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AHH! im happy wif the decision i've made. lols! the sweeet sweet feeling n the happy happy me. =D

to dat qn in ur mind? YES i am. happily single...but HAHAHA. yes. really.

SHHH. parents must not noe ok!

nv knew i'd date someone like him. but i still did. who knew his SO DAMN SWEET. but yaya its the honeymoon period thingy blah blah blah. we'll juz see how it goes. who noes? =)

alrite. jazz piano xam tml. im DAMN SCARED. i've nv practiced at home b4!!! played yes of course, like mayb twice?? but practiced??? NO. ARGH. im so damn dead. hahahaha! it feels like i've nv prepared for the xam tml. BUT still expect to get distinction. lols!!! mad.

wish me luck for all dat i've done or will do.
n i'll wish u luck in urs

~in the arms of an angel~

riduculousness

parents nag at EVERYTHING. really! my papa ask me y i go tanning. i juz like to tan? wads new? SO many yrs they still duno dat??? hello?! where hav they been all those times i come home all red? i said i dun like to look pale or something liddat. wads wrong wif dat? den fine he still said like for wad i go tan. looking healthy is enuff. the point is not dat la. y muz he b so against me tanning. if its cuz of the uv rays say so la! y muz go one big rnd n sae till im trying to cover up my unhealthy-ness. the tone of voice was so accusing lor. haiz. wadeva la really. i duno y they havta keep on nagging n nagging at me. AND THEY ASK y i dun like to b at home. FARNIE LOR...

their nagging is REALLY driving me crazy i juz wan to ignore wad they sae. heck care n rebel la really. its damn irritating. they didnt use to b liddat when i was attached wad! so shld i get attached again? NO they nag bout not wanting me to get attached again la. sae wad i take advantage of ppl, n taking things from ppl is greedy. my gdness. juz 4get bout me la im the worse daughter in the world. wadeva i do is wrong. wadeva i DIDNT do is STILL wrong. listen to them for the past 20yrs le. wad did i eva do to make them not trust dat i'll not do extremely stupid things? i always come home fine wad! haiz i juz dun get it. as i get older, they nag more, n get more curfews. dun make sense at all.

~PARENTS~

burnt

YES finally after SO LONG. finally got to tan. went swimming wif ricky. sun burn le! yeah! LOLS. ya i really had a prob wif ppl thinking im fat n find my tummy disgusting. i think this is juz me going wild. one step at a time. i juz dun care so much about SO many things animore. life is too short! im think i mite look back 10yrs later n regret so many things im doing now..or mayb not. cuz this going mad period mite just b one of the most fun i've had for yrs. i love every single one of u guys who made my past mth or 2 SO GREAT. =)

nono the wild craziness is not over yet.

BUT i made a promise to nv drink animore. n only take a max of 2 sips ONLY if offered. so i can nv buy drinks again. hahaha! i can do it man. WATCH ME.

almost everything im doing now everyone is objecting to it. so y am i doing it? cuz i dun care. my life is so rubbish liao so as long as im happy i dun care. HAHAHA.

went dinner wif candy n sy. ppl hav plans for their lives. i think dats great. =) all ppl wif plans jiayou man! its not like i dun hav 1. its juz not feasible to certain ppl, so its a shit plan. but dats all i can think about now if u ask me. but no support la! even if i try to support myself i cant. need more income. but cant get a 3rd job cuz one of them is this free lance thing. i love my life now i really do! mayb i shall juz go get some free lance finance crap shit job. i

"wa kao, wa lau, wa piang, like that call love?"

its too early. haiz. im so unsure. but yet i already hav an answer. im not sure if i really shld do this. i really dont! but i juz wan to. i juz wan to. TEASER...

argh how will the band feel man?! argh. shld we even tell the band. HAHAHA. 1 thing im sure of..PARENTS MUST NOT NOE. not this time. not yet. till im sure of myself. so PLS. SHHH. no la im not attached. HAHAHA! juz crappy. probably from all the sun i had 2dae.

drained of energy liao. n red. yeah! sadistic, but i love the burnt feeling. juz like how i love muscle aches. hahaha! its the sense of achievement.

oh after swimming went for lunch. wanted to eat at some restaurant at paradiz but we passed the sakae sushi. theres some buffet thingy la! wa went in straight. yummie!! eat until going to xplode liao. so full dat i didnt even hav space for dinner. so its a 1 meal thing 2dae again. hahaha! oh no draining energy leading to headache. argh. shall go shower n slp.

