miracles do happen?

felt like its been so long since i last blogged. so many stuffs r going on in my life now i duno sometimes its weird. can be happy, sad, angry, bored all at once. hahaha! thats how complicated my life is i guess.

attempted to write a song ended up slping. cuz i kept hearing songs in my head n its not going to b mine if i were to write someone else's tunes down. hahaha.

the great n evil emoster strike me wif its evil powers 2dae. bad but not as bad as some other times. sooo emo dat i almost cried on the train for apparently..nothing. HAHAHA. ok la ok la. mayb is cuz i miss my honey. hugged him like i nv hugged him for yrs liddat. lol. crazy.

nice song dat some ppl shld b familiar wif. (notice the randomness...)

Dancing bears,
Painted wings,
Things I almost remember,
And a song someone sings
Once upon a December.

Someone holds me safe and warm.
Horses prance through a silver storm.
Figures dancing gracefully
Across my memory

Far away, long ago,
Glowing dim as an ember,
Things my heart
Used to know,
Once upon a December...

Someone holds me safe and warm.
Horses prance through a silver storm.
Figures dancing gracefully
Across my memory...

Far away, long ago,
Glowing dim as an ember,
Things my heart
Used to know,
Things it yearns to remember...

And a song
Someone sings
Once upon a December

watched a v nice movie on hbo 2dae! its called A Little Princess. i think...so super touching la! gdness.

so many free slacking daes gives me plenty of time to think of all sorts of nonsense. n i realise just how unfair this world is! its not the first time i realise this la obviously..some ppl r juz born wif everything n some ppl juz born wif so little. it juz seems like it takes them so little effort to get so many things. it juz seems like they keep getting wad they wan. ya im jealous lor i havta sae. unfortunately i wan to be like that somebody. im trying but its so different cuz i start everything from scratch. its not already there for me u noe..n im so much diff in every way. but come to think of it. chances do pop up sometimes. rare n havta put loads of hardwork n might not even happen kind of chances. hahaha. its not easy to b born being ok, average in almost everything ok. or mayb even worse than that. sux.

PATIENCE! i need more of dat. loads more.

- band
- lounge (^_^)
- pre-school
- jazz
- piano
- vocal
- financials $$
- job!
- usher?

see. i hav a bz life. HAHAHA. but of course so many things r juz chances. hoping to get but u noe the chances r real slim. its there but it takes a lot more than hopes n wishes to get.

theres juz so much to learn n so little time..AND money. cant only hav outflows n no inflows. but i think i havta treat myself a little better. tried finding something for myself n realise i cant find anithing. irony man.

miss my honey. muacks.

*there can be miracles..when u believe..*

end off wif my fav saying of the yr...

~What you get as gifts, I build with my own hands~

then again...

going jamming tml nite wif another few guys. i hope it works out this time. my aim is to get my band at least 1 gig by the end of this yr. hahaha! but then again..we're all bz ppl.

uni application is driving me nuts. the appraisal thingy is so haiz.

everyone's getting a job or already hav one. i still dun hav enuff of the slacking daes. in fact i want more proper ones. daes that i can literally slack n think of nothing else. but now i hav things to do every single dae. n all those things costs money. so i need a job that is flexible n pays really well. so i can actually pay for my own things instead of getting my parents to pay for me.

had the 1st AFP lesson 2dae. the teacher Mr Daniel, as he calls himself, is so farnie. a storyteller. can easily juz sit there n listen to him if not for the long period of time we haven been meeting up, im sure we wun b chatting that much. hahaha! he loves to promote himself, accounting n how much powerpoint sux. its farnie but i think he needs new jokes which i dun think he has run out of. his saturday nite fever thing is farnie too, useful-farnie. which is gd. he can b lame, but dats even better. so we wun die sitting there for 4hr lessons.

ate sushi buffet for 2nd dae in a row. gdness. totally love it. but really ate a lot. so filling! 1 buffet can equal to 2 meals. hahaha! if u think about it, its worth it. i discover a better buffet place than suki. of course its not sakae. suki's buffet is more value for money cuz u can order sashimi for no xtra charge, but i always feel their sashimi is not v fresh. sakae is too ex. suki is getting a little more ex as well. but i found a cheaper place, that serves fresh sashimi, it also has things like bbq shisamo n shiitake mushrooms! its also cheaper! fantastic man. but their range of sashimi is also smaller. there seem to b a lot of sushi on the conveyer belt but nothing much to eat cuz it seems about the same not much variety. their wasabi has a much stronger taste as well! very nice. the wasabi version of "brain freeze" was unbearable, but that shows how power it is. hahaha! we made a paste out of soya sauce n wasabi at suki but theres still no kick to it. we bearly mixed half of the amnt of wasabi at this new buffet place, n it was great. hahaha. forgot wad the place is called. =( sadly.

prison break season 3 has ended! at epi 13?!?!? WTH MAN! haiz. im so disappointed. this is a nice show but cuz of the writer's thingy they juz cut short the whole season?! argh. start season 2 of gossip girl at least! nothing much to watch animore. haiz.

