la-dee-da to u too

sometimes, as much as how u think it looks like or how similar it is, its just different. juz cuz my way's diff from urs dun make it wrong.

im super prepared to go australia theres nothing else on my mind lately but the australia trip. ARGH. kangaroos, koala bears, the OUTBACK! bungee jumping, scuba diving, sun tanning, blue waters at the beach..but we'll b going during their winter period. so we cant sun tan, or go scuba diving.. not even sure bout the outback..but theres still the kangaroos and koala bears!!! ARGH..i want to go now!!!

YES finally tml is a holiday. finally a rest dae dat is not a wkend. makes me feel like taking off on fri. but i cant. ARGHH. in charge of setting up for this briefing thingy. but i love the conference rm here! the view is WOOW. if only i can open the windows.

after so long, almost 1mth+ of working, 2dae is the 3rd? or 4th time i havta go out to get lunch. makes me realise how much i miss the sun. i get out of the hse b4 the sun fully rises, n i get home after the sun sets =( feeling the sun's heat on my skin was ahhhh. so nice. cuz the office is north pole every day. i wan to go sun tanning man..whether or not everyone is going to die from grossness when they see me wearing bikini..i havta to go. i need lots of vitamin D.

i realise when im alone, i make faster decisions. took me juz 20mins to stroll to take the lift, wait for the damn lift, stroll to the hawker centre while enjoying the sun even though im wearing a sweater, cross the road wif a bunch of bz n hungry business ppl, queue up, order, wait somemore, n stroll back. hahahaha! v lazy to look for something i really wan to eat. theres no such thing as spoilt for choices when im alone. cuz wadeva catches my eye, im going to get it n go. hahaha!

ok total boredness. hav stuff to do but everything is slow-moving. WHICH IS EXCELLENT actually. esp for 2dae. im in no mood to do anithing but STONE. yeah!

argh. everyone's asking me if i can b superwoman on fri. of course i can! im not them. LOLS. its so simple i duno y they r so worried. i juz havta come, set up everything in the conference rm, rush down to caltex hse to get the snacks stuff, put it all nicely on a plate n bring it to the conference rm in 30mins time. lols! can la. simple thing liddat. zhen shi de.

cant wait to get home to watch movie. but haiz. papa sure watching tv de. crossing my fingers n toes i can get my new laptop tml. hahaha.

ok ran out of things to sae.

~yawns~

a wkend well spent..my way

i had a wonderful wkend! finally! a normal wkend again. after soooooo long. sat went honey's hse for lunch! i love his mama's cooking. the duck porridge is so nice la. hahaha! ok ya im hungry now. very.

after dat we watched a movie, planned our AUSTRALIA TRIP!! YEAH!! lalalalala. cant wait la! i wan to go now! i hope we really can go for 2wks. theres soooo much things to do n see!! the super cute KOALA BEARS, n KANGAROOS. omg!!! n mayb the theme park in gold coast..ahhhh! cant wait la! going anywhere is fine as long as its not singapore or just our neighbouring countries, i just wan to go far away wif my honey.

gdness..they r eating nice smelling food. my stomach is growling..

den sunday, honey came to my hse n we went to buy doggie food for my princess. i bought a toy for her too. n omg i spent like $100+ on all her stuff. gdness...i spend more on her than on myself la. n watching princess play the toy is SO DAMN FUN! cuz shes juz so super cute. shes super fluffy now, muz b due to all the gd food im feeding her. hahaha! n so nice to hug! my cute little princess. LOLS.

den went out for dinner. was super pissed at my family. haiz. i duno who called, n my didi picked the call while i was watching House of 9. den my didi said we havta prepare n go out for dinner even though my maid already cooked. so nvm, i went to shower. i told my didi to wait 4 me cuz judging by his idiotic character he might go out by himself. when i was done showering, i heard the gate open. after i came out of the toilet, my didi was not there animore. i wanted to kill him for going out himself. so i called my parents to see if they're at the restaurant (its just 5mins walk from my hse, which is y i was afraid my didi will go out by himself). i was trying to ask if they were at the restaurant, n if my didi was there. DEN i heard my mama sae they're at bishan park. DEN my papa asked "u wan to go isit u wan to go i go n fetch u". OK since when am i the guest of the family? i hav a mute little brother, n parents dat dun care bout me? they wan to go out for dinner n they juz assume i dun wan to go? i really dun get it la. y cant my stupid little bro tell them im showering? its not like he duno. den y didnt my parents ask him about me? since they did go all the way home to pick my didi. im at home too wad. they know dat. n they juz wad dun wan me to go? den when they came, i ask wad exactly did they wan to do or go. den my papa said "you all think where u wan to go". wth. i dun even noe wth is going on la. den he so fierce somemore. so i got super pissed off. den my mama said "lets juz go to the restaurant near our hse since we're back here again". right so its my fault they didnt wait for me? if they didnt wan me to go den they didnt need to come all the way back. i could hav continued watching all the movies im waiting to watch.

