a little positivity

Today is one of the better weekends because I get to work from home instead of sitting at the studio till late. But I'm rushing really last minute work. Rushing tomorrow morning's lesson plan. Don't even have much idea what to do! Damnit.

Everyday is going to be a better day. After crying over some shit just 2 days go, things did pick up a little. And it only seems a little better because, it probably can't get any worse than it already was. Not that I have less to worry and stress over, I just have to learn to move on, take care of myself, and fight. And constnatly remind myself I friggin need to stop pinning certain hopes on certain people because everytime it goes the opposite of my expectations, I die a little inside.

Just because I seem like I can take care of myself, doesn't mean I don't need to be taken care off. Also doesn't mean I have the ability to take care of everyone else at the same time.

Just because I work 7 days a week, doesn't mean I'm anywhere near rich. I'm quite sure if I were to take up a proper full time office job, I'd probably earn a little more than what I'm earning now. But I'm not giving this up because I love teaching.

Guess it's not that crazy my lecturer quit his lawyer job to teach after all. He said he loves to teach. Crazy people like us, it's not all about the money. Maybe it's stupid. But it's my life, I'll screw it up my way.

~catch the sun~

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