black roses r pretty

somethings happen again. juz didnt blog bout it. not bothering to blog bout it now either, so wadeva le la.

went out 2dae, go temple take pics, interview the monk. so cool, learnt quite a few things, reminded of few things i've learnt too. temple is so peaceful, love it. after that went thomson plaza eat lunch, walk around, went yamaha. OMG i love the piano there! love the electronic piano, duno wad its called. bought a book, phantom of the opera! NICE LOR. omg, $40. ex..was actually looking for kevin kern de book, budden they sae dun hav! yamaha dun carry kevin kern books. SAD LOR. wadeva, i'll go elsewhere to look! den went wy hse.

swiney gave me a ring! butterfly. pretty! hahaha. ok so aniwaes, was going mad when waiting for 163 to go home. singing loudly like siao, dance dance walk walk around, like siao liddat. so was wif swiney n we were both going mad 2gether. was luffing all the way from wy's hse to home. so damn tired now. all my energy spent on luffing.

swiney taught me to do some magic tricks, but im so damn lousy la. hahaha! luff non stop when i try to do. super farnie. swiney gave me nice deck of cards. BLACK de. PRETTY LOR! hahaha..got time i take pic..now really tired le. *yAwnNs*

this morning stupid crm teacher woke me up. call me at 10am. i so tired lor, but lucky he told me lesson cancelled. yeah! hahaha..

haiz~ tml go study, sian. hate tests man. heck care.

~tired la..juz tired~

slp deprevation

OMG..so tired!! haiz~ close my eyes n will juz fall asleep straight away lor. hav not slpt for like, 25hrs le. hahaha! my eyes going pop out liao le lor. sian. these daes dun feel like beautifying my blog posts, so wait until i got time n energy den will see nice nice coloured posts.

2dae ppl see me, all can see i nv slp. mel said i look like i was dying. hahaha! imagine how i look lor! LIKE HELL. aniwaes, nothing much to sae but juz to complain bout the tons n tons of hw. NX WK SUX. big time. so many things to hand up n stuffs!!

ok, prepare to watch tv. incredible tales. den watch le faster go slp! DEPRIVED of slp now, like totally. hahaha!

~sleeeeepppyyy~

nutty nuts saes hohoho

i haven slp yet! yeah! achieving the status of "SHEN XIAN". HAHAHA. im nuts. im so hungry now. not slping le 2dae. so later juz go sch slp or wadeva. meeting mel for breakfast, leaving house at 6.30am. so shall juz past time lor. hahaha! eat mac or mayb drink red bull. haiyo. muz study for b&fi le leh. i nv slp, but also nv study, so wadeva.

i wonder wad 2dae has install for me. hahaha! its so early i cant tell rite. HUNGRY NOW LA. haiyo. tsk. how come i end up stuck here early in the morning? orh! cuz i talking to mel on the phone. THE WHOLE NIGHT. power!

omg im fat. muz go jian fei. aiyo, my bear bears so ke lian, i nv slp they muz pei me sit at table stare at com. poor thing. nvm i sayang them give them kiss. they so xin fu lor hor! HAHAHA. NUTS. feel free to admit me into mental hospital. i miss home lor seriously. i live on the 16th floor the 4th room. dun forget ar! bring me wrong room later i kena killed. HAHAHA..SIAO ZA BO. wadevaaaa

ok la. shall continue talking on the phone liao le. crap finish le. juz feel v amazed still online at this time. crazzzyyy..hahaha! ppl should b dreaming of me liao ba. nonono..not dream. got me liao is nightmare not dream lor! HAHAHA. happy nightmaring ppl. love u all. hugs n kisses. HOHOHO

~nutty nuts ppl! i go wait for time to past liao! hohoho!~

i officially hate me a lot.a lot a lot.

theres something amelia said that i realised is really true. sadly, there is only a very fine line between very close opposite sex friend and a boyfriend/girlfriend. its not easy to differentiate, but we have to make sure of our feelings before we do anithing.

i have so much probs n everyone is so irritated by me. cuz i still duno wad isit i wan. screw everyone's life piss everyone off. wads new man? i do that like, everydae?? sooner or later i'll turn the world against myself. that will b the dae everyone will b happy cuz i'll b dead. so sucidal rite? dun worrie i dun hav ani GUTS to kill myself. coward, DAMN i hate myself.

why isit i can feel wad others feel sometimes? decisions decisions decisions. DAMN. i juz LOVE going back to that sucky situation where i have to choose again. y can the road never be straight all the way? why must it hav so twist n turns?