wad a nice family i hav. n they ask me to think of my family? HELLO. nobody cares bout me n i havta care bout them? YA. wadeva.

now i miss saturdays the most. NORMAL saturdays where i spend wif my honey. dats the best time of the wk. cuz nobody's arnd to ask me to do anithing unreasonably. or do wad nonsense things dat piss me off or wadeva.

lunch is free! hehehe. juz nice i didnt bring food 2dae. theres chicken pie, curry puff, apple crumble. hahahaha! juz when i tot i need to walk all the way to duno where to buy food...=D

~a broken vase can be fixed back, but the cracks will nv go away~

my reply

this is wad is on the tag board for now. its easier to read it this way too. since you, who choose to remain annonymous, have spoken, i shall clarify some matters too. my comments r in white. =)

girl a: hi.i just heard some stupid news from 1 of my best fren since pri sch that you got your bf to have a talk with him.something about him harrassing you?! what rubbish.if you are tht innocent and all, you wouldnt have ran to my best fren and pour out your woes to him everytime your guy makes you upset.
[u mean i cant confide in my fren? so i see dat u bottle all ur feelings too? i hav told melvin just about a million times how sucky a fren i am, i dun deny dat. n u cant seek a guy's view on a guy prob? its cuz i noe he gives unbiased views, dats y i talk to him bout my probs. n i also told him he can juz ignore my complains i juz need to pour out to someone.]

knowing how my fren felt and yet you still took him as a spare tyre.i dont think you are that gd either.
[like i said, i nv eva said i was a gd person, he shld hav heard me said dat a million times too. i noe i've nv been a gd fren to many of my frens although i try to b, but finally someone agrees wif me, so thanks for helping ppl realise im not juz saying it.]

and as for your bf.pls ask him to get his facts right before finding ppl for a talkdown or whatever. [this has nothing to do wif my bf. u noe nothing bout him so i will really appreciate it if u left him out of this. the reason y he spoke to melvin was to stop him from doing all those things dats not worth it. i've tried n failed to stop melvin, so its better if the guys had a talk. to make things clearer for everyone.]

if you are the one that contacted my best fren most of the time,dont go telling ur guy that its my fren who came to look for you first.and secondly, i dont think sending someone home is call stalking.is your guy's english vocab so poor that he dont even know the meaning of stalking? [please refrain urself from insulting someone u hav nv met. dats not very nice of u. ]

and you as a girl with a bf, if you know another guy likes you, dont give him false hope either by contacting him.if you dint contact him, none of these would happen!!
[right, when melvin told me bout it, i told him it was IMPOSSIBLE between me n him. i duno how much clearer i can put it without swearing which i dont actually do. wads more, melvin was the one who wanted me to pretend he nv said dat, n continue being frens. so fine i continue treating him as my "jie mei", exactly like wad i told him i would do. and after wad happen last wk when i met up wif the band for the 1st time, i knew something has to b done, which was y i told my bf about everything. which was also y, for the past wk i didnt talk to him animore. hey im doing exactly wad u said i shld b doing. im juz doing it a little later, which caused much more probs. but then again, im not trying to give melvin false hope by continue being a fren like he said we shld b.

that thurs when i met up wif the band for the 1st time, i brought my bez fren along too. i believe ALL OF THEM, felt so awkward wif melvin following/stalking/escorting or wadeva u wan to call it, behind all of us all the way. even before we set off to look for the studio i already told him numerous times to go home because i noe he'll hav nothing to do, but he didnt wan to. i told him SO MANY TIMES i got tired of doing it. even my band frens were asking me about him, they tried to make space for him to sit wif us, but he juz didnt. i did intro melvin to them so we could all talk 2gether, but even after dat, melvin juz kept quiet n followed/stalked/escorted us all. and when we were going home, one of the guys in the band told me, "hey melvin is punching the wall leh". melvin's pissed, why? because he refused to go home no matter wad i said. exactly wad i needed. someone to create a freaky 1st impression for me. yeah.

