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first of all..HAPPY 18^th BIRTHDAY BANANA a.k.a MILK CHOCOLATE a.k.a LOH SHUYI..hahaha..

hmm..i tot i had a lot of things to sae..but it seems that i hav writers block..hmm..at a total lost for words..will come back when i think of something..

~Jealousy is inconsolable because it cannot know the beloved's innermost thoughts.~

i wish to forget to remember

i finally noe wad emotion outburst means. i've finally experienced it. all this while i thought i was going to be fine. then i was bored, so i explored my inbox. looking at the numerous email by mr.b, i felt a sense of, need, to read them, so my itchy hand went to open the mail. mail after mail i open n read. the contents i used to smile at made me cry.

i went to shower. n for 15mins i stood under the water crying. well, 15mins isnt the longest time but it is the longest time eva since the breakup. i noe im not suppose to think about mr.b. but the harder i try to forget things, the more i realise i canot let it go. so now, i just let my emotions go, cry, wipe away the tears. i'll just let my thoughts wonder to mr.b as much as it wants to, even though i noe im not suppose to. just hope that things will be alright again, as soon as possible, not another 2 years i hope.

i keep thinking, i took 2 years to forget a bloody bastard, how long will i take to forget someone i really loved, n who did love me back, showered me wif hugs n kisses. i really wonder...

No matter how I fight it
Can't deny it
Just can't let you go

I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

Now look at me
Instead of moving on, I refuse to see
That I keep coming back
And I'm stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last

Wish I could find you
Just like you found me
Then I would never let you go

there are many things in life we canot stop. tragidies, fate, LOVE, etc. the only choice we are given is to accept and move on. but its easier said than done, especially when something's broken. even after moving on, scars remain and they will never allow u to ever forget no matter how hard u try.

by evaluating things i've been through, i realise i don't forget things easily. many of the little details, even names of my kindergarten friends, things i've done with them, my first kiss, my first hug, my first LOVE. i'll never forget.

Then my heart did time in Siberia
Was waiting for the lie to come true
'Cause it's all so dark and mysterious
When the one you want doesn't want you too

~ever changing flutuating emotions, GO away~

start around the same..end around the same

ytd reached home at 11+..so too tired to come blog again..the sch is like my second home now..hahaha..everydae leave the sch so late..zhen shi de..hmm..

ytd went bowling wif joys shuyi candy brian louis weiye..ya..first time bowling..hahaha.nope bad..got lady luck wif me..hahaha..now hand n back muscle ache sia..tsktsktsk..so old liao..after sch stayed 4 hrs in sch lor..until 7pm..den went for the primers welcome party..hahaha..they sae got chance can get into the ndp thingy b motivators..omg man! den left at around 9+..went clementi hav supper wif shuyi weiye brian kiat how and xavier..hmm..should b spelt liddat ba..hahaha..lol! so farnie la them..zhen shi de..me n shuyi luff like mad..den went home..hmm..

o got pretty bird standing outside! pretty bird! hahaha..stand on the laundry thingy..hmm..so happy got long wkend..so tired man..sadly nobody to go out wif..sad life..got less n less things to sae le..

got my Ali back from hell..ppl who noe me 2yrs ago should remember Ali lor..if not..sadded for u..hahaha..hmm..i hav got nothing much to sae le..a lot things happen budden is either canot sae..or not bothered to..haiz~

i must move on..stop thinking bout mr.b le..if not i'll nv stop crying over romantic stories like hell..hahaha..dumb girl..haiz~

chunzzzzzz faster come back spore!! ur like my only singlehooded best friend now..argh! lets to jie jiu xiao chou 2gether!!!

~im not willing to lose u..even as a friend..9June2004-18April2006~

a jellYbean's bEans

things r not as simple as it seemed..so many things hav happened..so many ppl hav approaced me to talk to me..budden all made me promise not to tell..the thing is..there r things i think we all havta sit down 2gether n talk..if u juz tell me..i alone canot change things if ppl still hav major misunderstanding wif each other..juz bcuz their personalities crash..hmm..i really hope things will get better..if not..07 is going to be left wif only like wad..2 person ar..*siGh*

ytd nv blog..too tired le..too many things to do..sometimes really quite fan nao..i really trying to bond the class..budden some ppl juz not mixing around enuff..there r somethings that some ppl think n do..dat makes me feel they still not mature..not saying im v mature..i do go nuts at times..aniwaes..aiyo..everything bout my class..hahaha

hmm..do ppl who break up all feel the same? hmm..some how i think they do? cuz experience the same things..miss the same things..feel the same things n stuff..so emotionally unstable..its like everything can remind me of mr.b ba..n i mean EVERYTHING..buses,cars,cabs,mrt,slp,sun,moon,stars,grass,shopping,EVERYTHING LA..hmm..budden i guess im feeling better le ba..so much easier to choke back tears now..so haven been crying for few daes le ba..feel a sense of accomplishment! lol!

tml going bowling..hmm..first time..hmm..the place really looks nice from far..hahaha..not so sure bout playing the game itself..sure v ma lu de..hahaha..

during programming wanted to blog de..budden so bz leh! hmm..programming makes me high man..when comes to programming me n ms.s will go mad..wonder y lor..but gd la..luffter is the bez medicine..i love going mad..luff out of nowhere..hahaha..

chamz la..2nd wk of sch only..i so damn lazy do hw liao..tml got b&fi to do i nv touch yet..hahaha..not intending to do leh..haiz~ laziest class rep in the world..hahaha!

im going to market a product..medicine for the broken-hearted..dat is if i can really make something lidat..hmm..wish for the world to b free from the pain of broken-heart..wish the world to b full of love..mayb this is y i support gays a lot..as long as there is love..i'll support it..after all..they're humans too!!! i disagree wif everyone who disagree gay relationships..b open minded man..they're just different..we all r..theres nothing wrong wif them..they being a minority doesnt mean their wong in anywae..

~to forget is not a choice..to let go is a need..to move on i will..to b free i am..to b happy im trying..to b sad i refrain..to forgive i hav..~

screwed up sia..totally pissed

my god...wad kind of friggin dae is this la..so much crap from crappy ppl..firstly..ytd..i asked my classmates see wad the feel about this class..we r not united enuff..so i suggested we go for class gathering..so will noe each other..so ok..i told ms.s..den ms.s put on her nick dat got class outing..i was a bit..huh? so fast? budden nvm..so i go ask around..some sae got other outings..some nv give me answer..den i was thinking..ok..since some ppl got other outings den nx time lor..ok..i admit is my fault i nv tell ms.s..i nv make things clear to ppl..im so sorrie..

ppl who hav other outings..u told me u got another outing wif ur last yr's class..den suddenly 2dae u ask us gather..den i tot..ok lor..last min..budden aniwae we got nothing to do for 2hrs..den u were the one who started to ask everyone to gather..den fine la..derrick they all got other things on..den fine wif me also..den we juz on the spot decided to go jurong point..den decided to go n eat cuz some of us hungry..den weiye suggested we go sch de kfc..den we all agreed..n juz went there lor..

we reached there..no space..so its my fault la?! im suppose to book the tables isit? its lunch hr lor..wth..so wadeva lor..den joys said we juz buy our own food n go find elsewhere to sit lor..den brian said we can wait for a place to sit..den i was like..ok lor..i mean since they dun mind..i dun mind either de lor..got time to spare mah..den weiye novi wenting lynette me shuyi candy we all go into the same shop buy stuff..duno y suddenly weiye n novi like attitute each other..duno who said they hav their own things to do or something liddat..den weiye said if u all got personal things y ask class rep organize class gathering..den i heard novi said is not she ask for gathering de lor..fine..so now its my fault le la?!

if i wanted a class gathering..i will CONFIRM WIF EVERYONE DE LOR..i will ask EVERYONE for their comments..if they canot make it they will havta give a reason..so wadeva la..now is my fault?!

im not blaming anione for this..cuz i believe we r all at fault somewhere..we didnt hav patience to communicate wif each other...YA..about COMMUNICATING......

joys kim brian their class actually DID hav a class outing lor..if they hav..y canot tell me?! i nv point knife sae MUZ GO MUZ GO..i didnt even confirm anithing la..somemore i heard the other ppl in their class planning to meet waited for 1 hr lor..wth..y canot tell me u all got class gathering..our class can always gather another dae de wad..u all made a previous commitment y canot tell me?! not sae i will do anithing to u or sae anithing..last min things can b cancelled de wad..dumb crap..

am so pissed off at this particular person who totally has no experience in treating his other half la..COMMUNICATION man..duno how to ask n talk meh? so petty angry at the other half out of nowhere expecting the other person to noe wad the hell ur thinking of la..we DO NOT MIND READ LA..not happy TELL ME IN MY FACE LA..we can talk it over de lor..im not a man bu jiang li person..i will reason out for u n listen to ur reasoning also..if im in the wrong i'll apologise to u de lor..im so damn disappointed in this class..i dun understand y some ppl can point finger at others without getting the right facts la..so i tried again to pull the class 2gether..cuz i noe we really not united..cant u b cooperative a bit..give me another chance..give everyone else another chance????? i ask u nicely..ask for ur OPINION on our nx class outing lor..i nv juz TELL u we going this place doing wad..i gave u a choice on the location n the dae..isit so difficult to choose?! most of the class v cooperative..gd! *claps claps* for these ppl..budden some of u..give ATTITUTE..u think u v big ar?! here i am trying my bez..there u are giving me SHIT..plz la..if u think its really so easy..y not u take over my job? u all duno lor..the rest of the ppl bhind u guys all listening to me somemore..even though they not our class de..i ask nicely n u all give me attitute..THANX AR..

i really apologise for so much misunderstanding n miscommunication..budden i really hope u guys will give each other another chance..give me another chance to try to pull our class 2gether..im willing to try again..but u guys muz cooperate wif me also!