sharks its like 3.55am now la. few daes been thinking bout the decision i've made. cuz i think i regret even making a decision. i should have stood strong on my decision of staying single. now i've juz caused more problems for myself, more pain to others, n more hatred. freak i hate myself man!! i juz totally do. selfish piece of crap. cant slp, juz dun feel like slping. if only theres a punching bag in my room, i really will punch it till it burst lor. juz feel like screaming. shouting. i dun eva wan to make another decision eva again espcially if its on LOVE.

i noe dragging it is worse, i noe leaving ppl waiting is evil, but thats who i am. a shittily evil person. SHOOT ME SOMEONE PLZ. im hungry now. 4.08am. y do i hav the 'POWER' to see through ppl's feelings n stuffs?!?! I DUN WAN!! make me feel so sad. cuz i will noe the reason the person is sad n stuffs. I SUCK. i suck. i suck. i suck. i suck. i suck. i hate me. ya! u hate me too. dun deny. DUN DENY. wadeva

music is amazing. it makes me forget wad im thinking of for a while. juz blast it! 4.22am. WOW. ok im not going to slp le. i'll juz go straight to school. NICE! cool. panda going sch. power ar! preparing to fail my b&fi test le. confirm fail le. freaks man. hate me. all my fault. been cursing n swearing a lot these daes. A LOT LA. so wadeva, again. SHIT ME LA. idiotic. shall stop thinking so much le. juz take things as it is.

~i turn my music to its max, to drown the voices in my head~

my damn ear is blocked!

ahh! another LONG LONG VERY VERY LONG monday has passed. YESS!!

2dae quite ok la, only as usual very tired only. morning go for crm tutorial den pon the rest of the dae go kbox. HAHAHA. so bad now! haiz~ should really REALLY stop pon-ing lessons le. kbox me n mel shared a room den candy n shuyi shared another. nuts lor they 2! sing song SO DAMN LOUD. i went toilet duno how to walk back juz listen to them singing i noe where to walk liao. 1 gd thing is i noe i'll nv get lost there as long as they dun stop 'singing'. LOLS!! seriously la! from the toilet also can hear them scream n shout the song. keywords: SCREAM AND SHOUT.

at kbox sang linkin park song, numb. tried learning from chester his screaming style, budden! my voice is still so normal. TSK i wan to noe wad no voice is like. for like a dae or 2. hahaha! im nuts.

den me mel n shuyi went back for programming. mel so sweet..send me here n there. zhen shi de. hahaha! thank god programming 2dae no test. didnt listen in class also, playing game n chatting all along. shuyi had a little 'crisis' that scared the hell out of jingle n me. scarey sia she. NUTS.

after programming, went to the dreaded piano lesson. so sian..although nv practice budden play until sound like got practice a bit. so this time she nv nag. budden she threw me another piece n i screwed up the ending. she made me play it over n over again lor! SIAN.

candy's lao gong, jianye invited me to play at his bdae party nx year! O.M.G! so damn cool. CANDY i hope HE is going sia!! OMG!! im so damn excited. this is a good way to save money. dun need buy prezzie for jianye le rite. play one song dedicate to him as his bdae prezzie. HAHAHA! cheapo la this grace. *BbIsh*!!!

its been a long dae man. still got rwps to do, n projs to pass up SO SOON. sian. n im hungry now. had half a baked rice for lunch, n had tuna puff for dinner. WAD a diet. DIET is DIE wif a T. muz make sure not to do that again.

wish sick ppl get well soon. including myself, n all mentally unstable ppl like me. falling sick again sia i think. sux. take care all peeps. love u all! muackx!~

~Kevin Kern - Sundial Dreams~

when i fall in love

omg. first time i woke up at 1.10pm sia. slp at like 12+ 1? 13hrs leh! haiyo..super big pig.

ok juz realised something. i remember saying something like the sun and the moon move den affect all the love rite. i think the sun and the moon moved back le. all the love is coming back le. i see ppl around me, more n more love r returning? something liddat. wassup wif the sun and the moon man..tsk..

ytd went tiong watch mel play bball wif his bball frens. i shall nv wear skirt to bball court eva again. so difficult to sit lor! idiotic legs. den after dat we went watch movie. the da vinci code. niceee..hahaha! after movie went eat late lunch, then went walk walk a while. we went video ez to look for movies to watch. think we stayed in there really long lor, went through every dvd n some vcds. find movies we wan watch. picked out 7 at first, budden realise canot watch everything within one wk, so painfully we picked out 4. hahaha. i rented csi season 1 eps 1-12. nice sia! watch finish liao. HAHAHA..so kong bu rite! omg, nuts. n got this guy! omg, nuts. the videos he rented were overdue by 12 days or something? n the fine was 30bucks. HAHAHA..dots..mad man..

