step 1 into change

omg. so sticky, so needy.. the very terms i never knew could describe me. but i can FEEL it now. i've never felt this way, and i don't know what you did that made me feel this way. i hate it. YOU'LL hate it. i must do something about it. i must allocate these feelings somewhere else. and now i sound like a crazy person.

suddenly so many people are getting attached. is it because of feb? valentines day and all.. people start to realise its sad to not have a partner beside you on valentines day. so they start looking for people who feels the same? then near the end of the year people start to break up because... its christmas?? r/s has seasons too yes? i see the pattern every year.

i need to do my work. compartmentalise brain! compartmentalise!

we have 60,000 thoughts a day. be aware of the thoughts, craft them into helping you be who you want to be. your conscious mind is the captain of your thoughts! and your subconscious mind are the crew members. their job is to carry out the orders! so what are you telling your crew members to carry out for you?

oh gawd.. how beautiful weddings are... *sobsobs*

~is patience a virtue?~