~get ur facts right b4 u point finger at anione..n plz..TALK TO ME..dun expect me to read ur minds~

boring dae..hmmmm

haiz~ now in programming class again la..i think programming class is a good time to blog..hahaha..aniwae the teacher v slow de mah..den also nothing much to do..hahaha..sianz..later muz go piano lesson..haiyo..so sian leh..dumb man..travel 1hr30mins for 1hr lesson..duno how many times i sae this le..budden really la! sianz..

juz now go arcade play during 2hr break..hahaha..quite fun ba..budden spent $7 on it la..cuz muz buy card..hmm..as usual rush back sch again..budden nv late la..hahaha
during lec randy ng show us this woman business thriving on ebay..hahaha..now me n ms.s thinking of selling things on ebay too..budden duno wad to sell lor..hahaha..hmmm..boring laaaa..................

mr.b called me ytd nite..haiz~~ huai nian man..zhen shi de..lonely..im so lonely..i hav nobody..to call my own..sigh man sigh..

wads wrong wif this yr's dragon couples man..like..not shun li lor..so many got probs..stupid..wad..the stupid moon n the stupid sun cross or some shit den we stop loving each other liao le meh..rubbish thing la..cockster..screwed up shit..zhen shi de..

really duno wad to sae..juz wan type cuz now really got nothing else to do la..tsk..so boring sia..so tired..so cham..nv practice piano..haiz~ hahaha..practiced once..budden the song sounded like shit la..den v sian now..*sigh*

yawn n yawn..nobody online at this time de..nobody to talk to..LOL..really going to fall asleep le..hmm..my dae got less n less things to talk about le..sux..my life is so boring!!! tsk..will die earlier den everybody else..hahaha..feel like eating the thai food again..so yummy..although eat so much gave me a v weird tummy 2dae..hungry also not hungry..pain also not pain..duno wads wrong wif it..tom yam soup........WAAAA..spicy enuff..delicious man..now think le..hungryyyy..droolingzz..

shittiez man..lost le..duno wad teacher talking about..LOL..kk..buiaz~

~in a perfect world, this would never happen. in a perfect world, u'd still b here~

2dae..tired man!

2dae so damn tired man..zhen shi de..dun feel like elaborating either leh..haiz~ hahaha..basically..kena scolded cuz i woke up at 11+..juz really tired mah..den go help make lunch..cut mushroom..den papa throw me this stack of flyers..n newspaper..ask me to read n tell him..duno wad to tell him la..dots de lor..juz ask me to sae..sae wad la..dun even noe wad u wan..so i juz said wad is inside lor..den he sae thats not wad u wan to noe..wad the hell lor..u wan wad also duno how to tell me..expect me to read ur mind..den after a while..i go plan time wif ms.v..cuz we planned to go out..den scold me ask me where i going..plz lor..ask me go for the stupid member tour thingy for singapore polo club..fine lor..i go plan time..den expect me to sit there meh..den if i dun go plan sure kena scolded..sae wad..muz wait for u spoonfeed..rubbish la! morning wake up only make me so damn pissed..bloody hell man..

den went there..the pool so small..they dun hav aerobics classes either..its so damn ex..den horse riding lessons so ex somemore..i rather he buy the igallop for me lor..spend $10,000 on the membership..wan ride horse muz pay $420..somemore every month muz pay extra $80+ bucks..too ex liao le lor..so i think in the end sure wun go apply..rubbish thing la..

den after that went out wif ms.v..waited for her cuz i reached damn early..so went walk walk around..go hmv..haiz~ so sian leh..everything i look at..i keep thinking of him..mr.b..think n think n think..den suddenly..ms.v call me..sae 1hr plus pass liao..den i v blur..didnt feel that long to me at all lor seriously..duno..think too much..hahaha..went gior to buy polo tee n plain tops..hmm..went to buy ms.s de bdae prezzie too! mission accomplished!

so..after dat went dinner wif mama papa n didi..ate thai food..wa..nice sia..hahaha..got pineapple rice..scallops ( v big wor! )..fried veg..tom yam soup..wa v nice..S.P.I.C.Y man..but v nice..n some crab meat thingy soup..v nice also..ya..i ate damn alot..exploding..hahaha..ok..fine..nothing else to sae le..should slp le..if not later kena nag at again..sianz man..

watch finish spongebob squarepants the movie..damn cute la! v lame budden really v farnie..like it..spongebob one of my fav cartoon character..hahaha..like patrick too! hahaha..institution for the criminally tiny..LOL manz..kk..tata!

~if only i could turn back time..~

nutty nutty me

stupid grace..so irritating la she..stupid idiot..everytime complain so much..even herself also sian le..hate it la..hate singlehood..y isit so difficult to get use to this leh..so sian de leh..will banging head on wall give amnesia? is that wad u call it? juz forget a lot of things..even for a while also better den now..few mins/hrs/days/wks/months also can..dun mind..at least relief my pain for a while..running away is not a solution..budden sometimes its juz soooooo..attractive..HAHAHA..pain-free for a while..i can stand it..i keep lingering around the same topic..around the same prob..sux big time..hate myself for everything la..stupid shit..sian until..duno got wad can do..if i hav a gun now..i'll shoot myself

got new game intro by mr.w..like beatmania..some o2jam thingy..v old game..now den i noe..so damn lag..aniwaes..haiz~ so hot tired duno wad duno wad..stupid grandaunt come visit me..idiot..these daes like nothing to talk bout leh..to everybody..got things to do leh..but v tired..dun feel like doing anithing but sitting here..

ms.c gave me n ms.s a prezzie each..hahaha..quite cute..note pad thingy in a shape of a heel..cute..hahaha..spent a lot ytd..shittiez man..am going to b so dead the rest of the month..LOL..heck care man..the most go hungry only..*yAwnN!* damn cramps..make me so tired!

i actually imagined myself crying like mad n smashing the photoframe on the floor..den got broken glass on the floor..watch too much tv..hahaha..

i think im too fat..hmm..ya..go on starvation diet..again..hahaha..madness..nono..canot live without chocolates..

i love my bears..they are cute n furry..

obviously im only using 1/100 of my brain..nothing is making sense as of now..so dizzy man..hahaha..mayb im going to pass out..ya..i think i should..if only i had a choice..........hmm.....

i am a stupid girl..[XiAo PaNg] says: shut up grace

its ok if things dun make sense to u..its not u..its me..

~i believe love is not blind..love sees but does not mind~

KBOX 2

WAD A DAE! soooooo tired man..hahaha..went kbox again wif ms.c!! actually plan was to window shop..cuz we both damn broke..in the end spend so much..hahaha..drank long island ice tea..den start to high le..sing song like mad person..scream and shout de..hahahahaha!! damn high lor..den there so cold..mad de..me n ms.c shivering like nobody's business..hahahaha! den we stood up to sing..dance here n there..jump n jump..den a bit better..hahaha..my god..all i had for dinner was the long island ice tea n ice lemon tea..LOL..my stomach is going to rot lor..now it feels weird..muz b i hungry..canot tell..HAHAHA

went to paint my nail gold red n blue..so damn cool..nx time im going to pain my nails liddat..LOL














so..aniwaes..hmm..nothing much to sae leh..too tired to think..muz promise myself nv to cry over guys le..no point rite..it doesnt change anithing..sian..sometimes feel like kena run over by lorry liddat..so difficult to breathe..the heart like spoil..damn pain the feeling liddat..den will cry..sux la..tsk..muz grow wings..fly in the sky den wun run over by lorry le..LAME..wadeva la grace..

muz make more frens..enlarge my social circle! hahaha..YES..confirm going China le! 12 days leh..not bad nia..can play in Disney Land also lor..at HK..we going quite a few places..FUN..looking foward to it..shitz..com lagging..sianz..haiz~ go bathe first den blog somemore if i think of something..=D

~the first cut is the deepest~

finally canot take it animore

after tolerating n swollowing back tears for a day or so..i cant stand it liao le la..finally burst out le..all the tears..all the pain..everything i supressed..guess when sad muz juz let it go..den will feel better ba..now eyes swollen nia..so tired also..haiz~ stupid..hate me..so emotional for wad?! not sae it will change anithing..sux

i juz really hope no one will feel heartbroken eva again..hope this world will b full of love..hope everyone loves each other in one way or another..this is better den wishing for peace..cuz naturally..when u love one another..there will b peace and harmony..killing a million birds wif one stone..

forth dae of sch le..duno wad all the lecturers toking bout..dun understand a thingy they sae..mainly cuz canot pay attention..hahaha..juz keep staring into space n think back into the past..den faster choke back tears den draw on book la..listen a bit..think again..tears again..draw again..blah blah blah blah blah etc..

thank everyone who took care of me..gave me lots of constructive comments..hahaha..comforting me n stuff..thanx peeps..u guys r great =D hungry man..tsk..haiz~ go eat i guess..so late le..sure fat..budden dun eat also canot..sian..hahaha..crying used up so much energy la..hahaha..hmm..or juz remain hungry..muz learn the fact u dun always get wad u wan..muz learn the meaning of poverty..pain..hunger..muz learn to b happy wif wad u hav..dun wait till the dae u lose it den u learn to treasure it..it mayb too late..n u'll regret for the rest of ur life..