love the song thats why( you go away ) by michael learns to rock. so nice...n unforgettable by nat king cole, plus when i fall in love by nat king cole. alamaks. HAHAHA..love a lot of songs.

still wondering y 2 person in love canot b 2gether. n someone pointed out to me 2 person not in love should not b 2gether. gd point. hahaha..seriously if u think about it, its ultra true. its juz stating the most obvious thing lor, but hmmmm..yeah. shall not think so much. hurt my brain sia.

omg, chunz n her guy getting closer n closer le, more n more sweet le. xian mu sia. gd for u girl! jia you wor!

unforgettable, thats what you are. i duno wad to blog liao! haiz~ wad a boring life i must hav. HAHAHA. slpy le. shall go slp. nitez~!

~love is one big illusion, i should try to forget. but theres something left in my head. i wont forget.........~

fat. chocolates. FAT!

well, have been pon-ing quite a few classes this wk. guess things juz really broke me down somehow. so well, its ok, trying to get things back on track! now really must concentrate on studies le. realised im not way behind anione in ani modules. i haven even started, haven even reached the starting line, behind wad crap. haiz~

i am so FAT can! omg! after sch 2dae went bugis wif shuyi candy mel weiye derrick brian edwin rex drake. hope didnt miss out anione. hmm..we went bk to eat. all the way the guys talking bout dota lor, so boring. hahaha! so me shuyi n candy tried talking bout barbie dolls polly pocket paper dolls n stuffs. didnt last long. doesnt matter. hahaha!

so aniwaes, some of the guys went back to sch for lec, edwin left by himself, den left wif me weiye shuyi candy n mel. we went walking around bugis for a while den shuyi n weiye left. juz realised the icon building quite a bit of things, somemore not a lot ppl de. nice place. bought one pair of heels there. 30 bucks. guess is yi shi cong dong, budden still like it though its a little high. but got used to it after a while. hehe. went arcade after that, and after arcade went walking around lor. saw this tube dress, white de, v nice! but v transparent lor!! omg! den candy handed me a black one. NICE LA!! budden im so fat!! FAT!! ='( if only i got a flat tummy, haiz~ i would hav bought that dress on the spot. hahaha!!! really nice leh..sad. im fat..cant stand it. someone treat me go slimming centre!! PLZZZ..

so excited! tml going watch mel dearie play bball wif his bball frens. well they said they wan to see their da sao, so i v nice go let them see..HAHAHA. hopefully can meet candy for breakfast while they play. den after bball go watch the da vinci code. muz remember dun come home late. my mama thinks i treat my hse as hotel. sometimes juz come home slp den morning go out again. hahaha! really a bit like. budget de, no aircon, no room service, etc.

oh ya! ytd at imm, dearie n i saw long beach seafood restaurant. remember last time my papa always bring my family there eat dinner. waaa..love

chilli n pepper crabs

. M U A C K S! dearie sae every 12th of the month he bring me there go eat. YUMMIE!! cant wait. n i told dearie i dun pick the meat of the crab myself de, so he muz remove all the shells for me, same goes to prawns. den dearie so sweet!!! he sae nvm, i juz sit there can le, he feed me everything. HAHAHA!!

ytd nite, ate the whole of 1/3 BLOCK of chocolate. cadbury's old jamica, rum 'n' raisins. love it totally. love the taste of rum and chocolate. so yummie lor!! WA..im an alcoholic. HOR DEARIE..told u ytd le, dun u dare think for a min im kidding. hahaha!!

okies! think im about done blogging, muz go do my b and fi. 2dae really almost kena scolding. lucky i faster sae i noe i haven do will email to her by 2dae. muz faster go do le! AHHH!! sux..tatas, hugs n kisses

~i have moved on, so should u~

liar liar pants on fire

2dae is a gd dae! lemmie see..happiest thing is programming test got postphoned again!! cuz practically the whole class couldnt do the test thingy. the teacher is a big fat liar man. i remember asking him test isit confirm only on tutorial 1 and 2, n nothing outside those 2 tutorials, he said yes. n he keep saying its very easy. OMG..easy his head la..everyone keep asking him how to do lor! madness

starting of the test, right after i read the qn, i noe i fail le. so i juz tried my bez to type some stuffs n tried to run it. after i saw wad happened, i started luffing at the monitor, cuz everything i typed got ERROR. i sat there luffing like mad lor. cuz i noe i duno how to do at all. maddd..bad teacher! BAD!