i hate it when im torn between 2 diff parties. i hate it when im going out wif some ppl, and theres someone there sulking behind. im out to hav fun, to jam, not to console my fren. dat can be done another time. theres always a better time for dat. if he really had a prob he wanted to talk to me about, he could hav said it before i met up wif the band.

wad pissed me off was also the way he spoke to me, like a bf questioning his gf. he might not b doing it on purpose or consiously, but dats the way it felt like to me. n i hate it. so i decided to stop all this confusion n ignore him. i might b doing it all wrong, but at least i tried.]

and you know that my fren is not the sort that goes after other guy's gf.he is just trying to be there when you needed him, and look what he got?! a face to face talk with a hollow guy!? if you really have no interest in him and are totally head over heels in love with ur BAOZY or whatever,den stop your msging with my fren.
[i realise wad a big mistake it was to speak to melvin even though he asked me to. i hav stopped talking to him now alright...]

he dont need that from someone like you.
[yes he didnt need dat. juz like i told him. but guess wad. he didnt listen to me. juz like nobody eva listens to me. juz like even when u, girl a, reads this, wun care about a thing i said n continue defending melvin. im not saying its wrong, its fine to defend ur fren. but wad happened last Thurs was too much for me to take. even though melvin knew he shldnt hav done dat, theres juz somethings i cant stand no matter how much i try to get over it.]

we as his real frens will never treat him the way you treated him.and in case ur guy starts talking, let me ask u this qns baozy or whatever,when my best fren was with ur current gf last time, did you not always msg her as well, if you dare say no,i bet you are one cowardly man.call yourself an NCC trained guy.oh pls.dont disgrace the CCA.
[dont drag my bf into this, n dun insult someone u dont even noe. it was a majorly horrible mistake to b wif melvin dat time, not cuz he was bad. cuz he was too nice to me. it was a mistake i've made n regret to this dae. i cant emphasize this enuff. i didnt mean to treat melvin like a "replacement" or spare tyre or wadeva. it was just a wrong decision i've made. im not perfect n neither r u. i make mistakes n so do u. this was one i've made n i apologised for it already. so wad u wan me to do? turn back time?

and wad has this got anithing to do wif NCC? this has nothing to do wif who he is when his in NCC, this has nothing to do wif his character. his juz trying to b a gd bf. to protect his gf. PLEASE, direct all blame at me all u want, this has nothing to do wif my bf.]

using words like stalking is more appropriate for you in the past.
[now i wonder if u noe wad stalking means. he didnt follow me arnd when im out wif my frens. calling n smsing nonstop is more of harrassing/annyong/ pestering. not stalking. i didnt see my bf stalking me aniwhere before, so i wonder how u saw dat happening.....or ur juz making it up.....]

anyway. all im trying to say is,before you or ur guy starts blaming my fren.take a look at your own actions first.and i hope you still have the conscience to apologise to him for all rubbish given to by ur bf! btw, my fren doesnt know im doing this as well.no point finding him.good day and GOD BLESS! and, i already told my fren to try to FORGET you le.so me as his fren is doing my part.and this is where it shall end.
[hey ur not the only one who told him to do that. i tried dat too, ur not the only one who tried to do ur part as a fren. im juz not the right person to do it. since he dun listen to me aniwaes.]

and grace, you will realise you have lost a potentially really good friend...haiz you can choose to ban me or even delete the post.but i do hope you will no longer give my fren anymore trouble already.
[i wun delete the post. hahaha! this helps clear things up once n for all. thanks again.]

thanks for ur kindness oh ya, for all grace's friends, i do understand if you want to defend your fren.but pls, get the whole picture before defending.otherwise it doesnt reflect much on any of you.no offence to anyone. but only people who knows the story will understand it. thanks
[n y r u telling my frens how to b a fren? i believe they can judge this for themselves thank u very much.]

and so ends the horribly irritating situation. something i shld hav done long long long time ago. FINALLY.