current thought:
wo lei le..wo zhen de lei le..
ai zhe yi ge bu zai ai ni de ren..yuan lai shi na me de lei de..
wo ku le..wo you zai ku le..
xiang qi ni de mian kong..
rang wo xiang qi le wo men de wang shi..
na me tian mei..na me wan mei..
wei shen me hui zhe me kuai xiao shi..
ni bu shi shou hui yong yuan de ai wo ma
mei le..quan dou mei le..
wo men de yi hou jiu zhe yang mei le..
dan wo ai ni..wo hai ai ni..
i will b there for u
zhi yao gei wo yi ge call
i will b there for u..as a friend

~im weak..its true..i've finally reached the end..my breaking point is just there..pull me away~

day 2 of singlehood

still not used to it..still find myself waiting for smses n calls n stuff..lol..so sian..now the stupid programming thingy..until EIGHT pm la..so damn cold..haiz~ sigh..2dae sure grow muscles de..carry the lec notes around..wa..my arm aching..hahaha..11 bks leh! thank god 1 bk not v thick..if not worse..hahaha..hmm..

nowadaes..not a lot things to blog about le..my blog getting shorter n shorter..ytd nite damn farnie..hahaha..mr.ck call me when i bathing la..den i put my hp outside..i think my papa go pick the phone lor..must hav scared him like hell..LOL..budden he call again..hahaha..den we talk on the phone..he v joker..make me luff like mad..zhen shi de..told him i 2dae sch end at 8 he ask me wan eat dinner wif him mah..hahaha..crazy..zhen shi de..den keep asking me dun cry dun sad..if not he havta b my gurdian angel pei me 24hr..LOL..hillarious..still sae scared i jump into mrt tracks..hahahahaha..i not THAT suicidal la..hahaha!! so nice of him..so damn long nv see him liao le wor..n this is like first time talking to him??!! ook..hahaha..

so sian now..the teacher slower den me..i finish liao den he juz started..hahaha..DAMN COLD..sooooooo close to shivering..cham..class ending..juz finish the first tut..farnie ar..spend 2 hrs on 1 tutorial..hahaha..farnie..okok..will blog somemore when im home i guess..hahaha..reach home le juz nice watch ending of ch8 24..hahaha..at least go home dat time got my gurdian angel pei me talk i think..he ask me call him after class..hahaha..LOL..kk..go off le..TATA!

~miss the old times so much they brought tears to my eyes~

no more baozy for real....

wad a dae..we made a mutual agreement to break up at like 12am? weirdly..we hav more things to talk bout after breaking up den when we were 2gether..so i guess..its a right move to make? although my feelings for mr.b is still there..but mian qiang shi mei you xin fu de..for the record..mr.b's b now officially stands for bing keng..hahaha

sch was alright..quite boring..make me so slpy..*yAwnnn*

went out to meet mr.b at ps..walked around..my hp no batt..so we went to try the batt recharger at carefour..i wasted 2 bucks la! the thing didnt work at all..sux..the only thing i managed to do was to switch it on..den it turned off again..stupid shit..watse my money..hmph! den we went to take 167 and stopped b4 thomson plaza n took 165..so indecisive..farnie i went to take 165 wif mr.b..hmm..hahaha

now home..so damn tired n hungry..watching tv..hahaha..muz go type the contact list out for the class liao..haiz~ *yAwNnN!!*

~ur the biggest thing that happened to me till this point of life..thank u for the wonderful memories u gave me..i'll nv forget them~

KBOX

wa..2dae really damn fun la! i come home drained of energy liao le..hahaha!! so long nv mad until liddat liao..hahaha..luff until mouth muscle ache ar..hahaha..=P..morning went class at 8 lor..so boring la..wad report thingy..lucky got old fren online to talk to..so not so boring..den duno wad stupid proj work thingy..b.o.r.i.n.g..after dat is 1hr break..me ms.s n ms.c went to the optometry area to see if their optic shop/clinic/place got open den go see see..hahaha..ask price for contacts..we stood outside for damn long la! 2 ppl inside see we 3 outside also duno how to come out tell us they not open this n nx wk..so dumb lor..lousy..tsktsktsk..after dat we went to eat mac and went back for lesson

den! juz when we were about to reach! we received news dat class is cancelled..we hav like..FOUR HOURS OF BREAK till the last lec la..FOUR LA..F.O.U.R hrs..so we went to biz lib sit down n discuss wad to do..we were so lost lor..hahaha..tot bout going ms.c's hse..going town..watch movie..GO ZOO..n finally..ms.c said something dat we all agreed immediately..hahaha! going KBOX! i've not been there b4..so..ya..excited ba i guess..hahaha..we took a cab to clementi..we each paid 1 buck la..hahaha..

at kbox..we took the lunch thingy..damn fun la!!!!! i first time go kbox nia..hahaha..we pick sooooo many songs lor..den we sing n sing n sing..we sang louder den the song itself lor..n the song was really so loud u can hear the vibration lor..the sofa la..everything vibrate la..hahahaha..damn farnie..even when we leaving, the door open we still singing so loudly la..den the staff walk pass luffing..HAHAHA..i bet they think we're mad..well..their right la..we are..hahaha..in fact i think some ppl scared of us la..cuz we too siao liao..luff n luff..everyone else like so serious..zhen shi de..i ordered the inhouse vodka..so lousy la..drink like drinking sprite lor..no kick..LOL..cuz they mixed wif sprite..dun even feel like got drink lor..hahaha..quite ex also lor..7 bucks..hmm..nx time muz drink pure..HAHAHAHA..sure peng on the floor=P

after we finish singing..we walk soooooo damn fast to take cab..cuz its raining like soooooooo damn heavy..den the floor v wet..wan to walk fast but dun dare walk too fast..cuz slippery..we finally caught a cab..and half ran half walk to lec..cuz the FA lecturer v fierce..dun dare late for her lesson..turn out we not late..hahaha..juz on time..quickly find place sit down n rest..so tired la! like run 2.4 liddat..hahaha..i need to go loose weight le..

suddenly..after more relax le..den suddenly..i became the class rep..i blur until forgot muz mark attendence..lucky the lecturer got announce to see all class reps..hahaha..den took n mark lor..i blindly mark everyone present la..dun bother..hahahaha..end of lec kena called to see lecturer..hahaha..cuz my classmate came in late den she sae nx time canot mark if they not there..hahaha..so..wadeva la..hahaha!

overall..2dae is SO DAMN FUN..nv had so much fun for so damn long le! =D

~looking forward to going KBOX wif mr.b~

frens

juz watched the ch8's 24..reached home at bout 9..eat dinner..so tired man..bag so damn heavy..haiz~

turned out dat my new classmate's name is jin le..not sure how to spell..was from montfort la..n mr.b noes him too..its a small world after all..its a small world after all..its a small world after all its a small small world..(remember singing this song in kindergarten?!) damn farnie..this ms.s..call him jingle..still sae he the hammie from hamtaro..zhen shi de..hillarious..we luff luff luff..so high after the programming..hahaha

suddenly miss mr.b a lot..so wishing that he will appear out of no where to hug me..hahaha..LOL..type halfway paint my nails..nice..light light colour wif glitter..hahaha..haiz~ y sometimes mr.b so nice to me..hahaha..i wish is all the time..budden..hahaha..hmm..it will come true one dae de!! it will!!

the whole grp raymond they all go pierce ear i think..hahaha..so cool..hahaha..i wan go pierce 3rd earhole..haiyo..not sae i noe them v well..talk bout them like they my bro..TSK..siao za bo..hahaha..

me?! class rep?! kidding me man..i soooooo blur..worse den sotong..me class rep?! yao mai gao co!? aniwaes..hahaha..fun sia..juz dat mang si wo only..nvm..thinking of working on sat..every sat..cuz ya..xtra few bucks a week!! so damn cool..shuyi dat lao ban niang so nice somemore..i seriously dun mind..she give daily pay somemore la..work every sat..den de timing so flexible also..one word..shuang!

~must treasure frens and make new frens..widen my very pathetic social circle..~

C# programming.new classmates

hmm..now in this stupid CSPA thingy..me n ms.s damn farnie la..we both chose to accept this thing budden we both cursing n swearing at this thing too..hahaha..but really la..its damn far lor..we business ppl canot put in business block meh..zhen shi de..juz realised got raymond in this class also..hahaha! came in so late dun dare to anihow look around..juz happen to see him..he sitting bside my new classmate la..zhen shi de..hahaha..so weird man..

first dae of sch..classmates hmm..they look OK la..budden theres still 5 ppl i duno their names de..hahaha! my bag damn heavy la..zhen shi de..testing how much my new bag can take nia..2 damn heavy lec bks plz the C# programming notes..SOOO THICK LA..madness..file n stupid piano stuff..jacket la..n stationery..hp..wallet..stuff..sian la..rain so damn big..how expect me to go piano lor..not sae i got umbrella lor..sux..stupid weather..always rain on mon de lor..ZAO FAN..tsktsktsk

whole dae thinking of wad to do wif my dear mr.b..i noe i havta do something..but i duno wad..haiz~ think whole dae le..stare at teacher talking only can hear he make alot noise..duno wad he trying to sae..hahaha..zhen shi de..so sian leh!! the programming teacher go quite slow..so got a lot time do other things..he like that mr tay ks la..everytime sae..eh sorry wrong..wait ar..if not wad..click help and find..diao..hahaha..his suppose to noe la dui bu dui..hmm..click help?! hahaha!!