after programming, went for the primers thingy. wa..the ppl v noisy lor, scream n luff n make so much noise lor, i mean u wan to cheer is ok budden the noise they make is really irritating la. tsk..inconsiderate..

chams..tml b&fi sure kena scolding by teacher de. my assignment due like wks le. she sae tml she will show those who nv hand up de. i guess im the only one lor, cuz i remember passing everyone else their marked hw. SHIT. n im the class rep?! how nice, but wadeva lor. who ask me these 2wks so tired physically emotionally and mentally. too bad for me lor, who ask me think so much. STUPID GIRL.

so aniwaes, after primers, was going home budden i juz said to mel, lets go IMM. n he so on lor! sae ok lor! den i see he so on i happy, so go..HAHAHA! nuts man. so late liao. but ok la, we happy can le. so tired now lor. hmmm..waiting for him to get home.

on the train home i kept asking him WHY. cuz i noe guys hav gf they spend a lot de. den i really wonder y they dun mind? or something liddat? juz v curious lor, like when they spend money on their gf wad they think about ar? hmmm..i dun really noe wad im trying to ask or wad i really wan to noe, juz like, i noe when a guy has a gf, the girlfriend really very "expensive" lor. cuz will spend a lot. even if u go dutch, u pay a lot lor, cuz keep going out n stuffs. nx time go library can le. HAHAHA! =P

went to my sch's "pasam malam" howeva its spelled. bout a happy tree friends top. so did shuyi n candy. hahaha! we gonna wear it on mon, mel got one at home already. OO..watch out for the happy four friends on mon, shuyi volunteered to sing the theme song. hahaha! also bought a pair of BUTTERFLY earrings for only $2!! sae cheap not very cheap, sae ex also not ex at all. lols.

well, my lao gong is crying. ER..my lao gong CANDY. sae she too touched, haiyo..super lor. still wishing for someone somedae to make me super touched until i cry sia..LOLS!!

ok real tired now, gotta go shower n faster get to slp.

~Love that is fed by jealousy dies hard~

these days...

2dae went out wif candy sy wy n mel. n by now i guess the whole world noes le ba. swiney is mel la hor. hahaha! aniwaes, we went town eat walk walk pool arcade, hmm, fun but tiring lor!

its cuz these daes things really not easy for me ar. didnt get much slp, my body weak now lor, sure get sick easily. i've made my decision to give up on mr.b n hopes he gives up on me soon go find urself a better gf, one that suits u, cherishes u more den me. u will cuz i dun think i really did a gd job trying to keep the fire burning.

its really NOT FUN to b stuck btwn 2 n havta make a decision. firstly theres the time factor. dragging it on will not b fair to anione, juz wasting time. nx, everyone will fall sick cuz all will juz stay awake till i slp. MAD. den duno y, all dun stick to eating proper meals n stuffs!!! SO BAD. evils, not hungry is not an excuse. its really mentally, physically n emotionally draining to havta think n think n think. BAD.

so well, guess i havta go back on track le. start paying attention soon after i get back my slp. am really tired now, 2 daes only got like 7hrs of slp la. i cant do that lor, im turning into a MAJOR panda. will try to blog everydae again, do my hw n stuffs. TRY my bez to get back on track.

despite slping like 4hrs? 5hrs? ytd, managed to make myself half slp half study on the way to sch. n guess wad?! i got 100 out of 100 for the quiz can! WOOHOO..MA! but still got this b&fi thingy that was due last wk. hav not done it yet. can sae bye bye to the marks le la. hahaha! BYE!

muz thank all my frens for all ur support n stuffs. though the info u all give me r really bias ar..bad sia..hahaha! but still, i dare sae my decision is based purely on my own feelings. i read ppl's expression n eyes, may not b accurate but at least theres my own feelings to back me up on my readings. duno wad im talking about? nvm. hahaha! chimalogy crap, unimportant.

shall post my final decision here. gd for u if ur the first to read it la hor. hahaha! my final decision: i pick mel. i hope im not playing wif fire here as my mama said i was, i hope i'll not regret, i hope MEL will not regret choosing me out of millions of bigger fishes in the sea, i hope nobody will b sad, i hope for no heartbreaks, i hope for everyone to b loved, i hope all my hopes will come true.

better go slp now, if not will come back complain not enuff slp! gosh. better go b4 i faint. so lightheaded now, so slpy! *YAWNNNNNNNNNN* nitey nitez~!