~crashed n burnt~

light up the sky

GOSH. haiz. i do hav an answer to the qn. but i need to noe the qn! assuming juz simply makes an ASS out of U n ME. HAHAHA.

theres just so much i wanna sae, u've been great the past few daes, i dont just wan to make u stay, HEY. OH WELL. hahahahahaha!

OH WELL..............

~__ __ ________??~

REALLY tired

"u keep going out n all u get is happiness...". my mama said dat la. i didnt noe happiness was a bad thing. i duno. haiz. sometimes i juz dun get wad they're trying to sae? i love my life now cuz i am happier wad! n i love hanging out wif all my frens. n whether or not i made plans or whether or not i tell them b4 hand its pointless. they complain i nv make plans, i make plans n they still complain. n its not even dat i plan to stay out 2dae. ARGH. tons to sae but im juz so totally sian bout it.

oh follow up of previous post. MAYB I WAS WRONG. HAHAHAHAHAHA. his still saying his thinking of the qn n duno if he shld ask. but u noe somehow i juz think its not coming out anitime soon. which is gd! cuz i really enjoy the me now. hahaha! single n free (except for the parents part).

hmmm. ytd was a long dae. almost pon that xam sia. but didnt la. hahaha. didnt wan to disappoint someone. lols!!! no la. juz tot go in n shade all 'b's. hahaha! so. den after xam went zz's bdae. his really a nice guy man. hmm. eve, vivz, me, ricky, joys, brian, louis n sky went for lunch wif zz. his treat. hahaha. but this bz man! had to leave after lunch cuz his customer was at the shop. tsktsktsk. well the cake joys got was damn nice la! muz hav it again. hahaha!

after dat they decided to watch batman, but i already watched it. so juz nice everything fell into place, i went to meet liang who was getting his 1st tattoo. gosh. felt like some asian version of miami ink. SO COOL. make me wan to get something small somewhere. LOLS. but no la of course i wun. dun hav the money for dat. i wan to pierce my tongue, n my ears too. but dun worrie la i wun also. hahaha. wa can see the ppl getting tattoo there all in pain but they all trying not to show it. liang said cuz theres a girl there. HAHAHA. ya i was the only girl in the shop. lols!!! 3 tattoo artists n 3 customers n 1 girl. HAHAHA. i was there to watch only. lols! like so sadist. see ppl in pain. =X. but left arnd 7+ rite after liang's tattooing juz started. hahaha!

then went esplanade to see blackforest's acostic performance. had dinner wif ernest, vivz, eve, bal n ah foo. not bad leh the food there. hahaha. den our dear eve spit hongkong ice blended milk tea on us. HAHAHA. specifically vivz, me n ernest. cuz of some gross joke thingy they were saying. gdness.

den ernest left after the dinner to go play wif his new electronic drumset. so fun sia..haiz. den the rest of us went wif bal to meet his frens at this pub at clarke quay. parents called me la! ask me to go home immediately. sianz. complained all the way till we were in the pub. sat there listening to this band for quite a long while den haiz. eve n vivz accompany me to the bus stop to wait for NR. so super sian. friggin party pooper. wanted to meet up wif liang again actually to see his tattoo. lols. end up havta pang seh to go home. sux.

2dae? wanted to go swimming. early morning tio nag like duno wad. k lor. pang seh AGAIN. 2 person somemore. no mood to go aniwhere animore. canot go out stay home still nvm. wad i do at home also will tio nag. like sitting in front of my laptop, watching dvds, watching dramas, shows, chatting. all will tio nag. this is y i rather go out n stay out. cuz at least wif frens arnd me they nag i'll still b fine. at home? rot n die here.

tml going hiking wif vish n liang. i cant wait la. rot at home. so damn sian. haiz.

haven jog for the whole wk! n ate SO much gd food somemore! dead liao la. gain weight le. =(. the most i'll drag myself out for a jog later. but really not in the mood to do anithing at all. ARGH. ya lor its better to b sad n sian than happy aniwaes...