sian sian sian sian sian!!!!!! tsk..haiz~ will update later de ba..since 2dae no hw to do..LOL..muz make full use of free time to slack..if not nx time no hav le..=D

~look foward to this yr end.learn to invest money.save more.work.ignore studies for this period of time.work out my r/s~

pics.me.sux.hate.ARGH

me..black n white..quite an old pic actually..photo taken by ms.v..right after rebonding and hair cut..hahaha













ms n ms.v herself..taken by n70's vga cam..lousy quality..hahaha..at supercue in marina square..on fri..ms.s and ms.c playing pool..me n ms.v not very interested..hahaha









my icecream bdae cake..thanx to mr.b n fellow ppl involved..hahaha..chocolate..love the cocoa powder..yUmMmIe












ms.v and i..under tungsten lighting..hahaha..cool effect! blueee..













me alone under tungsten lighting..act cute..YUCKS..=P
















me at mr.b's hse..photo taken by ms.v..LOlLL..dumb =P











photos uploaded on reader's request..not v nice..cuz i dun look nice at all to begin with..juz display for fun..hmm..yeah..hahaha..=D
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mr.b juz went home..its going to rain..damn it man..sux..how ppl suppose to hav a party when its raining leh..sux..hate u stupid weather..hmm..wad i did wif mr.b..watch him talk to this girl online..watch shaman king..something not interested in..but as a tv nut..i can juz get lost in any tv show..even though it sux..went 7eleven to get some stuff..the long walk back n forth..no hand holding at all..nothing..juz like 2 gd frens walking side by side..i think thats wad we are now..theres no more "hand in hand" now..its "side by side"..hate it hate it..hate it..wad to do? *siGH*

it appears he has more things to sae to that girl than to me..he can talk to that girl for like..quite long..n wif me..theres only the hello..hi..wad u doing..ya..n that rounds everything up..pathetic..im going to sae something very very mean..gd ppl plz skip few lines or the rest of this entry..here goes..is the reason y u 2 r not 2gether bcuz both of u are attatched? or mayb its a one sided thingy..i noe im going to hate myself for saying that..but wad the hell..my life is already screwed up!! FFFF man..sux..hate me hate me hate me..ARGH..wadeva la!!!

im nv going to b a happy person again..im sad..pathetic..wadeva wadeva..shittiez man..tml sch reopen..got piano after sch..i nv touch my piano again..sux..the woman is going to nag me to death again..haiz~ screwed up life..

~dun play me like a doll..i hav feelings too~

2dae is my bdae

is this yr's bdae better than last yr's bdae? last yr..mr.b was wif me the whole dae ba..i noe i wasnt v happy..i was even more pathetic last yr..this yr more ppl wished me happy bdae..hahaha..=D..which is gd..budden mr.b? things r not as exciting le..budden fun la..got to go out wif frens n stuff..hahaha

juz cleaned the table..the table top we only use during parties..soooooo dirty man..got all my doggie de fur..hahaha..clean until the cloth turn black..zhen shi de..hahaha..then prepared the trash bag..n bathe my doggie..as usual..she still soooo afraid of water..bathe her equals to bathe myself lor..she keep shaking all the water around..im covered in her bathwater n fur..hahaha..i smell like her shampoo now..hahaha..zhen shi de

the laptop is in my room now..actually ytd nite wanted to bring it into my room n use de..budden kor off the router le..so..put back outside..den rest of night canot slp..lie on bed from 2+ until 5+ den finally slp..my god..the sun going to rise liao den i slp..hahaha..muz b the tea my papa made for me..so sweet..budden nice..milk tea..one of my fav drinks..hahaha..drink like..1/2 - 3/4 cup only i canot slp for so long liao..2dae only slp for 5 hrs!! diao..tml muz wake up damn early..duno can make it anot..hahaha!

waiting for mr.b to come..he reaching soon le ba..hmm..den after bathing..after lunching..muz go make pizza..den wait for everyone else to come..i wan spend sometime wif my mr.b..haiz~ hope can squeeze some time ba..

my room got nice flowers..yellow n red..wif my darlingss sorrow n bao bei..without them..i'll b sooo lonely..i'll go insane la..hahaha..hmm..flowers nice..books n notes sooooo untidy..destroy..hahaha..

wells..go wait for mr.b le..hahaha..so hungry..smell curry! yUmMy..=D

~happy bdae to me=D~

timely emotions

damn..stupid blogger down..hmm..sux..stupid hormones..make my emotions fluctuate..tsk..sian..dun wan cry la..hate it so damn much..wet pillow n blanket

had this horrible nightmare..saw big dead fish..n it seemed so real cuz i could juz smell them..in my nightmare..so disgusting..den saw human beings vomiting blood..and they hav these eyes..my god..u'll nv wan to see..hahaha..dumb dream man..sux..

thoughts in my head: 1)do i still matter to u? i noe u care..i care bout u too..most ppl do care..i care about my frens..u care about ur frens..that doesnt differentiate us from normal frens..2)are u afraid of losing me?? if i dun matter..wads the point? i asked u a couple of qns..u replied all but the one that says "xiang wo mah?" i duno if u did it on purpose or u juz forgot..but it hurts..i wan to noe i matter to u..i wan to FEEL it..i wan to noe that u're afraid of losing me..i noe ppl sae when u really love someone..and the person wans to leave..u'll let that person leave..but still..u'll see the pain in their eyes..haiz~ im still choosing to wait it out..i still believe..i duno..i still believe that wif time..we would work out..haiz~

tml is the party..im officially 18! hahaha..my old fren commented that i sound like an alcoholic in my blog..hahaha..do i eva?! i doubt i will noe when to stop drinking once i started..till theres no more left..i juz wan to b drunk..feel wad its like..get a hangover..but i guess i cant do it tml..hahaha..mon is a long dae for me..if i get a hangover..im going to die on mon..so well..i guess my time will come..hahaha..for the first time..im going to make a vegetarian pizza..juz for my cuzzies..i hope things turn out really well tml..i did ask mr.b along..but i noe he wun come..hahaha..no doubts about that..

~come and hold my hand and tell me u love me~

again and again..u live up to ur name..SPOILER

aiya..should noe who i talking bout le ba..SPOILER..everything she dun wan den dun hav le..fine la..da bu liao..everything plan out nice nice..u muz spoil it..damn lor..fine..wadeva..spoiler..so now..im stuck at home..everything also nv sae earlier..ALWAYS give me last min shit..den always sae we last min..u urself also liddat lor..look into the mirror la..ask urself first lor..sadly i havta inherit ur genes la..the stupidity of last min work..juz hope i wun grow up to b like u lor..if not my poor children suffer la..

if only spoiler said something earlier..den mayb got chance i can see mr.b lor..hao miss him lor..haiz~ zhen shi de..sian leh now..haiz~ feel like slping..woke up this morning cuz my lil' bro..so inconsiderate..on the tv so loud..den so many sound effects cuz he watching alien vs predator..zhen shi de..

sharks man..ytd..went to bed to wait for mr.b to call me..den wa lau..i stupid pig..fell asleep..sharks de lor..stupid..den i woke up at 7+..realise i fell asleep..HAHAHA..den faster sms him to apologise..haiz~ so sad leh..zhen shi de..stupid pig..haiz~

ms.s gave me chocolates ytd..ms.v gave me a v pretty butterfly necklace..hahaha..nice lor..hahaha..n everyone gave me quite a nice bdae..hahaha..esp mr.b..hahahahahaha..okok..lunch time! muz go eat le..

~shui hai ji de shi shui xian shuo yong yuan de ai wo~

fun! thanx guys!!

ytd..celebrated my bdae wif my bez pals n mr.b..went ms.v's hse first..asked her for her cardigan to see wad it looks like on me..hahaha..so i tried it on..it looks weird..but not bad..then she asked me to try on her shawl..so i did..so fun la..all kinds of rubbish i did wif the shawl..and in the end decided to juz hang it around my neck..its gd..not only covered some parts of me..but also kept me warm..hahaha..mayb i should get one too! made me look like a tai-tai..ms.v saied i look class..hahaha..

nx..went to find mr.b..we went to his hse 2gether..he was in his jeans when he opened the gate..hahaha..then in the end he put on this formal top..long sleeve..so nice..black..he look so shuai la..SOOOOO SHUAI LA..hurhurhur..i only can sha xiao when i saw him..so shuai..hahaha..*drooolzzz..*

nx..we meet mr.z at hougang mrt..n went suntec..mr.b n mr.z said they prefered not to go marche..as they prefer ppl serving them instead..i felt..HUH..huuhhh..hmm..but in the end..ok la..everyone happy better lor..ok..den i told ms.c and ms.s to go swensens..we had our dinner there..when dessert came..the calamansi sorbet came..the waitress came wif an icecream cake on her hands..hahaha..it was MY bdae cake la!! hahaha..n i understood le..the reason y they said they prefered ppl serving them..hahaha..so sweet of my dear mr.b! all the credit goes to him..HAHAHA..thanx la ppl involved in this surprise..hahaha..it really did surprise me..love u mr.b=)..cutting the icecream cake was a real challenge..despite holding a stainless steel knife..(the kind they give us to cut our steak)..the cake was..icecream hard..hahaha..so the staff there took care of that for us..delicious chocolate cake..wif a layer of blueberry thingy..cocoa powder..YUM man..hahaha..the set meals on promotion..the one wif the different spices..delicious man..love the sause..goes v well wif the fish..everything is nice la..hahaha

after dinner..we went 7eleven..really wanted a few swigs of booze..budden..duno y..everyone decided not to drink..i dun wan drink men jiu..so lonely..so sad..so pathetic to drink alone..soooo..nvm..ms.c and ms.s said play pool..n the guys were ok wif it too..i was really a bit..huuhh..but nvm..everyone ok wif it..so ok lor..juz go..marina square de supercue..the table quite small leh..hmm..played a round..and went play arcade wif ms.v..damn fun la!! played house of the dead 2 & 4..did so much better den i eva did b4..damn fun..hahaha..spent quite a bit on it though..but i dun mind..i became so high after that la..hahaha..damn fun..