~i hope for all to b fine. love the song Super Woman by Cao Ge..love!~

my dream piano..so pretty..

The Royal Class Grand Piano is the first fully transparent grand piano in the world, including transparent soundboard and beams. Naturally, the mechanism and the bridges are made of wood. It looks like a jewel. All sides are transparent and decorated with exclusive detailing. Constructed with 14 caret gold components, this particular piano has an engraving on the keyboard cover.

With respect to its sound quality it is most certainly a very special instrument. The sound is alive, clear and warm. Each tone remains audible even in clustered chords. Due to the fact that its sound is not brash, this grand piano is quite suitable for performances in smaller rooms. You may even play the opened instrument in the living room. Due to its insensibility to changes in temperature the piano will stay tuned for a considerable period of time!

The materials utilized meet the highest quality standards. The entire instrument is hand crafted(!!!). Each new grand piano is uniquely designed to meet your specific requirements. The piano will be a precious instrument of which there is not a single copy in the entire world, not now nor in the future.

Another exclusive feature is that the instrument may be given a name. The particular grand piano shown was dedicated to "Cécile", our autistic but musically talented daughter, whose picture is engraved in the keyboard cover. Our grand pianos are made to order with an engraving of your own name, the name of a loved one, or the name of a company, hotel or band.

can see the engraved picture?! PRETTY RITE!!

~to my future lao gong: work harder! i wan this piano!! HAHAHA~

walks of life

my blog got spider web liao le. so long nv come blog liao! lately, my life has been quite complicated, many things hav happened. can sae history repeated itself again. always caught in the middle. hope i dun screw up my life again. stop forcing me to make these decisions can!! haiz~ i wonder wad the high above trying to do to me. high above refering to the Gods above, no specific God, cuz im a free thinker. lols!

SO many things happened the past few days can..hav totally no idea where to start from..so shall juz random talk bout stuffs.

ytd class outing was suppose to eat steamboat rite, budden rain, so decided to eat at seoul garden instead, so we all went marina square. hmm..didnt watch movie after dat cuz no seats le. nvm..still got nx time de..hahaha!!

"That's All"
I can only give you love that lasts forever,
And a promise to be near each time you call.
And the only heart I own
For you and you alone
That's all,
That's all

I can only give you country walks in springtime
And a hand to hold when leaves begin to fall;
And a love whose burning light
Will warm the winter's night
That's all,
That's all.

There are those I am sure who have told you,
They would give you the world for a toy.
All I have are these arms to enfold you,
And a love time can never destroy.

If you're wondering what I'm asking in return, dear,
You'll be glad to know that my demands are small.
Say it's me that you'll adore,
For now and evermore
That's all,
That's all.

If you're wondering what I'm asking in return, dear,
You'll be glad to know that my demands are small.
Say it's me that you'll adore,
For now and evermore
That's all,
That's all.

this song so nice!! so sweeeet!! hmmm..love michael buble's voice..hahaha!

mr.b's going to treat me mac tml, pay me back the lunch he owes me..hahaha!! =p

OOO!! ya..thurs after programming, swiney waited for me for 2hrs lor, wait for me xia ke. hahaha. den we went PS eat icecream n walk around. den he sent me home. first time got someone pei me walk home from yck..hahaha!! actually not that far..took bout 45mins-1hr liddat ba..hahaha!!

ok..really feel like slping now, though its only 12.56pm. so tired. hmmm..*yAwnN*

ytd nite swiney sent me home again. feel so bad! he send me home muz go take cab, worse still midnight charge, worse worse still he live so far, queenstown sia. 12 bucks..hahaha! hmmm

i hav no idea wad i left out, cuz half my brain is slping. im so tired now!! n its raining! sure v nice to slp. k i go slp. hahahaha!!!~

WAIT! forgot to sae, i hav a clearer picture of whateva is happening now cuz of some confessions n stuffs, but still, im confused to a certain extent. one more thing. MR B. TAKE CARE OF URSELF CAN!! haiz~ grow so old le still duno how to take care..HAHAHA..=P