~im done wif this crap once n for all~

less work more money!

ok! i shocked my com to death. ok not ME, the lightning. was checking mail at home before i left my hse cuz i cant check at work, then suddenly there was this super loud thunder n bright flash of lightening. there wasnt a blackout (cuz usually there is), but my com gave this high-pitched but very soft "squeak" and the screen went blank. i tried to turn it on again but nothing happens, i put the battery back (i took it out so it wun charge all the time) but nothing happens either.

i duno whether to luff or cry. cuz im quite sure if i were to ask for a new laptop, i will most likely get it mayb...10yrs later or mayb never eva. but there r still chances of me getting a new laptop rite? wad am i to do then?

i cant survive without my com!! but lucky for me i hav my honey bunny...

as many would hav known my honey bought me an ipod. HAHAHA. now i hav so many videos to watch! FAMILY GUY! its so super farnie i cant help but luff at the farnie things even though i watch it on the train n bus. its farnie mah. LOLS. PLUS i bought a new speaker. it rocks man! so stylish n the sound quality is not bad. hahaha. can charge the ipod and transfer files juz by sitting there prettily. hahaha! honey got 1 too! =D. so pretty. even though the ipod screen is super small, but watching shows on it wif the speaker is wow. super tiny home theater. cuz it sometimes can create a surround sound feel. cant wait to get home everyday now.

so many new stuffs n more to come (i cross my fingers n toes).

these few daes many of the managers will be out on course. which means i MIGHT b a little less bz. if not for -.-". i shall call her ms lala. another -.-" person in my office. the 1st one is called ms hmms. ms lala is the assistant director, ms hmms is the full-time executive. im the tempt executive. so ms hmms n i r doing the same things juz dat she is really HMMMS. sometimes juz wan to slap her sia. fan si ren le.

ms lala make me go around asking everyone to go for course. den i havta sign them up for this n dat. den everyone starts coming to me ask me to ask everyone go for duno wad other kinds of courses. n i dun understand y this ms lala wan people A to go for the course when it dun seem to hav much link to them. bu liao jie. den still sae if ppl from other department wan to go, people A will havta drop out to let them go. wth ppl decide le den u ask them dun go. ppl take leave to go for the stupid course end up u tell them dun need. u going to pay them money ar? wth la this ms lala duno wad she thinking. piss me off. like stupid liddat. she also not the one who is going to tell them they need to come den a while sae dun need to come. she dun need to b paisae bout anithing. sai de.

aniwaes! i love my ipod. i can watch show during lunch hr now. HAHAHA.

juz now this kuku guy come n ask for my no. -.-" his not from my company la. n the reason y we will meet is cuz company X ask him to come collect things for them. that was ytd i think...2dae he come back sae they ask him collect things again. OH PLZ. when the receptionist called i knew something was wrong le. cuz 1 company will only come collect once. wad the kuku nonsense this guy talking about. haiz. my instincts always right. so diff to ask him to go away. ask me break up wif my bf to b wif him. although his joking but STILL. hello we juz met? n its for business purposes? keep asking me to give him my hp no. keep saying wad sincere to b friends. gdness. still sae this whole load of bullshit sae im v pretty. still sae wan ask me out for lunch. OH PLZ. i think his education is only up to sec sch la. n i dun think he uses the com. he cant even spell my name? n cant even spell hotmail. wait how diff isit to spell grace? -.-"

i wan to go home! i wan a new laptop man. haiz. i juz reformat my com n everything was going well except its super lag cuz apparently its RAM is the same as a com from last century. LOLS. ok its not dat bad but its bad enuff. i hav no patience for slow coms. i think i shld get a desktop. cuz i dun think i hav much use for a laptop since i wun b bringing it anywhere soon? considering i wun b going uni anitime soon...it can b cheaper, can hav more memory..hmmm.

ok im super bored now. really wan to watch show now. my hands r itching to reach out for my ipod. n my mind is only thinking bout watching the nx family guy epi. i wan more shows! where do i get more shows?!?! =(

~work work go away~

fast forward the time for me pls

ooo! The Goodfellas tagged my board! LOLS! so cool. hahaha! if u guys r back reading this again, u guys r great! will sure see u guys perform again soon. =D

ok back to old boring life.

oh ya. i turned 20 2daes ago. on the 16th. nothing much to talk about. am pissed, jealous, happy, excited, sad all at once. let me think that over again......yep indeed. may i noe which ground ppl dig in to get confidence from? i think i lost mine a while back, mayb about 15yrs ago. i cant find it. i think i almost hav none. ALMOST.