~just when i tot im a happier person...~

your regrets

wad was dat post about? something dat kept me awake lor. sort of. slp almost arnd 4am, woke up at 8am. wad did i lose slp over rite?!?! ARGH. im not exactly sure. but IM SCARED! wad if wadeva im assuming n thinking is true?? shit. SEE yum! i told u its jinx! ='(. i hope, for our nameless band's sake, dat for once im wrong...cuz to the qn dat i think will pop up mayb 2dae..? the answer isnt going to b v nice! =( =( =(!!!

i'd love to i'd really love to!!! but not now.. im not done having my share of fun. i dun wan to jump into something im afraid of to begin wif. haiz. n i dun wan to jump into something when i still hav that big major false hope bout a particular cat. hahahahahahaha! who messed up my life. YES. see y i totally love dat analysis now? but i really shld 4get it. its super dumb to harbour such great false hopes on something dat will NEVER eva happen. hahaha! but rather look the other way..?!?!?!

im trying to look through everything n think back on everything. any subtle hints. although there r actions there already but hints! anithing at all. digging up archives. hahahaha! such nonsense. i hav xam tml n im worried bout something else. or rather somebody. i cant think animore neither can i register anithing in my brain. im dying to noe wad he wans to ask, but on the other hand my instincts tell me its THAT qn, but i dun wan to face it cuz my answer mite just bring a downfall to my lovely band. HOW?!?!?! multiple contridictions here! i cant even work wif 1. dead. ISIT ME?! argh. WHY? OH NO. was it the go wif the flow convo? ARGH. i cant even think wad kind of answer will i give. I DUNO! im thinking both ways at once. HELP! =(

i dun wan to do this man. haiz. i cant handle it. i hope the nx post is: i think too much la! I WAS WRONG. YEAH! HAHAHAHA.

oh yes. alvin taught me bout positive thinking. im sure everything is going to be alrite. im sure i was just thinking too much. this better work man. HAHAHA

~when another blind one comes along~

OH NO

OH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

n its not even about afp...

OH NOOOOOOOOO.

~OH NOO!!!~

let's twist again

juz came back from jamming. hahaha! again. lols! seem like almost every post is about jamming. hahaha! *YAWNS* sleeepy.

had a long dae. but someone had an even longer dae than me. tsktsktsk. superman sia. liang came over, brought me to brunch at subway, came over again n we figured out a few things which i think is cool! but didnt manage to ask the band see wad they feel about it. we shld man one of these daes. great potential to b nice songs! hahaha! left my andre wif him while i went for vocal lessons, hahaha! didnt havta bring andre around. so manage to rush to the studio on time. 2dae's jamming session is not bad! although i felt lost most of the time...=(. hahaha! as usual we sat arnd to chat n hav a drink (dun worrie its juz green tea for me..non alcoholic..hahaha!), TRYING my best to get liang to quit smoking. horrible. n on the way home vish n liang tried the "jump off the truck" thingy again. lols! so nonsense.

i think i really shld get them to come over to my hse la. parents keep asking who they r. LOLS. shld get them to dress up first. hahahahaha! almost had a chance to get them to come see my parents since liang sent me home n they were practically outside..but parents asleep liao.

AHH. yes. wed!!! yum ==> ricky..introduced me to this AMAZING dim sum place!!! okok y his called yum. cuz he always intro gd food or rather MMS me all the gd food his eating. HOW NICE LOR. can see canot eat. LOLS. so aniwaes. the dim sum!!! GOSH. i love the liu sha bao! SO DAMN NICE!!! one of the messiest i've eva been. the feeling was LEAKING out from the bun, n was dripping onto my hand n then onto the plate. but its really damn gd man. i HAVTA go back there again! the food there is great la! i was already bursting even before we finished all the food n the bill was arnd $65. which i believe is worth every cent. the experience my tastebuds had while i was eating there, PRICELESS. LOLS!!!

backtracking! ok tue!!! went over to liang's place to teach him keyboard n he taught me guitar! n a bass line. wa damn nice sia! so jazzy! YES n 2dae we used dat bass line to open jam. i think it sounds great man. they're deciding to make it into our song. n don, our new vox, is gd man! he can come up wif melody n lyrics on the spot! wa. honoured to b wif all of them. they r really a great bunch of musicians. =). so now i can safely sae i do noe a bit of guitar, bass, drums, singing n of course keyboard. hahaha! but can nv do a one man show la. its juz fun to learn a bit of everything. has always been me to wan to learn everything!! n now..its all coming true man.