~its always almost over, like you're always only almost here~

lala lala, lala lala, ELMO SONG

so regular visitors to my blog all noe who swiney is le. gd. dun ask me again. kena bullied by sy n candy on the train lor! force me to tell them who swiney is! here push there push, u 2 v lucky i dun hav motion sickness man..if not i puke all over u 2 liao lor! den u 2 keep making so much noise, all the ppl on the train staring at me! zhen shi de..horrible! tsktsktsk

edited the timing, cuz this blog belongs to may 8th de! BLEX~

2dae programming QUIZ thingy postphone to nx wk! yeah! lucky, cuz i forgot everything i studied. 1 more wk for me study i sure can get A for my daddy de..lols!

during lec 2dae swiney ask me go sit bside him, vivz heard n come ask me..zhen shi de..swiney talk so loud ar! hahaha! =P hmm..so random, think of wad juz type wad..NEXT!

after programming went piano lesson. whine n whine cuz dun wan go piano lesson. so sian lor! cuz 1) nv cut nails again 2)nv practice piano 3)v tired n bored n lost my passion in piano le..haiz~ dats bad rite..really bad..not suppose to happen, haiz~ muz find back my passion for piano!! faster finish diploma n take teacher's grade or something..den can teach ppl officially!

when waiting for bus at raffles place, got this old man!! SO DISGUSTING..kept spitting lor! alamak, shall not mention the race, if not ppl sae i racist..hmm..really v disgusting lor..hate it when ppl so inconsiderate. do not litter! do not anihow spit all over the shops!

went on the bus n saw this guy i saw the last time i took this bus. the same man. he seem to recognize me too? cuz he was staring? maddd..he reminds me of allen wu..that actor guy..howeva his name is spelt..den halfway through the journey, tot of mr.b..haix..as usual, cry sia. lucky i sitting right bhind. hmm..=(

piano teacher nag nag nag, as expected. its so damn obvious i nv practice, so she mad me practice on the spot. thank got i fast learner, if not i think 9 still canot go sia. she teach finish the song at like 8.35 liddat, still go pick another song! lucky my sight reading not bad, the song play finish at bout 8.45. den i quickly zhaos..muz chiong home do stuffs lor! rwps n MA

so now im done, n blogging le..hahaha! the exfoliating glove thingy not bad! although really a bit too rough, budden it works really well, v happy wif the results! no regrets! hehe! nx time muz go buy the strawberry bath thingy, LOVE the smell lor! so sweeet! hahaha

ok..think dats enuff, a rather long entry ar..hahaha! yeahs again! tml start sch at 11! woohoo! tatas!

~hungryyy!! nobody leave dinner for me!! haiz~

loved! muackx!

studying boring programming now, so totally bored! i felt one thing v strongly 2dae, i feel so loved! hahaha! hav no idea y, budden i really do. mayb cuz nv felt frens care for me so much for v long time le, got so many nice frens around me now, feel so loved! hahaha..i sound so deprived man. MAD

finally got the songs from my pc. thank god! if not i'll lose my thousand over songs cuz my pc is crap now, in a big mess, cannot even turn it on. moved all the songs into my mama's laptop. i prefer working wif this laptop in my room sia=) can listen nice music, chat, blog, do rubbish things at the same time. lol!

swiney is sweet like he always was, so nice to me=) lalala! hahaha! shhh..dun ask me who swiney is! =P zhen shi de..hahaha!!

my daddy so bad! btw, my daddy is bryan. he threaten me to study! sae if i dun get A dun talk to him. hahaha! still sae is for my own good..zhen shi de..

haiyo, now i can open business sell songs online liao le lor, hahaha! got so many ppl asking me for nice songs. zhen shi de..lols!

okok..daddy come online le..better go study! =D

~receive love, give love! love yall! muackx!~

hmmm..boring sundae

hmm..sundae le! tml mon. got good got bad. got MA to chiong through, budden finally go sch again! its so totally sian to b at home now. hmmm..cuz used to hav wkends that r filled wif things to do..now dun hav le..so..sadded. budden nvm, tml mon le. hahaha! sharks man, got programming test tml. n duno ANYTHING LOR..shittified man..haiz~

whole morning spent exchanging songs wif chunz..hahaha..so fun man..got lots of new songs..some dumb thingy budden mostly r nice..hahaha! chatting wif her whole morning le..we've got loads in common but our taste for music is quite different i say. hmmm..