YEAH honey bought me a RED IPOD NANO for my bdae. SO PRETTY!!! (i haven seen it yet. i juz noe its somewhere along the way to my hse.) HAHAHA. now we hav something similar. FINALLY. after 4yrs (fine fine its only been 3.83333yrs) 2gether. lols.

work has been super sucky. as usual. tons of cases now. everything comes in stacks, big stacks. n theres so many things piled arnd here im like building a fortress arnd me. just enuff space to squeeze onto my seat. hahahaha! the view here is beautiful. i love to photocopy things. cuz that is where the nice view is. haiz. sux.

so little in so much. give up la. meaningless words. i've seen only too much of it.

as time passes, a nice job slowly turns to horribly shitty one. yes of course there r benefits. if u count internet access as one. slowly getting way too much work. i think im like doing 3 persons job but paid only 1. im the printer fixer, plus everything else ppl dun like to do. or like to LIE about doing simple things like opening the cupboard, stretch outu r hand n grab the file. its so simple n someone can tell me they cant find the file. the only way u cant find the file, is if u DIDNT OPEN THE CUPBOARD. or completely blind for that matter. staring at the cupboard when its CLOSED, will not somehow lure the file out to ur hand. neither is dumping it on my table. juz cuz ur lazy i'll havta do the shit work for u? n HELLO. i've only been here less than a mth, ur here for how long? n ur dumping all the "i duno wad to do wif this leh" case ON ME. right. HOW SMART IS DAT. ya like real smart. feel like slapping her n asking her to shut up n go away. n dumping all my files at her. its not like she canot see how high the files on my table r piling up. WAIT. mayb she is blind...simple thing like pressing a few keys. u havta dump it on my table too? we're doing the same thing juz dat im doing 50% of her job as well. so. my position is suppose to b a 2 persons job to start wif. plus that woman's 50% and a printer fixer, i'll add that up to 3. how under-estimated is dat.

I SHLD GET PAID 3 TIMES WAD IM GETTING NOW. i demand a payrise. in my dreams. just like the one i had last night.

while i was sleeping, i dreamt dat i didnt get enuff slp.

contridicting?

the weirdest part is, its true.. HAHAHA.

i want to go home!!!

but i cant. after work im going for a company event dinner thing. nope not my company of course. I WAN TO GO HOME.

~bad day~

random blabberings

i so totally need to blog now. i need to blog so badly.

time is passing so frigging slow to my liking. usually it passes so fast! usually when i look at the time its lunch, then mayb 3 or 4+, the mail time, then time to go home. usually at this time im still eating. or something liddat. im so bored! i received 3 cases to process this morning (yeah! work!) but i havta wait for signatures. so b4 i get the signatures i can only sit n wait. which is so horrible.

visited some blogs here n there, looked around, ate biscuits, drank water. ITS STILL 1+. =(. i watched videos from i-am-bored, i read nonsense from that webbie, luffed, b amazed by some weird/amazing/freaky things ppl can do, ebuddy the whole morning till now. ITS STILL 1+. =((

so as usual, (im sure everyone noes this), i think of all sorts of nonsense n rubbish. sometimes its juz better to keep things to urself. esp troubles. the more u disperse ur troubles, the more solutions u get. the solutions will affect u in all different ways, confuse u, n in the end only adds to ur trouble. but then again, not doing anithing about the trouble wun make it go away. doing something dats not ur decision, wun make it go away nicely all the time. but it doesnt mean doing it ur way is the best way, ending up in regret is sooooo common its horrible.

no i dun hav ani prob now (unless its an unconcious problem..hahaha!). i juz hav a super bored mind. thinking of all sorts of nonsense. inactive brain n body makes me so super sleepy. wads more north pole is as cold as ever. juz wan to cuddle up in bed to slp.

i did something juz a couple of yrs ago, once, n ytd nite i wanted to do it again. its so stupid but the way i do it is so much less serious than anione else. it keeps things real for me. make me feel like im here. the cold against the warm. but i swore to myself nv to do it again. so i shall try my best not to? (do not ask wad this is, a magician nv reveals its secrets..no theres no link juz dun ask. HAHAHA.)

i dun really enjoy being this way but i duno how to snap out of it. im irritated by so many things. myself especially. emo sai. occurs when i wan to b alone. YA. not when im alone. hmmm. shall test this to see if its true. hahaha.

oh ytd's jamming was all over the place. hahaha! its like a thousand piece jigsaw. we played bars of songs here n there. hahaha! its so much fun man. but nx time we really shld prepare mayb not juz 1 song. 2? 3? so we wun be saying "wen rou wen rou" only. hahaha. lols. but i wonder when will the nx jam session b...hmmmm

~back to work~

7th day at work

oo. this job might juz beat the record of the longest not-hated job i've held. cuz usher was the 1st but well....now its not the case animore since nobody likes anti-social ppl. understandable. hahaha. n i dun like ppl who talk too much. super 38s.

sooo much has happened since the last post. wait when was the last post? lols.

