a little reminder

Have I Told You Lately that I love you?
Have I told you there's no one else above you?
Fill my heart with gladness, take away all my sadness,
Ease my troubles, that's what you do.

love cuddling u sweetie! love it more when u cuddle me too...

~and a little love~

droopy eyelids

ahh. 3 posts in a wk eh? i'm on fire here man!

finally feel how bz n stressful n packed my life is. hahaha! all my own doing so wad can i sae? strive on! hope dat eventually im able to be a hardworking student. juz need time to be one...

packed daes r terrible leh. feels like i'm juz running here n there n end of the dae im drained n feel like i've accomplished nothing =( although i'd sae i pon lesson 2dae for a v gd reason. hahahahahaha! aint dat rite babie? hehehe!

i guess im juz blogging cuz im bored n cant think of anithing else to do.. its too late to start to b a hardworking student. n im really drained. tmr is another long dae. fri! im looking fwd to fri. i think fri will b a gd dae for me. then comes the wkends, v bz n packed again.. then mon again! AHHH! nv ending. so totally not ready for mon to come. not even ready for TMR to come.. argh...

somethings a little diff. i cant tell wad it is.

~a nice warm welcome~

la dee dah to the dum

OH MY GOSH! i'm so happy! tons of shows for me to watch on my itouch. LOLS!!! =D

i'd like to thank those who cared about me enuff to ask if i'm ok when i'm down. thanks. really. =)

also like to thank the one who reads my blog only when i ask him to... or once in a purple moon when hes bored to death... lols! thank him for knowing me v well, a little too well its difficult to hide my emotions from him over the phone. lols! n also, thanks for always removing the bone from the chicken drumlets for me =D hahahaha! <3

OH u see wad this is?? its a HAPPY post for a change! yay!

i've rid myself of terrible things for once. FINALLY! i'm convinced to stay dat way for a while.

hmmm... happiness is difficult to write about. er.. see! humans. so much to complain.

oh dear me. my babie's going thailand. =( theres so much there i dun even noe wad to begin to be afraid of! =( wad to do..? close both eyes, hug myself, n hope he comes back the same man he went there as. no cheats no lies no smokes no thais (girls that is...... or shims..) its xam period, wk juz after my bdae.. i'd b buried in my bks rite?? rite?? heh... studying is a terrible distraction.. wad to do? close both eyes, hug myself, n HOPE!

so much for happy post. HAHAHA! emo blog. its a mood swing world!

too much wants n desires, not enough time to get it all. sometimes i wish i was a genius... den i wun need to spend so much time on each stuff but still get it done perfectly.

~hopes, wishes, crossed fingers n toes~

life story of a leaf - prologue

tonite i stood under the shower, hoping that the running water on my face will wash away my tears. but as i stood there i realised, all its doing is muffling my cries as my mind goes on n on about how imperfect i am in ur eyes. i cant help but feel how easy it would be to replace me. i look around me n see how different i am compared to ur frens. how terrible it must to be holding a leaf while others held roses.

thats exactly wad i am. a leaf. just a leaf. like any other leaves in the tree, on a plant. im just a leaf. while u pass by the occasional flower u wondered y ur leaf couldnt look like the flower. mayb ur leaf could b red like the rose u saw. mayb ur leaf could b a little more tender, like the petals of the flower. no matter how much u show the leaf how beautiful the flowers r, it will still just b an ordinary leaf. it will nv stand out like how u wan it to b.

super emo shit. how bout u quickly go pick a flower of ur own. i hate to feel like this. i hate to feel inferior. no matter how much i noe im just a leaf, how imperfect i am, i hate to feel like i will nv measure up to any flower. the truth always hurts.

everyone is having their own probs now who can i talk to my dear passerby?

u hav no idea how much it can hurt, cuz u r, afterall, a guy

let me vent a little literal translation of the life story......

i can nv b as pretty as u wish i was

i can nv b as hot as u would like

i can try to change, but all i can do is try

but no matter how much i try, its nv enuff

i noe for a fact i would nv turn into ur dream

all i can do is love u a little more

just a little more each day

n wish dats enough..

~hate u again for making me so upset over crapshit things~

im bluer than the ocean

it scares me that the mere thought of losing u can cause me so much heartache.

Dear blog,

When I'm emo, I turn to you.

Love,

Shumz

n i hate to feel like... im not THE one. im juz someone. i hate dat. i hate it. cuz it makes me feel like im easily replaceable. probably i am yes. im juz like everyone else. n i had this crazy thought to juz lose u now so i wun lose u when i need u the most.

tired, emo n nuts.

damn tired. n tmr is a super long dae.

n hate it when my papa keep assuming im always free. kns. dun even wait for me to sae wad i hav on fri juz keep assuming i hav nothing n ask me not to purposely make any appointments wif ppl. -.-" wth. keep nagging ask me to stay hm. juz cuz they need someone to let the cleaning lady in. -.-" k la. dun go sch lor. i stay hm lor. kns.

nice classical emo song. hahahaahaha

still listening to classical music. i think im crazy...

~shutup or i'll start...~