so after all..it was a gd dae..everyone is happy..im happy too..GOOD! hahaha..now..watching tv..this ch8 ghost show thingy..quite tired though..n hungry!! hmm..this movie ends at 2am..hmm..should b can last till that la..hahaha..juz now ask papa for laptop..he extremely encourage me to take the programming thingy..he sae if i need one..we will go get one..hahaha!! ooo!! going get laptop of my own!! lalala..=P papa sae mayb this dec holidae we go new zealand for 2wks!! waaaaaaaaaa..damn long nv go overseas le..miss taking aeroplane..miss looking at the clouds man..hahaha..im so happy..finally..hahaha

tml..papa going to book hotel..n going to book in at 12..if its available..and will come back on sat..den rest of sat plan sun night the party..hahaha..mayb if can..go meet my dear mr.b..i miss him now leh..hahaha..although juz saw him juz now..wells..hahaha..wad to do..=P ok..back to watching tv..will update if theres anything..hahaha..

~thanx peeps..love u all..thanx mr.b! love u most..n miss u a lot..~

2nite dinner wif mr.b n frens

wa..woke up halfway through my slp cuz of big rain..i remember thinking "oh no! plz dun rain! rain so big later how to go out?! my god! if 2nite rain how?! go where after dinner?! ok..i noe where le..b4 entering esplanade there got big space..ok..how go out la rain so big?! haiz~ y muz rain? ytd also nv rain..y 2dae muz rain?" n so on..n fell asleep again..so tired..hahaha..

i tried to book tables for 2nite..but the staff said its public holiday eve..so based on first come first serve..haiya..tsk..if dun hav how la..we all da bao go esplanade there eat..hahaha!! juz cross my fingers cross my toes it wun rain again..hmm

im still stuck between meeting ms.v first n meeting mr.b first..wan to see mr.b first..but dun wan to b found doing nothing when im there..i wan to see mr.b..argh..hmm..haiz~

i juz realised theres still many things i've not made decisions for..sunday party wad the ppl eat leh..tsk..haiz~ sux la..plan for own party..like so despo.."come come! come my hse for party to celebrate my bdae!" hmm..will blog again if i hav time 2nite..=)

~BIG green gooey balls filled wif brown sugar n coated wif coconut shavings...n PURPLE sweet potatoes..yuUmmMiE!~

nv fail to b a damn spoiler

may i ask wads wrong wif celebrating my bdae wif my frens family n relatives?!?! wadeva im doing now..is my papa's solution to my probs lor..i wanted a party dat everyone can attend 2gether..but this person canot make it that person canot make it..so my papa sae..spend one dae wif fren..stay hotel wif family..sundae party wif relatives..got wrong meh?! the hotel is my mama herself sae de lor..the party..is from wad i think n analyse..my papa likes parties..ok..so..I..ORGANIZED THE PARTY MYSELF..so pathetic..but fine..nvm..its ok..im used to it..i almost organized all the parties for like..birthdaes..new year n stuff

so..im so excited bout tml cuz i'll b celebrating wif my bez pals n mr.b n a couple of guys..mr.z n mr.v? not sure bout them..aniwae..i told my mama i'll b going out tml..n this was wad she said.."u always go out wad..wads so special" so i said..we're celebrating my bdae wif my frens..then she said.."u celebrate wif ur frens family n relatives..celebrate so many times for wad..celebrate wif ur frens can le mah"

KAO..i wanted to put all together la..u think so easy ar..u try to plan la!! u think i wish for things to b liddat de meh?! i try to put the party on the dae as many ppl can make it as possible lor..if u can find a better dae..TELL ME LA..cuz u were angry at didi for giving u shit doesnt mean u can give me shit la..n for ur info..everyone is impt to me lor..if ur not happy..so b it..as long as everyone else is happy..im happy le..as i always sae..1 person sad better den 2 person sad..this case..better than everyone else sian..dun make me cancel the party last min giving the reason u dun wan to hav a party lor..if that happens..i'll nv..EVA..organize another party le lor..wadeva la..F..total anticlimax..total spoiler..im only 18 once in a lifetime..so sae wadeva u wan la..

decisions decisions decisions..so difficult being a girl..so stressful!! muz think of wad to wear..where to go..blah blah blah..hmm..so hot..stupid weather..zhen shi de..tml muz eat like hell n play like hell..take more swigs than ever took b4..WOOHOO..FUN man..hahahaha..im a gd drinker..steady de..hahaha!! FUN MAN!! so excited la..=D

well..ok..havta go back to making decisions for tml..tata!! my wish for tml..NO SPOILERS..and EVERYONE HAV FUN..EVERYONE HAPPY..end of wish for tml..=D

~i love u mr.b..i love u~

its so boring 2dae!!

mr.b told me his not going clubbing animore..cuz one of his frens cant make it..seriously..no comments..juz glad that theres a higher chance we can meet earlier tml..hahaha..! =D so excited bout tml!! hahaha..guess there'll b..7 of us..kwel! one of my fav. no..hahaha..

MUST watch Eight Below..the movie bout the huskies..their one of my fav dogs..must watch man..its based on a true story! and the trailer..hmm..damn interested..muz watch man..that 70's show is farnie man..hahaha!!

i think many things r going quite smoothly..somethings i didnt wan to happen didnt..hahaha..this yr's bdae is gd..its better than last yr..a lot better..last yr i had this bad feeling bout my bdae..hahaha..this yr..that feeling is absent..wonderful!! glad n looking forward to my bdae..hahaha!

its nice to talk to an old fren..missed out on quite a lot ba..hahaha..muz treasure frens around me..if not so pathetic..hahaha..hmm..ok..boring life got nothing to talk bout le..hahaha

~mMmm..BACO..i love butterflies..cuz to me..love is like a butterfly~

todaee..shopping dae

hmm..wads there to sae bout 2dae..lots..lil' tired..morning went out wif ms.v..went bugis..chatted wif ms.s..hahaha..walked around and OMG..omgomgomg..saw this person who looked like weileng..n it turned out to b him la..he slimmed down so much..we exchanged glances la..stare lai stare qu..he look so much better la..so damn weird..hahaha..kinda one of the last person i tot i'll eva see again..hahaha

ms.v bought a really cute tube n a mini skirt..baby goofe (how u suppose to spell his name?!) is real cute..hahaha..i bought somethings..from suntec..we took a shuttle bus there..the stupid bus has this v extremely cockster aircon la..drip water like raining liddat..worse still the water is yellowish brown de lor..sux la..i wipe until the tissue papers like drop into toilet bowl that kind of pattern..HAHAHA..disgusting man

we bought sushi..and ate pizza for lunch..hahaha..niiiice..so damn fat..hahaha..but its nice..n we chatted quite a lot..hahaha..so hilarious..remembered bout sec sch times..those r the times that i will nv forget..so innocent n stupid..but so fun..hahaha..so many nicknames la..like bo tao nao la..dollface..ronald mcdonald..hahahaha..or as many of us Singaporeans pronounce it ronuh madonuh..hahahaha

aniwaes..after that..i went to buy a pair of shoes..cuz the pair i wore out was really killing me..my toes..had the urge to snip them off..but cant..so went to buy a pair of shoes..wif butterfly attatched! hahaha..cccute..ms.v exchanged shoes wif me for a while b4 i got that pair of shoes..sooo nice of her..thanx girl!! hahaha

went nokia to ask bout my sd card..its still a bit cockster la now..hmm..dun care..at least i hav the applications back..hahaha..hmm..spent every single cent i had on me..sux..

went bugis village again to change that 2 damn tight tops into 1 more comfy top and one pair of shorts..y do u call it a pair? hmm..one pair doesnt mean 2 shorts..y isit one pair..?? -.-? oook..

met mr.b after shopping dae..he gave me a wallet wif butterflies printed on it..kinda like ms.v's wallet..hahaha..but i liiikke...hahaha..nnnicce..mr.b was so sweet to bring me home 2dae..his ssshhhoooooooo QUTEEE..on the bus..although that "ba du" thing was weird..but its really farnie the wae he saes it..hahahha..shhooo adorable..extra kissies for u!! *muamuackx!!* missed the times he used to send me home everytime..hahaha..but i'll settle wif once in a blue moon..hav better den dun hav..hahahaha

the stingray his mama cooked for dinner was soooooo S.P.I.C.Y MAN..hahaha..was sniffing quite bad..hahaha..his mama asked me if i ate spicy food..yeah i do..juz not this spicy..hahaha..BURNING man..hahaha..den we went to watch tv..n this huge..DISGUSTING..mindless..yucky..extremely DISGUSTING BROWN BEETLE..that started to fly around..n when it landed nx to the tv..mr.b went to pick it up..n PUT IT ON ME..THANX LAAAAAAA..juz made my fear worse la..i freaked out lor..sux..so horrible..for this..i TAKE AWAY ur extra kisses..although this happened b4 the bus ride home..obviously..HMPH..no more! =P

mr.b's going clubbing tml..*SIGH MAN..SIGH*..i feel like..a driver who drove right up to the bearer..realising i canot go in..the party is INSIDE..n im OUTSIDE..ya..not sae i'm invited or anithing..even if i can go in..i'll nv b..so wadeva..juz dun wake up sooooooo damn late la..cuz thursdae is my bdae celebration wif my frens..try not to disappoint me..PLZZZZZ..for once a year..hmm..

ok..24 is up..n i forgot to watch it again..theres still some time left..so here i go!