like i told yum on wed, i can juz die now. i really am living my life almost to the fullest for my age, im doing so many of my fav things to do, i hav so many great ppl arnd me! all my frens my cousins ALL my dears! although im really REALLY going broke, but everything else rocks man. bsides the fact dat im still single..but i dun think dat really matters aniwaes. not YET. hahaha! so the qn is, if u were to die now, will u die HAPPY? or full of regrets..? its nv too late to do SOMETHING bout it man! hahahahaha! =p

am i not the me i used to be? or am i just me again? wow.

few ppl hav been missing this wk. they shld b back soon. waiting to hear from that particular someone although its really dumb to wait to hear from someone who is not serious at all. this is how much i enjoy being the dumbest person on earth. hahahahahaha!

trash attracts flies. YES. ==> sometimes no matter how hard u try to get them away, they'll still b there.
trash attracts rats. YES. ==> when u stop offering them something, they will automatically go away.
trash attracts cats. YA SURE. n cats mess them up gd. DEFINETLY. ==> they're juz there for the fun of it.

pls applause for the excellent analysis. HAHAHA!

cant get over how it juz really makes TOO MUCH sense la. HAHAHA! gosh. if only i could use that kind of analysis for wad finance..i'd b rich in no time man.

OH NO MAN. its impossible rite? ya im sure it is. its juz pure boredness rite?!?!

~i'll b there for u!~

is the world insane?

there is a whole new world out there i've nv really seen. always knew there r such things going on juz nv knew how wild ppl can get. nv seen it wif my own eyes, or heard bout such ppl. met a lot of new ppl, seen n heard a lot of things too. felt like i've missed out on a lot. thats for being a goody-goody the past 20yrs! hahaha! ok mayb exclude the drunk days i've had, im trying to quit being drunk aniwaes. but theres still SO MUCH of the world i haven seen la! all those super wild super fun kind of parties ppl hav...THIS is my time man! ppl i juz met, can come up wif super crazy ideas to party. its INSANE...n the amnt of liquer they list down to get is....OMG. but im determined to win my $100! i'll stop at 3 man. although now a few of them r determined to get me drunk........but im sure i can do it la. hahahaha!

thousand n 1 things! interview at 3pm. almost forgot about it. hahaha!
tml teaching liang keyboard. lols! left 3 daes to study afp.
hav jamming on thurs i guess. n mayb fri too. hahaha!
den after afp on sat will b hanging out wif eve n vivz try out recording wif mac n andre! hahaha! den go for blackforest's gig.
duno wads on sun. hmmm.
den mon, hiking wif vish n liang. hahaha! in the morning. cuz they think they're fat. LOLS. nonsense. n they'll b carrying duno how many bottles of water. for the weight. so i'll b empty handed man! hahahahaha!!!
tue, going dinner wif candy n sy. (i nv forget sia! hahaha!)

my mth is quite planned man.

wa slp almost at 4am again. hahaha! now im so tired! slpy sia. hope i'll do fine for the interview though. hmm.

a stupid bug took a tiny chunk of skin + a bit of flesh out of my arm. hurt like hell but now its so itchy but hurts when i scratch. n the whole patch is red. how nice la. wonder wad stupid bug dat is. but 1things for sure. tiger balm works wonders. hahahaha! makes it feel so much better la! alrite gotta go prepare for the interview. need luck, but not as much as this sat's xam. lols!

~where is the love?~

crash n burn

yeah yeah yeah! jamming! tml! yeah! n time for band gathering! n oh no! im the one planning! n i hav no idea wad to do..-.-"

ytd was an interesting day! went jamming wif the enchante babes n ricky n liang came too. hahaha. gosh this guy sure does noe a lot of things la! damn. lols! zai-ist. den we slacked arnd at cathay till 2am? i was trying to edit my stupid song la! damn. i cant write a proper song. so totally disappointed in myself. i cant even correct my own song...=(

damn. its so irritating when u noe somethings wrong but u still ignore the wrong part n juz go ahead n do it. because it really is nothing..but wrong, a bit mistake.

ok hav no mood to blog now??? shall juz leave it as this. hope tml's jamming will b fun. so at least i hav 1 dae less to worry bout feeling shitty. lols.

