i hate to agree..but..

how do u choose btwn things u love? things u wan to achieve, things u care about, things u hav plans for it to remain the way it is. but if u havta choose. how do u come about doing it? i hate how my parents wan me to choose. i've given up some stuff but aparently its not gd enuff. im not saying they're wrong. i see, feel and understand y they feel dat way. but i cant do it i cant.

sometimes i juz feel like quitting everything, stay at home forever n only go out for lessons or work. den mayb if im lucky i'll get married when im 30. of course the easiest way out is to listen n do. but life isnt that simple. if i juz listen n do wad im told, i'll nv hav my own thoughts, own decisions. n one fine dae when no one is there to tell me wad to do, am i going to b lost?

Cold, and the whiskey is wearing
And I'm on the edge of my breath
Ohh...
And I'm thinking of leaving I could just lay down
Lay down and freeze to death

~something inside me died, how i wish it was u, it'll b better for us all. yes? no?~

baking spree

1st time i've eva baked so many things in a wk. hahaha! it sure is fun but the washing up part is...argh. the best part is giving it to my deardear. LOLS.

gingerbread man cookies

chocolate chip cookies (its juz the dough la! moulded by hand ok! nice rite!)

cinnamon rolls
and pizza! (no pics though..lols!)

thanks deardear for saying its the best pizza u eva had. LOLS! i'll make more for u de. hahaha!

i super dread the coming of nx yr. cuz its sch again. haiz. no dats not the worse part. i havta contribute to "family fund". its not a lot but still! haiz. hope for pay rise then. nx yr is not going to b an easy yr lor! haiz...

dug up my diaries. i've written the most hilarious things in my life. LOLS. forgot so much of them but well..lucky got hardcopy. hahaha! i feel like burning it now though..hahaha! i think i really should. hahaha!

AHHH!

xmas was nice! went to spageddies wif my deardear. we had too much. hahaha! super full la! wa the 5 cheese pizza!! orchard road SO MANY PPL AH. tsktsktsk. but still thanks deardear! for everything! hahaha =) muamuackx!

~cross fingers n toes for a better yr or rather..life~

short little something

ahh. after being "kicked out" of the usher webbie i've not been watching ani theatre shows. but TONIGHT! ooo...im watching Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs. i think? cuz they usually twist the title a little. but aniwaes! IM SO EXCITED! its by my fav theatre production W!ld Rice! YAY!! i cant wait!!! wads more i hav my deardear wif me. hahaha! i get to share my "work environment". LOLS.

oo. bzbzbz!

=)

cant wait to see u deardear! muamuacks!

~black and white~

eeemo

vent ar vent i need to vent. haiz. damn sad. haiz.

stupid boy. IDIOTIC BOY! irritating kid. SMACK U AHH!! haiz. stupid kid. waste my time. test my patience. WO REN. but if anithing happen to my job...haiz. also canot blame him. stupid kid. STUPID KID.

sux. 2009 haven started yet start to suck liao. how nice.

im so speechless. haiz. need to b better. MUCH better.

~the meaningless 49~

the it-ch

just finish watching the whole of Dead Set. a british series. only 5 epis. its like an extended zombie movie. but the ending is the same. everyone dies. n that accent.................~

carrying my dear andre arnd once a wk muz hav trained me for my 10km. hahahaha! i hardly move from this seat im on now la. how many shows n movies hav i watched already. lols! my daily routine is to get up, wash up, get food n sit here till its time to go out. den when i come home, sometimes i sit back down again. den slp. n everything repeats itself again.

and finally, my muscles stop aching. hahahaha!

schs starting soooon. haiz. still hav a whole list of things i wan to get. $$$!!! like..sch bag...

part of me cant wait for sch to start. i feel like studying. but im sure when sch starts i'll b complaining bout the exact opposite. part of me dun wan to go to sch at all. not that my life now is excellent..i mean yes i do sit arnd ALL DAY watching shows n movies. go where i wan to go when i wan to go. hav my deardear wif me as long as his free. its such a slacker life la..too slack le..but if im not starting sch in jan, i mite b working le. nv tot i'll b offered a job eva. hahaha! its not a great job.......but pay is alrite n its manageable. but i cant accept thanks to sch. haiz. $$$!!!

keep staring at the timetable. looks so shuang. jan will b the most shuang. march will b the most hiong. n juz nice 1wk after my bdae is xams.

towels. use 1 at a time. if that towel dun absorb well, u either stop using it, or keep using it till it does. but the towel mite spoil, which is when u throw it away. when the towel is old, u mite keep it n still use it once in a while, or use only when u dun hav ani other to use. when u buy a new towel, u'll wan to use it cuz u like the colour, pattern, or material. again, if the towel dun absorb well, u mite throw it aside. but if it absorbs well, u'll keep using it till it spoils. right?

i think i truly feel nobody listens to me. hahahahaha! my dream told me so. i wonder...

yes the entry is getting weird cuz im bored. y am i not watching my shows? cuz i've watched it all!!! IM BORED..slpy..waiting to go out. parents at home. sux i cant stand it. i'd really rather b at home alone than at home wif both parents. haiz. take me awayyyy

its sad u dun see how they feel towards u. but u deserve it.

pray for happiness n fortune! n my job...nv wanted to keep a job THIS badly..hahaha! i obviously enjoy being paid to nag. =D

~when the cold is here~

1 become 2

OMG

work n sch on sat. AHHHH WHY!?!??!?! 7 days a wk they havta pick the SAME DAMN DAY. WHYYY!?!?!?!?! AHHHHHHHH.

timetable finally out. its not dat its so horrible. much better than poly's actually. but still!!! SAT?!?! WHY.....does the sun go on shining???

wad to do now?! haiz...die liao la. worse part is the one on sat is my core mod. how nice lor seriously. i wan to keep my job, n i dun wan to fail. how la wth. haiz.

fan nao ah!

late for jamming liao la. haiz....

~SIM and Cristofori should shake hands~