~dont EVA do that to me again..~

s+rEssss laa..

i think im going to accept the CSPA thingy..budden..if i really take it..mon blues will b soooooo blue..nobody can ever hav a bluer monday blues than me..HAHAHAHA..i havta leave home at 7.30am..sch all the way to 6pm..rush all the way to thomson for piano lesson at 7.30pm..which dun leave me anitime at all to do any other things cuz the journey itself is 1hr30mins long..and 8.30pm+ leave piano lesson..so i'll b home at like..9+pm?? tsktsktsk..zhen shi de..haiz~ how ar? thurs teeeney weeeney bit better..leave home at 9.30am..end sch at 8pm..reach home bout 9.30-10pm..er..hahaha..at least dun need travel an xtra 1hr30mins?!?!?! -.-" tsk..haiz~

damn im so fat now..i really need to exercise la..budden too lazy..sharks man..i've got the perfect bdae prezzie in mind..2 in fact..osim's uzap and igallop..ya..the action is abit.......DIAO la..budden it really helps lor..riding horses really can help exercise de la..i rode one b4..when i was young..really young..i cried like mad cuz i was sooooooo damn afraid of heights..HAHAHA..budden i rode another one when i was a bit older..so fun..hahaha..i rode an elephant in Thailand too..that was realllly fun la..wif my frens..er..EX-frens..cuz our family used to travel 2gether..but we've not done that since..years..hahaha..i actually miss travelling 2gether wif another family..its really fun..hahahaha..=D

i wonder wad mr.b would b doing tml..wif me..hahaha..hmm..juz hope neither one of us will get sian..SHARKS..i forgot to watch that Singapore version of 24..channel 8 de show at 9pm de..the one wif the timing thing n the 20day adult-nap thingy..ya..its SOOO totally copy 24 de la..lousy..hahahaha..watch it for luffs..the subtitles sometimes screw up den damn farnie de..hahahaha..still got time..i go catch it..cheersss!!

~i would like to hug u n kiss u if i may mr.b..tml? ok its a deal..=P~

mr.b's important to me..

i've been trying to get online the whole morning damn it..stupid com..it hates me..but i dun like it either..once my bro come home...juz TOUCH it..can go online le..crap la..THANX..i dun care..tml going to se mr.b..we're going out..hahaha

watching super sundae now la..damn farnie..hahahaha!! this thursdae..WOOHOO! we're having dinner at marche..suntec..yeah man!! den we're going to hav a couple of swigs..boOoOoOzE..hahahaha! at esplanade..nice view..wif my bez pals..n MR.B..my dearie..hahaha..i think it'll b quite gd..looking forward to getting drunk!!! hahaha..sooooooo excited man

hmm..gotta bring my phone to nokia tml..something is damn wrong wif either the phone..or the memory card..the files keep getting corrupted no matter wad..i demand an explaination!

hahaha..sian la..later got damn piano lesson..xian ku hou tian..first bitter then sweet..so..after 2dae..tml onwards will b fun..hahahaha..bdae wk! to celebrate the reopening of sch nx wk..hahaha

sharks man..i still canot decide whether or not to do the programming thing..hahaha..ms.s got a laptop for this programming thing liao le lor..she accepted it liao le lor..n im still thinking..hahahaha..im sooooo indecisive la..but moz prob will..den dig a laptop from my parents..hahahaha..den my mon n thurs will b v stress le..go sch at 9 go home at 6 i think..thurs 9am to 8pm!!! or isit 11 to 8..wadeva it is..i will talk to my papa bout it..if he ask me to take..i'll take ba..wads stopping me rite..hmm..mr.b..i wan to make sure i can balance my sch work n my time wif him..cuz no matter wad whoeva saes..he is important to me..n i wan to make sure we hav enuff time together..

~If you love something, set it free. If it comes back, it's yours. If it doesn't, then it never was.~

you're invited!

Grace, your career personality type is ISTP

That means that based on the standard measure of personality traits, at work, you're the one people come to when a crisis is at hand. Your unflappable demeanor in the face of even the most unanticipated situations makes you the kind of employee all organizations value highly. You thrive under pressure and seek situations involving unpredictability and quick thinking. You prefer to leave the planning to others so you can grab an assignment and run with it. This does not mean that you are incapable of deep thinking; it's just that you use your mental strength and apply it to practical solutions. You excel in one area and like being the go-to person for your expertise. You don't like being bogged down with planning, but rather thrive on execution. Your drive comes from within and once a task is accomplished, you're not looking back-you are on to the next sensation.The reason employers and recruiters might be on the lookout for you is that only about 4% of the U.S. population shares the unique characteristics of your personality type. Research shows that businesses succeed when employers create a good balance of personality types in the office. And since only 4% of the U.S. population shares your type, that means employers are looking for you.
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hahaha..im here!! come!! offer me something that will cost u US$1,000,000 each yr..hahahaha!! =P..watched a couple of good movies ytd..hahaha..1) I do (but) I don't 2) I was a teenage faust..hahaha..not bad..n watched howl's moving castle or something like that..er..dont really like it though..not into jap animae stuff..aniwaes..sent my didi to his class thingy this morning..then went over to mr.b's..at least didnt spend the whole dae staring at him slping..mayb only about the first 5-10mins or so..hahaha..then did this EQ test thingy..i only scored 99..1 mark below the AVERAGE mark..damn..hahaha..but mr.b said low EQ means high IQ..i think i'll b the first to prove the world wrong!! HAHAHA..aniwaes..shortly after dumping a steaming plate of porridge into my throat..i went home..about..11+ 12pm? hmm..i think im getting used to this..going all the way the only to come home a while later..hahaha..its ok..im not angry or wad..in fact im feeling more than fine..hahaha..my papa said he has the vouchers thingy..n he'll book sat n sun once he reaches home on thurs..hahahaha!!! im coming hotel!! ok guys!! ur ALL invited..regardless of race, language or religion..LALALA..=D
~i burnt the bridge i needed to walk across..just like i screwed up my own life..oh well~

AHH.SUUUUUUUPER HAPPYYY!!!

ARGH!! HE REMEMBER ME..MR.B!! HE REMEMBERS TML IS THE 9TH..MY GODDDDDD..its the LITTLE thingsssssssss..ooooooooooooooooo..IM SO HAPPYYYYYYY..the sky can fall on me now n i wun even notice..HAHAHA..cuz im in heaven!!! hahahahahaha..i've nv been soooooooooo happy in WEEKSSSSS..hahahahaha!!!!! n he said 'wo ai ni' b4 he put down the phone!!!!!!! OOOO..SO HAPPY!!! lalalalala!!!! tml marks the 1yr 10 months of our relationship..im so happy im at a lost for words..ok..i practically choked myself..i need water..HAHAHA..canot die b4 tml!!! but gotta bring my didi to his class thingy again..hahahaha! wadeva it is ain't goin to ruin my day tml..unlessssssss..the never-to-be-stated happens..hahahahaha..which i dun think will..im FLYING...okok..stop..hahahahahaha..im happy n no one can stop me!!! hahahahahaa=DD
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earlier on..i came across this guy's blog..cuz i was juz scanning through other ppls blog..mostly juz looking at the layout..not really reading..but this guy's 1 entry caught my attention n i think wad he wrote is really meaningful..he said that he thinks that "i love u" should b said, and meant everytime to anione..cuz it may juz b the last words u eva said, n meant, to that particualar person..i think that is absolutly true..like wad i did b4 wif mr.b..he always ends his phone conversations wif "i love u"..he overheard this person saying that if u said it all the time..it will lessen..i disagree..hence agreeing wif this guy..who knows if those are the last words they’ll hear from you..i dun think you can ever say, and mean, those words enough..=)
~LALALA..i love u mr.b!! i love u oh soo very much! i love u peeps! i love u all! but as i've said..i love mr.b the most!!!=D~

HOTELLL..

OMG..my mama asked me to ask my papa if he got those free night stay at any hotel..so my bdae can go there!! my god!! dun worrie peeps! if im going..U are going too..hahaha..we'll juz all cramp in one room for 1 night..if it really works out it'll b fun la..hahaha..we'll turn the place upside down..hahahaha..in my imagination la..but aniwaes..i cant wait la..but canot b too excited..later canot how..den SIAN..back to square 1..hahaha..k la..waiting for my papa to reply my email..hmm..book le hotel..celebrate where?? I NOE..ESPLANADE..the park near there..WAAA...FUN SIA......steady liao..HAHAHA..=D
~oooooooo..reply reply faster reply..suuuuuuuuper excited now~

quiz results..hahaha!