~delirious!~

"where is lilo?"

juz came back from my jog. =( stitch AGAIN. shortly after i started. wad isit im not doing rite sia! spoil my momentum. could hav gone furthur than juz stupid 2.4 la! immediatly after i stopped in quite a bit of pain at the 2.4 line the stitch was gone. damn. i dun care im going to jog again on monday. n it better not rain! hmph!

meeting eve babe n ricky later to study. lately something stupid hav been occupying my mind. i think its getting better n lesser as days go by. hahaha. yeah to the soon to be happily single me again!

slp at almost 4am ytd. lols! n woke up at 8.30 to jog. hahaha! i wonder how im going to survive past my vocal lesson 2nite. ya y did i slp so late ytd. hmmm. cuz liang canot slp. LOLS. smsing bout farnie stuffs. we made a bet man! its all going down in here. hahahaha! he said i'm sure to b drunk at the nx party. i sae if i dun get drunk he'll havta give me $50. hahahaha! n he said ON la. wa steady sia. i juz earned myself $50. but sounded kinda scary cuz he said he'll make sure i hog the toilet again. HAHAHA. =X. its not going to happen again lor! being unglam once or twice or trice.....is enuff for me le. HAHAHA. damn la. liang is such a gd boy. he doesnt drink. LOLS.

yeah! jamming on fri n sun! yeah! n going to hav band gathering. lols! lalala. happily bz sia! hahaha! aahh love everyone. muacks!

alrite. shall go shower n go study. suddenly love jogging. hahaha!

~ur game? i'll just play along~

dead fish

no more pondering bout wadeva thingy. at least i didnt need to generalise. although its still driving me crazyyyyyyy. YES IT IS. i now noe wad to do. =)

ok as if australia is not bad enuff, my mama wans me to consider some london uni thingy. LONDON. rite. gdness. sometimes i suddenly think, after so much dat happened here in singapore, y dun i juz leave. start afresh. u'll b surprised. theres plenty u duno. =X

mayb i shld juz go over to london. i can get my stupid finance degree n do music. BUT i havta get a piano teacher there..?!?!? AND A JOB. im damn sure i wun b able to teach piano there la!! *ULTRA SAD FACE* worse still. learn to survive ALONE. argh! n so far only 1 person in the face of this earth thinks i can do it. LOLS. he sae i look like i will do fine. oh no! my drummer dun wan me as keyboardist animore =( hahaha! wadeva it is. haiz. damn. i juz cant make up my own mind. EVA.

i'll b going for interview for the IT Music Trainer! all thanks to eve babe la! THANKS! although its juz a 5 day workshop. but i get to teach at MOE schools. which means either to face little monsters..or huge monsters. but i love the job la! i juz havta work till LATEST 1pm? wow. i wonder wad the pay is like. haiz i think 4get it la. juz end up teaching like my mama. lols! juz dat i'll b teaching piano...or mayb hmmmm. something else.

it'll b great if my dream will come true! if only its possible in another 3-4yrs time...but if i were to go overseas...it'll b impossible. unless i get to do wadeva im doing here, there at where eva i'll b at.

i noe someone is watching over me from somewhere other than here on earth. im a free thinker but! i juz feel someone is watching over me =) thanks to whoever u r high above or down below..lols!

lols! damn la. my bandmates making fun of meeeeee. im qutting man. dats it la. HAHAHA! NOT THE BAND DURH. quitting drinking. PLS SOMEBODY hav some faith in me............hahahahaha!

i wan to go back to loving single life again. haiz. dun complicate my life pls!!!!!!!! =(

~the drunk lalala~

CRAZY

its freaking hell driving me crazy. keep thinking about it over n over n over n over AND OVER again. im giving it 3 days. its not even 1 day n im going crazy. i dont wish to generalise so i hope something happens soon. a promise is a promise la! friggin do it already! i better not lose slp over this. im already a little deprived of proper slp. cuz of the party. hahaha!

juz duno y i can nv slp in the morning no matter how tired i am. nite cycling slp arnd 7+am, woke up 11+am. clubbing. slp 6+am? woke up 8+am. so retarded. tried to slp juz now arnd 11+am woke up arnd 1pm.

its really really driving me nuts la! ARGH. plus all the crap bout going australia to study. I DUN WAN LA. i dun wan!!! i wish it'll juz turn out the way i wan it to. i dun mind it being the way i picture it in my head. which doubles the driving me crazy part.

