers me. i'm afraid to lose and live in fear at every moment. i'd rather hide from the truth and do the best i can rather than trying to out do the past. thats why i can understand why people say not to bring up the past. cause a present would put up a strong front but get shattered inside. oh these complications...

the course of a relationship works like the business cycle. theres expansion, peak, recession and trough. but the chances of it reaching the same peak is.. puny. business cycle takes years, relationship can take days, or just months?? of course there are the occasional few who can last a couple of years, but the expansion will never be as great, the peak will always be lower than the previous unless some big events happens.. otherwise, the repetition of the cycle is quick and deadly. i absolutely hate that the relationship mimics the business cycle. i absolutely hate the relationship cycle can be so short when the business cycle is an average of 10years? and always repeats. meaning it always has an expansion after the trough. judging by the STI itself, we can all see that the new peak can be higher than the previous, even the trough is higher than the previous. relationship is such a volatile market, with higher risks but not necessary reaping better benefits.

i hate recessions. y cant a relationship stay at the peak forever. idiot.

on an unrelated note..

i value a gd listener. i like a gd talker. but what gd is a talker if the talker doesn't listen?

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