Grace, you're an Amorous Adventurer

Carefree and fun, you are easily excited when it comes to new experiences — and that includes relationships. It's not that you see boyfriends as frivolous pursuits, but you enjoy the art of the chase, and you work to make sure that long-term relationships maintain that sense of adventure and surprise.You may not be the type of girlfriend who spends every waking hour with her man, but that doesn't mean you're not thinking about him. You're just an independent woman, and it's important for you to feel challenged and creative in most things you do. That's what makes any relationship an adventure.

hahaha!! =P not so sure bout being independent....hahaha..
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Grace, Sweet Gestures tickle you pink

Hand-written love letters stuffed into your purse. Giving up a seat on the bus to a pregnant woman. You love the little things in life - and you know that they can make all the difference. Whether you're giving, receiving, or just watching from afar, nothing brightens up your day like a token of affection or seeing people treat each other with kindness.Thoughtful and caring, you often put the needs of others above your own. That's why friends and family trust you, your goals, and advice — they know that you always have the best of intentions at heart. It's simple really, making other people happy makes you happy. What could be better than that?

this is soooooo true..sweet gestures!!
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Grace, your love personality type is ESFP

About 8% of the U.S. population possesses the combination of traits that make up this personality type.Being an ESFP means that you can be one smooth operator. Blessed with high energy and chameleon-like versatility, you seem to be the kind who enjoys life's fast-paced and unpredictable situations. Because you're able to adapt more easily to new situations and new people than most others are, variety can really be the spice of life for you. But just because you're social, doesn't mean you're shallow. You may not be big on intense emotional displays, but you're still quite sensitive to others. Oftentimes you know just the right thing to do or say to make someone in your life feel special. Your highly empathic nature allows you to know how others really feel without them having to spell everything out for you. Your type really seems to have a grip on life and knows how to enjoy the present moment. You're not usually one to take things for granted.In relationships, ESFPs like you are known for being eager to please others. You'll usually try hard to make relationships work and your patient nature helps keep you going even when there are bumps in the road. Realize that you set higher expectations for yourself than many people do. Sometimes you may put too much pressure on yourself to stay in situations that aren't necessarily the best for you.
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Grace, you're an Optimist Low!

Well, everything's not quite roses and teddy bears for you, but you do tend to look on the bright side of life (we can hear those Monty Python boys whistling right now...). Sure, you sometimes bitch and moan about your problems (who doesn't?), but deep down you're pretty sure that everything will eventually turn out fine. When the weather man says it's going to be sunny, you leave your umbrella at home. In general, you like to be around people, and you try to make new friends when you can. You do your best to take things at face value, rather than making mountains out of molehills. Basically, the world is sort of like a big coconut to you: tough and hairy on the outside, but, when you get down into it, there's good stuff inside.

coconut?! durian's more like it..hahahahaha..
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Grace, you're a Total Middle!

Material Upkeep
Although you definitely appreciate a first-class lifestyle, you don't feel a constant need to indulge yourself. Sure, it's fun to spoil yourself with fancy dinners or designer clothes every once in a while, but you probably don't need everything in your life to be top of the line all the time. Congratulations! You know how to indulge yourself the right way - in moderation.

Emotional Upkeep
You like being a top priority in your partner's life, but you also respect his/her independence - good for you! Sure, it's important for you to feel valued and appreciated in your relationship, but your expectations for your significant other tend to be realistic and attainable. You definitely know how you want to be treated, but you don't think the only fulfilling relationship is one filled with constant doting.

i feel that man..i noe thats me..hahahahaha
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Grace, you're fit to commit because you've met the right person

Sure, you've been in love before, but it looks like you've really found a match in this one. You've probably been around the block a few times, and you know exactly what's out there. Whether you've had a few heartbreaks or some dating disasters, you know a keeper when you find it.You're a fun and energetic catch yourself, and you know that the secret to a great relationship is good communication and good times. An honest soul, you believe in lasting love and making things work. Keep up the good work!

i am? i really hope i did meet the right person..hahaha..my mr.b..hmm..prayyyyy hard..hahaha
~enuff of quizzes..noe me now? hahaha..=)~

screwed up man..+ hugs n kisses=

Grace, you're a Romantic Middle!
Okay, so you're not a die-hard romantic who carelessly tosses around loving words, hopeful promises, and doting acts, but you do a pretty great job of expressing your loving feelings. Couplehood suits you to a T, and you like coming up with new, creative, non-mushy ways of showing your sweetie how you feel. You know very well that there are other ways to show love, respect, and admiration besides all that flowery mumbo-jumbo. Basically, you're passionately romantic without being excessively sentimental — practical, but also sweet and sensitive. Because no matter what, it's very important to you that your partner understands how much you care about him — you love how close you feel to him when you tell and show him what's in your heart.

the last line says it all..hahaha..thats me..thats who i am..hahaha..well..2dae..another day stuck at home..i did another quiz b4 this..its called something like..what's your true colours..n mines BROWN..damn..im not a brown..im not going to b one..not now not eva..how can i b a brown!??! no way jose..hahaha..action..aniwaes..i think i'll spend the rest of my day doing the quiz..its fun..hahahaha..im hungry! haiz~ thinking of going to the library..but it seems like its going to rain..stupid..sickening..i screwed up my hp..i think when i formatted the memory card..i deleted a couple of applications..SHARKS..but it was screwed up..wad to do?! thank god my papa uses the same phone!! hahaha..i can easily take HIS memory card n transfer the things into my hp..THANK GOD..hahaha..i still duno wad to do bout my bdae now dat EVERY chalet on the island including sentosa..is unavailable..sweeet..i did bbq b4..so wad this time?? haiz~ CAMPFIRE..hahahahaha..thats soooooo impossible..POOL PARTY..theres no such thing here..i dun even hav a pool..so sad!! haiz~ COSTUME PARTY..hahahahahaha...LOL..thats madness cuz no one will eva do that here..bsides..its my 18th bdae..GROW UP..we'll bring in loads of alcohol..YEAH..thats wad we should do..hahahaha..=D mr.b told me he would give me a hug n a kiss when sch reopens IF he could..hahaha..at least he said it..=D..am sooooooo looking forward to it..lalala..miss his hugs n kisses..wad to do bout CSPA?!!?! Certificate in Software Programming and Applications..should i take it!??! haiz~ SADDED..hahaha
~8 days to 18..i'd love to see mr.b the whole wk end..despite noeing its not possible..hahaha=)~

my life full of difficult decisions to make..SO difficult

does 4eva eva ends? how i wish ur a man of ur words..but our 4eva seems so blur..the things we talked bout last night really got me thinking again..not much this time..my mind is so clouded i duno wad is there..only time can tell..well..i told ms.v 2dae is a new day muz b happy..hahaha..hmm..i duno whether to take that programming thing still!!! haiz~ muz decide by the 12th le..budden i still duno..ok..reasons i wan to take 1)extra cert, since nowadays ppl like to see black n white certs so much i can give them an xtra one..2)mayb can use in future work..3)future boss got 0.000001% higher chance to hire me instead of others holding same diploma..4)test my stress level..see how much i can take till i break..5)to feel wad its like to leave home at 7.30am n get home at 11pm..they sae they work v stress..try MY sch hrs..ok..reasons i dun wan to take..1)i scared too stress..hahahaha..contridict myself..2)more time to slack..sae hao ting yi dian..can concentrate on other modules..3)less examssss..less projects....less hw..not like i got do..budden..lesss is more..hahaha..4)still got piano lessons..wad if need to take diploma?! how juggle..5)im SOOO bad at time management..ok..wad else..argh..i would like to convince myself to take..but inside me i really dun wan to take..so..?? QUESTION MARK..last month's electricity bill was 200+..gosh..its all me..tv on from since i wake up till i go to bed..same wif my com..n now my mama's laptop..sooooo..hmmm..tell me now..isit better for me to go out the whole dae?? or stuck at home the whole dae...its CHEAPER for me to stay out right...den!??! zhen shi de..still ask me dun go out everydae..even if i wan..theres nobody for me to go out wif ANIMORE..ya..there is actually..but their either working..out wif family members..or juz totally ignoring my presence..aniwaes..haiz~ bored..go watch tv..hahaha=
~what will it b like now if i didnt sae anithing..dats right! i'd b wif u now! but i did..so im not..hmm~

ytd + nice chinese songs..haha!

got nice chinese song..zhang hui mei's zhen shi..PART of it really reflects me..hahaha..well..seems to me watching xiao yuan superstar paid off..heard some really nice chinese songs..hahaha..like cao ge's super woman!! that is really a v nice song..like it alot..the guy's vocals excellent to me..even better den edison chen..hahaha..hmm..so sweet la the song..lian ai-ing..L-O-V-E..HAPPY-I-N-G..lalala..nice song also..hahaha..ytd..hmm..its one of the bez daes i hav wif him the whole of this hols..we didnt exactly spend the WHOLE dae 2gether..but well..muz b satisfied wif wad u hav..so ok..hahaha..ice age2 is v farnie..muz go watch..the front part is farnie..budden somewhere in the middle not farnie le..some part a bit boring leh..hmm..mr.b v qute! hahaha..halfway through the movie he kissed my hand..HAHAHA..lalala..=D..we also went to play arcade..hahaha..i v lousy lor..zhen shi de..hahaha..but fun la..hahaha..nx time go again muz try more things..hahaha..hao xin fen shou also v nice song..heard it in sec sch lor..when this china girl performing wif this guy..she's a really gd singer..though a little butch looking..budden she can really sing..hahaha..its only until now i noe wad this song is..hahaha..v lag la..budden at least i got it..i wan learn canto..so can understand n sing canto songs..anione wan offer free lessons to me?! hahaha=P ok..juz remember bout the gd things..n delete bad things..liddat will b happy..=D
~i would love to spend another day wif u..over n over n over again~

