here is to the qn "WHAT i'm doing here"
when time passes, MAN CAN BE SO GOD DAMN FRIGGIN SENSITIVE. for those who dun get it, im being extremely sacarstic.
but as time passes. we get impatient, less caring, less of EVERYTHING. including those tiny little thoughts, actions n words.
YES i AM being emotional now. so u can juz close this window n wait for a new post which will probably come up a few more wks or even mths down the road.
NO this isnt bout something that happened yesterday or today. as a woman, i bear grudges. loads of it. i might remember something that happened years ago, something u said years ago, that u cannot even remember now. something that u might even think u'll nv sae. HOWEVER, in a certain corner of my brain, i store loads of such information that i'll keep wif me for life. im female, get used to it.
im trying my very best not to go into details, but just to speak generally. i shall skip this part before i get nasty.
what the hell am i doing here man?! when ppl my age r out there flaunting their talents EVERYWHERE. they hav so much opportunity to do so. ya so im suppose to seek my own opportunity. but ppl hav will power equivalent to their manpower. n i dont. i MIGHT hav manpower, but the will power is..VERY BEARISH. (ah HA! finally finance is useful in someways. gives me a better choice of words u see.) n its not even the problem wif the will power, its that theres no support, morally or financially. theres none.
HA. ok wad am i doing here? ppl of my age hav their own business, their own dreams being fulfilled, their doing great things, n im here being fat, emo, n i hav no idea wad the hell i shld do wif my life. studying finance is sort of a wrong road to take. cuz i can see, taking finance is just like helping my PAPA to fulfill HIS dream. his always so excited when talking bout finance to me. its the hols n he doesnt wan me to work, he wans me to read up on the market, blah blah blah blah blah. GOSH. i really duno wad im doing now. im so broke, its the end of the month, n i only hav like wad, 2bucks in my wallet. i wan to go out, but i cant, i not only hav nowhere to go, i dun exactly hav anione to go wif. im sitting here hoping to watch my new found fav drama Grey's Anatomy. WHAT am i doing here?? what am i here for?
damn. thats life. n life sux. ppl hav lives, their out chasing their dreams. n im sitting here blogging bout them. like they really need more advertising...
never gd enuff for u rite. never. ever. cuz to u i can never get anithing right. u dun see it u dun feel it cuz ur saying it, n im the one processing it. everyones saying it, but they duno i go into details wif those things. if ur a puny fry who juz said some shit to me, i'll pretty much ignore u, but i cant ignore those things they said cuz their not puny fries. they r ppl who pretty much disagrees in everything i do. n when they agree in something i wan to do, that thing cant seem to ever come true. so much for being happy over something even before it happened. now it'll nv happen.
im hoping this is a midlife crisis for me. cuz if my midlife is at 19, i only hav 19 more years to go. rite? HAHAHA wad a joke.
where in the world does an emotional person fit in?
but as time passes. we get impatient, less caring, less of EVERYTHING. including those tiny little thoughts, actions n words.
YES i AM being emotional now. so u can juz close this window n wait for a new post which will probably come up a few more wks or even mths down the road.
NO this isnt bout something that happened yesterday or today. as a woman, i bear grudges. loads of it. i might remember something that happened years ago, something u said years ago, that u cannot even remember now. something that u might even think u'll nv sae. HOWEVER, in a certain corner of my brain, i store loads of such information that i'll keep wif me for life. im female, get used to it.
im trying my very best not to go into details, but just to speak generally. i shall skip this part before i get nasty.
what the hell am i doing here man?! when ppl my age r out there flaunting their talents EVERYWHERE. they hav so much opportunity to do so. ya so im suppose to seek my own opportunity. but ppl hav will power equivalent to their manpower. n i dont. i MIGHT hav manpower, but the will power is..VERY BEARISH. (ah HA! finally finance is useful in someways. gives me a better choice of words u see.) n its not even the problem wif the will power, its that theres no support, morally or financially. theres none.
HA. ok wad am i doing here? ppl of my age hav their own business, their own dreams being fulfilled, their doing great things, n im here being fat, emo, n i hav no idea wad the hell i shld do wif my life. studying finance is sort of a wrong road to take. cuz i can see, taking finance is just like helping my PAPA to fulfill HIS dream. his always so excited when talking bout finance to me. its the hols n he doesnt wan me to work, he wans me to read up on the market, blah blah blah blah blah. GOSH. i really duno wad im doing now. im so broke, its the end of the month, n i only hav like wad, 2bucks in my wallet. i wan to go out, but i cant, i not only hav nowhere to go, i dun exactly hav anione to go wif. im sitting here hoping to watch my new found fav drama Grey's Anatomy. WHAT am i doing here?? what am i here for?
damn. thats life. n life sux. ppl hav lives, their out chasing their dreams. n im sitting here blogging bout them. like they really need more advertising...
never gd enuff for u rite. never. ever. cuz to u i can never get anithing right. u dun see it u dun feel it cuz ur saying it, n im the one processing it. everyones saying it, but they duno i go into details wif those things. if ur a puny fry who juz said some shit to me, i'll pretty much ignore u, but i cant ignore those things they said cuz their not puny fries. they r ppl who pretty much disagrees in everything i do. n when they agree in something i wan to do, that thing cant seem to ever come true. so much for being happy over something even before it happened. now it'll nv happen.
im hoping this is a midlife crisis for me. cuz if my midlife is at 19, i only hav 19 more years to go. rite? HAHAHA wad a joke.
where in the world does an emotional person fit in?
~what a whole bunch of crap~
posted by Shumz @ 1:57:00 PM
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