IF ONLY. haiz. if only...

ARGH. ASS LA. SHIT. SUX LA. i dun wan.......haiz.

All I need in this life is one, one thing to believe in..Poison never hurt so good..it's so nice of you

PLEASE DO NOT ask me bout anithing in this post. i juz needed a place to release that one tiny percentage of stress. dun add on by asking me bout it.

~do it already!!!~

wildfire

juz got back from vish's party. had the wildest time eva. turned out vish's bro sarge is a bartender too. nv empty handed for long. always holding drinks. cant even remember wad i drank. hahaha! although there r quite a few drinks dat r damn nice. like the lemon drop! its a shot. n i had this bacardi 151 thingy as well. dat thing BURNS. shit. n drank red wine too. YES i promised not to drink too much but ARGH. lost control =X. but well im alrite. hahaha! had fun made new frens too. damn glad i brought vivz along. thanks girl =)

parents wan to send me to australia. haiz. everyone saes its gd la im lucky la wadeva. theres juz too much here i dun wan to leave behind. my bands my dear frens cousins all the lessons im taking now teaching piano to little kids n most of all! my andre...

im screwed. parents r home. HAHAHA.

~WILD~

bandjam.jamband

ahhhh. home sweet home. my andre safe n sound. WHY? cuz liang sent me home. again. HAHAHA =D. im super lucky yes i noe. hahaha! watching vish n liang is super farnie la. talk farnie n do farnie things. n im SUPER GLAD. they wish the same for the band. they think we can make it man! hahahaha! as vish described "u hav a stone n u noe theres a bloody diamond inside, u juz duno how to get to it". HAHAHA.

had a new vox n finally one dat has quite a high chance of staying! maha i think his name is. hmm. rather quiet guy. he dun look v satisfied wif us =(. but he has a nice unique voice man. can go really high. which is real cool.

its only now i realise vish n alvin is 25. HAHAHA! haiz. n sadly im the "curfew girl". so cant hang out late. so sad!

ahh! vish's party this sat! gdness. his name popping out a million n one times. hahaha! but im only THIS excited cuz his a bartender. LOLS. HOW COOL LA! omg. we can juz bring some drinks to his hse n "can i hav a..mojito?" WOW. damn excited. hahaha! nv had a bartender as a fren. so cool to get to noe this bunch of guys. they r so diff la. hahaha! very nice ppl =)

hmm. i cant believe they still wan to jam my "bryan adams" + "90's chinese pop" song. HAHAHA. they keep calling it grace's song. haiz. felt so bad cuz its my song n i myself is not so sure of it. wanted to practice 2dae. ended up eating n eating watching movies. hahaha! dumbdumb.

woke up 7.30am this morning. wanted to go jogging. RAIN. so sad! ended up eating n eating. had my lunch arnd 1+ took my own sweet time to finish it while watching numerous movies. parts here n there. hahaha. den arnd 3 had the sudden urge to jog. DAMN. stitch all the way la. sux. felt so bad. i could jog more if not for that stitch. =( hence, skipped dinner =X

YES im damn hungry rite now. haiz. ran out of food on my table. shall go get more junk food to stock up. HEALTHY kinds la. (if theres such things. bsides carrot sticks n stuff liddat, not dat i mind eating carrot sticks, its juz not store-able on my table.)

haiz. papa nag again as usual. mayb this is y i love my life now. im home when they're not most of the day. when they're home im out. they may nag over the phone but at least im usually wif someone else the nagging juz doesnt register. HAHAHA. I WISH LA. it nv fails to spoil my dae. juz dat theres ppl arnd to make it better =)

alrite! slp time! meeting vivz eve ricky n zhenzhong tml for lunch. hahaha. $$$!

hope i get the IT music thingy job i applied for. i rather do music than office job. seriously.

~teaser!~

when love hurts the most

cried myself silly over someone's love story, remembering the last time i cried, a while ago over my own. ironically it wasnt as bad. reading someone's broken love story, the unexpected happenings. it hurts me so bad. my puffy red eyes as proof.

as if crying over someone's love story is not enuff, i gotta watch ps i love u n cry somemore. hahaha!

is there something i shld cry about, something bout myself? YES of course there is. look at my draining bank a/c. i love my life now cuz im doing something i love. music. but i cant support myself.

damn. so bloody sweet.

oh gawd. MY EYES. MY HEAD. HAHAHA. feels like its exploding. lols.

jamming later! YEAH!