This is my current single status
My declaration of independence

hahaha..random song..hmmm

Used to be so easy
To give my heart away
I've found out the hard way
There's a price you have to pay

I found out that love
Was no friend of mine
I should have known
Time after time

So long,
it was so long ago
But I've still got the blues for you

Used to be so easy
To fall in love again
But I've found out the hard way
It's a road that leads to pain

I've found out that love
was more than just a game
you play on to win
but to lose just the same

So long,
it was so long ago
but I've still got the blues for you

So many years
since I've seen your face
but here in my heart
there's an empty space
where you used to be

So long, it was so long ago
but I've still got the blues for you

Though the days come and go
there's one thing I know
I've still got the blues for you

so boring. shall go find stuffs to do. got nice thing den come back blog again=)
sharks..nv watch csi 2dae! hmmm..blehx

~things are not how it seem to b, what i feel now may not last, but i'll havta sae its a good experience=)~

shumz theory

oo well, another sat has passed. what hav i done 2dae? hmmmmm..pratically nothing. thanx to the stupid med i ate, felt drowsy, VERY VERY drowsy, so went to slp for 3 hrs. hmmm..pigz~!

woke up at 10+ 2dae, den went online chat wif chunz. realised we really seriously hav sooooooo much in common now! hahaha! we described how we felt now, after experiencing breakup, n we said the same things? JINX man..hahaha. juz kept agreeing wif each other, lol! SHHHHHHH CHUNZ! chums will b chums..fate..hahaha!

got newcomer in my goodfriend list. swiney. hahaha! swiney is cute n fun to talk to, hahaha! muz note down:
-treat swiney eat icecream
-buy swiney big soft toy dog for his bdae on 3rd Nov
-errr..help swiney find his wife Hebe..LOL

sharks man, im so bored! haiz~ am too lazy to do anithing lor. worse still bryan ask me study?! dotsss..his so damn hardworking i feel guilty sitting here sia. hahaha! bryan still owes me lunch, mr.b still owes me breakfast. hmmm..wad about my dinner? bleh~

2nites dinner is like?? pick rubbish n eat liddat. eat kong ba bao, a bit of rotiprata n the black glutinous rice thingy. howeva its spelled. weird. boring~ feel like slping again! zhen shi de..i live up to my name. ..pigz~

most evilest of theories: "falling in love with person who comfort you after breakup" i've seen this theory work over n over again, shall not let it work on me! this theory shall b called Shumz Theory. hahaha!! lalala~

~sae hi to happiness!, Shumz Theory is EVIL!~

pigz~

wad a sianzzz dae. v tired, slp 3hrs+ only den go sch liao. hahaha! morning wake up weirdly i felt v awake? hmm. den all the way till i sat on the train den i v slpy le. hahaha! budden i v guai i saw this ah ma in front of me suddenly den i faster give her my seat. hahaha! so guai, den almost fell asleep standing up lor. pigz~

2 daes nv blog liao, haiyo first time sia. out till so late den reach home, den home liao play stocks n stuffs. lose money until waaaa. saddening. if i using real money instead of mock money, i not only burnt my fingers lor my hse also burnt down liao. anihow throw couple millions out den sway sway throw liao price drop like hell, see liao also SIAN..hahaha!

ytd programming let off at 7.30 liddat. tot can reach home a little earlier. stupid SBS bus!! loop service still take damn long la! waited for the stupid bus for 30 mins, like wads the diff lor, idiot. HMPH!

hmm. wkends again! haiyooo, so boring. i dun do hw, n nobody to go out wif. sadded. stupid Ali only like to stay home slp. zhen shi de.

im fattttttt!! wan buy the chilli thingy to apply. mayb can. cuz i dun think i'll b broke this month, should hav enuff. stupid sickness wun go away, sianz, eat the med make me soooooooooo energy-less. do anithing also will shake, hand la, all the muscles.

during 2hr break went jurong point, imagine this.. shuyi n candy bought one WHOLE cheesecake n sat down to slice it into 8 pieces n started eating. ?? wads wrong wif the picture? firstly, its not even a meal, secondly, its juz plain weird lor, a slice is ok budden eating pieces after pieces wif the remaning part of the cake on candy's lap?? soo many ppl passby stare like we mad liddat, den this 2 uncle, talk also talk so loud, so idiotic lor, sae waaaaa na xie nu de mai zhen ge cake lai chi.....den duno wad he said. crappy man.

cough until wan to puke. stupid germs! evacuate now or suffer the consequences of antibiotics n cough syrup n other meds n stuff! rubbish thing, make me feel sooo, ARGH man.

hmmm. looking forward to china trip! sure damn fun! start saving now for shopping trip at china n hk! yeah!!