~ms grumpy ♥ mr grouchie~

jam 2

went temple to pray to my ancestors 2dae. 1st time in my 19 yrs of life, almost 20 yrs of life do i remember ever praying to my ancestors. hahaha! n im going to pray to my grandpa tml. haiz. its so weird. it feels like they hav been there for so many yrs n suddenly u dun get to see them animore. hmmm.

yep! i went jamming 2dae. wif these few guys feroze, rocky, eugene, edwin n some other guy didnt get his name, cuz we weren't introduced. so aniwaes, besides eugene n i, the rest belongs to a band n they play gothic rock. something dat isnt in my list of fav kind of songs. its too heavy for me, too gothic. lol. i hav no idea wad word can describe it but wadeva. rocky was v nice to me he taugt me the style of playing gothic on keyboard, didnt really talk to the rest though. but i think i might juz give it another shot cuz feroze explained things were so messed up 2dae n his really sorrie things turned out that way. but the thing is there werent even chords to look at no lyrics or anithing. its juz open jamming like we juz all play the same chords n stuff but theres no vocalist. but even if there was its still not the kind of thing im into la. hmm. shall give it another try n see wad happens.

jamming will only b fun wif the right kind of ppl AND right kind of songs. same interests. so im really looking forward to getting my own band.

ADVERT:

- drummer
- bassist
- vocalist

if u r ani of the above, PLEASE feel free to msg me, leave a tag, email me only if ur really interesed n CAN COMMIT. hahaha. =)

this honey, so tired still wan go wif me. i knew he will turn grumpy. wake up at 5am go for napfa still havta hear gothic music n go shopping wif me. at least i returned him home safely. force me to take cab, now i hav 8bucks less to buy clothes. zhen shi de.

my parents ask me y i came home empty handed. n said theres nothing nice. n my dad ask me isit cuz i cant fit into anithing. how nice. i noe im fat la. wth. there juz no nice n unexpensive clothes arnd animore. n im paying for the new stuff wif my pocket money! which means if i spend all of it, i wun hav animore left to eat. n i haven even paid for my jazz lessons either. so that leaves me wif...82bucks to shop. how is that eva enuff? clothes nowadays r so ex la. dammit. i havta buy shoes too! =(

i told honey bout my drunk night. how i drank on an empty stomach n puked my guts out. HAHAHA. im so damn sober i could climb down the stairs to the bathroom to puke clean up n climb back up over n over again till i could puke nomore. no bruises either! hahaha! but i did ram into the piano chair a few times cuz its juz right bside the ladder n my room is so damn cramp n i was walking in the dark. i think i shall lock the alcoholic up for a while, let my kidney liver n throat recover a bit. hahaha!

~la di la di da~

melodramatic fools

hmm. spent half the dae on the bed ytd. so boring! i can see many of us r lost, after xams we duno wad to do. so ppl go shopping. but me?! i hope i really am going shopping 2dae. if not i can juz wear my old clothes for new year instead. hahaha.

OO! great news. nono not like it came suddenly, i juz realised i haven blogged about it.

I AM GOING JAMMING TODAY!!! hahahahaha! cuz i posted on this forum about wanting to start a band so quite a few guys replied. n one of those guys actually has i duno, mayb he n one or a few of his frens who r already part of the band but their missing a vocalist, keyboardist n drummer, n a rhythm guitarist. sounds like theres a lot missing though. aniwaes, another guy replied as well n his from sp too. lol! so im now asking the sp guy to go jamming wif them too. so nervous la hope things work out great. theres still these 2 other guys, haven planned a meet up wif them yet. hahaha.

the farnie thing will b dat they r ok wif the sp guy but not wif me. HAHA. so im like helping ppl form band but will nv get to form my own. que sara sara, wadeva will be will be.

will b going out soon. in another hr's time. den meet up wif my honey n mayb the sp guy, at mayb 2. den we're going to meet the other guys at 2.40. den after jamming at 5, me n honey r going plaza sing. mayb walk arnd den after his sax we can hav dinner n go shopping! hahaha. finally.

discovered this webbie dat can play lots of songs, but not d/lable, n its all eng. hahaha. from there i discovered quite a few bands dat is not v popular here. their songs r not bad! nice. hahaha.

theres something to look forward to now so i dun think i feel v lost, but after chinese new year, i hav no idea wad im going to b doing. AFP n the TA thingy. haiz. juz wad i need. more xams. excellent.

~Green Day - Basket Case~

my booozy

exams r over! YEAH! n wads the best thing to do after xams?? CELEBRATE! YEAH! but its 1am. didnt exactly hav anione to celebrate wif. but who cares? cuz..i hav this very thing that always encourages me to blog, n can accompany me through the nite, lonely ones that is. what is this miracle thing i hav wif me now? ppl who noe me v well shld b able to guess by now.

BOOOZZE!!

woohoo! totally love it. LOOOVE it. hahaha.

as predicted i totally screwed up the damn pm paper. but wadeva u noe! cuz it feels juz so fine to b wif my booze. the warmth it brings me..hahahaha!

damn this alcoholic nv gets enuff. dun worrie not getting a refill i hope. hahaha. booze juz makes my dae. make me go on hyper mode suddenly. hahaha! its a powerful thing man.

how i wish i can sing. haiz. wait. jiu hou tu zhen yan. shall not blog too much incase i say too much dat is inappropriate. hahaha!

not drunk yet la! 1 drink to knock me out? u muz b crazy. i juz love the tingly warm feeling. n the spinning feeling when i lie down. looove it. =)

i love the spinning world! muackx!

~swigs of booze to drown reality~