- officially screwed up AFP TOTALLY. its like every 2 qns theres 1 i hav totally no idea wad its talking about. n those i noe wad they r talking about is usually calculations. n i cant seem to figure out ANY of the calculations. so mayb out of 95qns, theres only 10 dat im quite sure...HAHAHA.

- studying AFP also greatly affected my slping pattern. 2daes 5hrs of slp. so im like tired all the time now. yes even NOW as im typing this. so super tired. lucky i finish all the work im given.

- going jamming! finally, at vivz's uncle's jamming room. with eve, ricky, vivz, sky. so miss jamming! im sure its going to b loads of fun man!

- honey got his red ipod nano. make me want 1 too cuz can watch shows on the go. WOO. its small ya, so mayb an ipod touch. but my kor advised me to wait for the apple iphone, the 3G version. LOLS. its coming out in june he said? no idea. can i wait that long??? imagine me watching shows during work...how super possible is dat. im blogging now arent i...

- WAIT. coffee isnt working animore!! ARGH.

- ahh yes! went out wif my dear cuzzies! Timbre. great place. totally love the band Goodfellas. they r so gd man. how i wish i could reach that level. hahaha! love the lead singer's voice!! rocker voice! omgg..but so sad he didnt sing the chris daughtry's song.

renny, angchor, weixiong, weixiang, honey n i went there for dinner, had 1 drink. (tried something new, its called mojito. had rum, mint leaves, brown sugar, n lime inside. its not bad man! like it. hahaha) no i wasnt the only one drinking ok! the only girl yes, but i dun drink alone. hahaha. the pizza there is quite gd. love the 4 cheese pizza! infact i like pizza wif any type of cheese on it. hahaha! the crust is so thin n crispy. shld go back there another dae. hahaha. we shld do this more often too! hope we can keep up the once a week outing. proud to hav u guys man. other ppl juz dun understand how it feels to hav cuzzies so close to each other u noe, its a blessing. thanks to all our dear papas. hahaha!!

actually to think back on the wk i had, a lot of things did happen. pleasant n unpleasant. farnie stuffs too. i miss watching shows!!! now dat im really totally free from wadsoeva tests n xams (till the results come back n haunt me) i shall use all my free time to watch shows. oh shit didnt practice my piano. =( n didnt do my hw for tml either. =(

afp ate up the whole of my sat. slpt on sundae, honey came on sundae. *stonning in progress..* ya went grocery shopping too! missed something i used to eat when i was in kindergarten. (i'll nv forget gd food man). my maid, Angela (yes i still remember her!), made this n she'll give me some to eat. its this macaroni salad thing that i think all phillipinos will sure noe wad it is. so after more than 10yrs later i feel like eating it again. im so glad the ingrediants is so super simple. hahaha! n yeah! i recreated the long lost dish again. brought it to lunch wif me 2dae. hahaha! its taking me like almost 3hrs to finish. im still eating it now. lols!!! its more of a snack though.

oh yes! bout this morning. woke up at 7.50am. when i usually go out at 7.15am. literally jumped out of bed la! tio stun. cuz when i opened my eyes i saw LIGHT IN MY ROOM. omg freaked me out. chiong out of the hse n manage to reach work at about 9.05am. could hav reached few mins earlier if not for the super sardin-can train. every train dat came its so near impossible to board without kissing the door. i think its cuz of the disruption somewhere.

ya, n if its cuz of some person trying to commit suicide again by jumping into the tracks, SHAME ON YOU MAN. so inconsiderate. pls choose a better time n place to die. its peak hr! do u havta die when everyone else is trying to live?? ur disrupting our lives la. sure ur life is precious, so is everyone elses. if u dun appreciate being able to live, n think dat killing urself solves everything, HELLO it does not. makes everyone else LATE for work or sch or wadeva. ur not helping us here. y dun u juz go hide somewhere n die of old age instead. so much easier for the world too. gdness. some ppl juz canot stop thinking bout themselves.

given up on hopes to get into uni. haiz. i dun think its possible animore. feel so horrible dun wan to let my parents noe. like so shi bai. wadeva la.

ok i think im done here. hahaha!

~rain rain go away, north pole's cold enuff today~