me so stupid

i cant believe it..after so long..i still haven learnt my bloody lesson..i juz canot shut up n stop saying some things..i still duno wad it means to keep it to my friggin self..i cant stand me..i friggin hate myself..sometimes i juz feel like bursting into tears..juz crying..juz letting it all out..i duno wad i feel like doing i duno wad i want..i feel like punching everything..if not for the rings on my finger..i would hav done that a million times already..am i worth it? all this time..u've been trying to hide that from me cuz u didnt wan me to leave..cuz u didnt wan me to b sad..cuz u care..cuz u loved me..n wad did i do?! i CRY..i complain..juz because i dream of my future wif u..i didnt wan to b alone after many years we spend together..if we were to get married..i didnt wan u to die b4 me..instead i wanted u to live past me..im so selfish..if that were to happen..u will b hurt..wouldnt it? sometimes i hope u would feel wad i feel..n i would feel wad u feel..so we could come to an understanding..cuz now..i feel so confused..im so sorrie i've pissed u off again..i tot i'll juz let u noe..i noe u still care..*slap myself*
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this morning..i was really v happy..i tot it was the happiest dae of the whole hols..but i knew more was yet to come..mr.b ask me to go out wif him tml..to watch ice age 2..n he wan to spend the whole dae wif me tml..YES..finally..i went to his hse at bout 12+..he was v tired..cuz of the class chalet he had..he didnt slp the whole night..i dont hav a problem wif that..cuz its expected..but the thing was this..i knew he would b tired..so y in the name of satan did i friggin go to his hse?! i knew he would b slping MOST of the time..which he actually did..y didnt i juz told him he shld rest..yy? wad the hell is wrong wif me? i can say so many things that is stupid..irritating n piss him off but i canot sae the right thing..IM SO SORRIE MR.B..KILL ME..cuz of me..i spoilt tml..friggin shit..now u c..this is y i hate myself..i destroy things that i love wif my own hands..
~it is me who made me sad..but it'll not b me to make me happy..it'll havta b u~

you you me me him him her her it it!

hmm..mr.b's not home yet..my honey said his falling sick le..haiz~ he really shld get some rest..im really missing u mr.b..hmm..so tired..going to sch tml for the 1hr talk..imagine travelling 2 hrs juz to attend a 1hr talk..hahaha..so dumb..but its important..so too bad for me..muz wake up at wad..7? 7.15? so early..hahaha..mr.b mr.b mr.b..plz take care of urself k?! i expect u to b well the nx time i see u..hmm..oo..i watched the jacket just now..dvd..its quite nice..the actor is real gd at movies like these..he's got the 'poor thing' look on his face..the same actor who acted in the pianist..everyone shld watch the pianist..its really..an eye opener..gd movie..hahaha..i've watched so many movies this hols..more den my fingers n toes..hmm..im killing me..boring myself out..hahaha..o ya! zhiyang won xiao yuan superstar..hahaha..expected..his gd..hahaha..argh..i need slp..hmm..mayb i shld juz go lie down..=D
~tell me wad to do..nonono..GIVE me something to do..OR..hand mr.b over..its either this or that..so CHOOSE..~

its my life..

another boring day has arrived..woke up at 8 juz to bring my lil' bro to this class thingy..need slp now but cant slp..hmm..plans for 2dae..b online the whole dae..watch tv..eat..play com..bathe..eat again..watch tv..n prepare to slp..probably shower again b4 bed..hmm..dats bout it..how boring can my life b?? even princess hav more things to do than me..chase the birds..try to catch flies wif her mouth..nap here n there..bother ppl to see if they hav food..etc..haiz~ i heard u mr.b..bout wad u said ytd nite..knew it would come someday..that someday has arrived..i've taken in so much n now..i'll juz take in somemore..argh..feel like digging my heart out n stepping on it..throw it in a blender n feed it to the birds..so i wun hav feelings..so i wun feel..so i duno wad pain is..that'll b good! den i wun hav so much probs n complains..n ppl wun havta get worried or give a shit bout me..HA! that'll b really gd..hmm..how sian lor..you mei you..im getting fat n lazy..going to b like my fav comic character soon..garfield!! the cute fat lazy cat..i'll do without the cute..n the cat..hahaha..stoneeee...stone somemore..stare at the screen n type rubbish..ok..enuff..i'll try updating wif my boring life again..
~im rotting!! help me..~

Note on TAGGING..hahahaha

NOTE to all who entered: to TAG..PLZZZZZZ..click on the 3rd leaf..but feel free to comment too..hahaha=D
~love u all..love mr.b the most..muackx!~

It's ApRiL FOols' DaY..[15]

April Fools' Day Origin
There are several explanations for the origin of April Fools' Day, but here is the most plausible one. April 1st was once New Year's Day in France. In 1582, Pope Gregory declared the adoption of his Gregorian calendar to replace the Julian calendar and New Year's Day was officially changed to January 1st. It took awhile for everyone in France to hear the news of this major change and others obstinately refused to accept the new calendar, so a lot of people continued to celebrate New Year's Day on the first of April – earning them the name April fools. The April fools were subjected to ridicule and practical jokes and the tradition was born. The butts of these pranks were first called poisson d'avril or April fish because a young naive fish is easily caught. A common practice was to hook a paper fish on the back of someone as a joke. This evolved over time and a custom of prank-playing continues on the first day of April.

15 more days to my bdae..i had a whole month thinking wad to do for my bdae..n now theres only half of it left..n im still at a lost..chalet at aloha loyang..den we could all go escape!!! oooo..i wonder if theres still any chalet left for booking....hmmmmm..ok..that plan is out..theres totally no space left at aloha..how nice..='(..downtown east has chalet available..budden ex leh..hmm..no promotion also..mayb juz chalet for we youngsters..sat night party for everyone..i'll havta ask my mama..hahaha..chim..every bdae i planning for my own parties..so pathetic..haiz~ mr.b's working..its so boring at home..haiz~ but nvm..i think i'll b seeing him soon..tue? wed? thurs? duno..hav better den dun hav..so muz learn to b satisfied..hahaha..arghhhhhhh..haiz~ sharks..if i hav party on sat night..mr.b's not gonna make it..haiz~ mr.b's going clubbing wif his frens..*pling pliang..* o....my heart..my poor heart..(this was wad the queen witch person said when she went to give the poison apple to snow white..) wad can i do? i cant go..i dun even noe who that person is..so..ok..fine..u win i lose..*sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh* u wont always get wad u want..clubbing on my bdae?? nonono..my frens are SEVENTEEN..we'll do something we can ALL do 2gether..lets so cycling, rollerblading n so on in east coast..but its a friggin sundae..*sighhhh*..movie too ex..KBOX..ms.s n ms.c would love it..hahaha..my com is sooooooo dumb..play music also can jam..music only lor plz..zhen shi de..sian wo bu gou fan wor..haiz~ got nothing to do..my blister's healing fine..a hard piece of skin is covering the wound..hahaha..wadeva..
~close to me ur like my mother close to me ur like my father close to me ur like my brother close to me ur like my sister, all my life~

what the world..needs now..is love..sweet love

hmm..lets see..wad time isit now..2.30am!! OOPS..hahaha..sorrie mr.b..i cant slp..using my mama's laptop..wireless internet connection..hahaha..but still stuck at the table..cuz low batt..hmm..juz read my cuzzie's blog..oh my gosh..from the things he sae..i feel dat he really love his gf soooooooo much..im touched..hahaha..every single blog..without fail..he would mention her..him loving her..missing her n so on..his world is practiacally revolving around her la..sooo sweet..the things he do for her..the things he make for her..wa.....tsk tsk tsk..hahaha..i muz sae she's really v lucky wor..hahaha..jealous? no..envious? a little..its so sad dat his so bothered by so many things..haiz~..i noe how it feels like to try n change for the better..but things turn out worse..n when u've done something..nobody notices it..haiz~..everyone shld hav been through this kind of situation ba..sux big time..hope u well wif ur gf cuzzie! wish u 2 b happy 2gether foreva n eva..hahaha..as i've said i wish no one would feel heartbroken eva again..hahaha..its a rather big wish that is impossible..but still..its still my wish..n no one can change it! hmph! juz u try..hahaha..ok..im crapping a little..cuz its rather late..n im not really thinking straight..quite fun staying up this late..hahaha..so quiet..peaceful..my kor still awake too..hahaha..he playing cs..can hear lor..hahaha..n i being v nosy..reading other ppl's blog..hahaha..i really wonder wad mr.b is thinking about..all his thoughts..i really wanna noe..i plastered my stupid blister finally..n its the first time theres bloodstain on my plaster..hahaha..usually put plaster..no bloodstain de..hahaha..hmm..is this info necessary??? okok..hahaha..feedback from ppl who hav access to my blog..too wordy..sorrie la..its all my feelings..wad comes to my mind will b down in words..hahaha..so..either u scan through..or u take days to read..wif loads of patience..yeps..mr.b!! i wan to jump into ur dreams..see wad ur dreaming of..see wad ur unconciously thinking about..i wan to noe!!! i wan to noe wads bothering u the most..i wan to noe how u wan me to help..i wan to noe if u wan me to b there..i wan to noe if im still impt to u..i wan to noe things u r really happy about..i wan to noe soooooooo much..i canot even think of wad..its overflowing..my mind is going faster den my fingers can type..so..in conclusion..I WAN TO NOE MR.B!!
~its late..slp girl..thinking of u mr.b..n wishing for a nice warm bao bao~