~get well soon to me, good luck to nx class gathering hope things go well, luv yall!~

im not SAA..SAU!

juz came back from doc. this post gonna b plan n simple. juz ate med, dun feel like decorating anithing. hahaha.

papa wans me to move com out of my room. NO!!! haiz~ sianz...

for peeps out there trying to match make me wif guys ar, im SINGLE, but UNAVAILABLE, at least for a while. not despo either lor hor. need time to get things 2gether ya? gluing back pieces of my heart, stitching them back n place. though its somehow sad, but dun worrie, i got Ali wif me. hahaha! n im not mad k! i wif Ali b4 i was wif mr.b, Ali was dumped by me for 1yr 10mnths 9days, now i take Ali back. =) so no more jingle on rudolf n stuffs liao le hor. hahaha!

things dat make me sad:
1) readers digest - can a man and a woman ever just be friends? for a short time perhaps. making the friendship last requires that you find each other at least vaguely repulsive. good luck! (in may issue 2006)
- the last chapter. after 60 years of tempestuous marriage, her parents found they needed each other (also in may issue 2006) very romantic! haiz~ reminds me of my dreams of holding my hubbie's hand walking on the streets when im 80. my biggest dream.
2) bus and train rides
3) loving couples. at least there r ppl who r happily in love. so sweet, budden reminds me of last time.
4) korean drama. many r reallly REALLY romantic la! i watched the young bride, the 18 year old one, the guy gave her the "belated" wedding ring, see them put it on for each other, wa i cry like waterfall. LOL

not sure if theres animore. hahaha! am indeed a walking auto fountain, start without warning de. aching all over, miss the feeling of muscle aches. hahaha! love the feeling, budden im still fat. sux

hmm..duno wad else there is to sae le..tatas! muz do hw le. *SIGH*

~dang wo xu yao yong bao de shi hou, wo zhong xi wang ni zai zhe li~

bball..red bean soup! MAAAAA=|

tired man!!! went mr.b's hse wait for him at his doorstep. MR.B U OWE ME BREAKFAST HOR! den went to play bball wif vivz zk mr.b. rather fun ba. i luff all way through the games, felt so giggly 2dae, like v high. hmmmm. duno if happy or juz gone mad or wad. aniwaes, we actually intended to go play badminton, but no court available for us to play, so just went play bball. so damn long nv play, not bad la, got score a couple of times. once i scored 3 times in a row! bet nobody believed i could do it, so nobody come block me until the 4th ball. LOL man! vivz sae i intercept zk's bball should b proud de. hahaha! hmmm. bully handicap boy, he aching all over mah. LOL

b4 going home, i returned mr.b some of his stuff. i've got one thing to sae.

I never meant to hurt you so bad
I'm just trying to get over you
I hope you never meant to hurt me so bad
Don't you feel the same way too

BUT! im going to keep all the photos we took 2gether. those r memories i will nv allow myself to forget. human beings actually remember sad and angry things more easily than happy things, thats y many ppl think their lives r miserable. so, i shall keep the photos to remind myself of the happy times i've been through, wif mr.b.

we played 3 matches ba if i nv remember wrongly. only noe now v tired. feel like slping. budden drank tea juz now, if slp now, 2nite confirm dun need slp le. hahaha! thank god tml 11 den start sch. =)

juz finished MA thingy..see the digits until my eye wan pop out le. do until pissed, cuz partially tired, n dun c a point in comparing those things cuz the base year is different! so of course for some things will sure confirm hav difference de. compare for wad shit? hmmm. ignore bo liao teacher.

was doing MA crap shit halfway when papa walked in wif my saviour. one warm bowl of red bean soup. made wif papa's love. YUMMY MAN. made me feel sooooooo much better.

am scared mr.b wun talk to me animore? duno y, juz hav this feelin. mayb cuz vivz told me the world is coming to an end. LOL. wonder how true that is. they said 06/06/06 . if really so, we only hav bout like wad, 1month 5days left. im not done wif my goals yet! i wan get a good husband lor! hahahahahaha. hav beautiful family, earn money n live happily eva after. aim is to b financially independent by 45 yrs old. so if my boss wan fire me when i 45, i can point at boss face n sae, HAHA, u just lost ur most valuable worker. hmmm. muz think of a better line to point at boss face to sae, dat line sucked. LOL

feel like playing bball every wk, wif same ppl. to me it was fun la, budden mayb i so lousy until they nv wan to play wif me le. LOL. badminton would b gd too.

~missing the hugs n kisses.*bao bao* *muamuackx!~