~get it right!~

butterfly

realise something bout me. i absolutely canot stand touchy ppl. so i still do hav some chinese tradition in me. hahaha! talk talk la. go out go out. walk walk. y muz touch me. i mean sometimes its fine. but almost all the time?! sorrie i juz cant take it. hahaha. im just single n loving it. i wan the rest of the world to noe dat too. HAHAHA! so its officially nothing but online frens btwn me n mr bq. i SERIOUSLY hope things stay this way. hahaha!

But more than anything, more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

nice song!

went out wif renny n weihan 2dae. lols! we tried soya bean sweet potato milkshake. YES sweet potato. its not bad la. n weihan tried the peach sweet potato milkshake. its too thick. i think the person duno how to make lor. hmmm. if not it shld taste nice! the soya bean one was quite liquid n tasted like soya bean powder thingy to me. but still both tasted nice lor. juz dat the texture a bit farnie. den we had subway. i tried the wrap. its EX LA. but i like wraps. hahaha! den RAIN RAIN RAIN. we went yamaha discussed bout composers. HAHAHA! who we like n who we dun. lols! den we went to my ah ma hse. so slpy! i wonder y sia. hmmm. mayb it was the rain?

went piano after dat. i realise it takes only 30mins to walk from the macritchie bus stop to my teacher's place. gdness. dats like so fast. in spore u can practically walk EVERYWHERE la. its juz a matter of time. n whether u hav a gd sense of direction...HAHAHA.

SLPY LA. but so full! papa bought super ex durians. 5 durians for $125. he said its the mao shan wang durians. LOLS. i only noe ITS NICE. yeah. had my dinner at 9. n had the durians at 9.30. its already 12+ n im still so full! n super slpy.

ok shall go shower n slp. hahaha. feel so heaty. muz b all that durian. hahahaha!

~EQUAL no more~

simply damned

1st official dae as Teacher Grace. i could really get used to teaching piano man. its real fun la! i hav like 14students now. n will hav a new student 2wks later. n i hav decent breaks in between. 30mins break. although the place is SO FRIGGIN COLD. damn i really need some winter clothings. i shivered so much i got muscle ache la. hahahaha!

gosh. got so many things to do n so little time! hav yet to polish up my song! cuz sometimes it seems OK. n sometimes i juz wan to trash a whole chunk of it. haiz. will b out the whole dae tml too. im only left wif mon, tue, thurs n fri mornings. i hope it wun rain so i can go jogging. JOGGING. hahahaha! i wan go jogging sia. gdness. always hated jogging. its the thing "once u start u canot stop" kind of feeling for me. lols!

damn.

From a guys point of view:

We don't care if you talk to other guys.
We don't care if you're friends with other guys.
But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.
It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.
We don't care if a guy calls you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned.
Nothing is that important at 2 a.m. that it can't wait till he morning.

Also, when we tell you you're pretty/beautiful/gorgeous/cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it. Don't tell us we're wrong. We'll stop trying to convince you.
The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence. Yeah, you can quote me.

Don't be mad when we hold the door open.

Take Advantage of the mood im in.

LET US PAY FOR YOU! DON'T 'FEEL BAD'
We enjoy doing it. It's expected. Smile and say 'thank you.'

Kiss us when no one's watching.
If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed.

You don't have to get dressed up for us.
If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own. We like you for WHO you are and not WHAT you are. Honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's. Or my t-shirt and boxers, not all dolled up.

Don't take everything we say seriously.
Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it. Don't get angry easily.

Stop using magazines/media as your bible. Don't talk about how hott Morris Chesnutt, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us. It's boring, and we don't care.
You have girlfriends for that.

Whatever happened to the word 'handsome'/'beautiful'. I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with 'Hey handsome!' instead of 'Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy' or whatever else you can think of. On the other hand im not sayin i wouldn't like it either.

Girls: I cannot stress this enough: IF YOU AREN'T BEING TREATED RIGHT BY A GUY, DON'T WAIT FOR HIM TO CHANGE.> DITCH HIS SORRY DISGRACE-TO-THE-MALE-POPULATION ASS, AND FIND SOMEONE WHO WILL TREAT YOU WITH UTTER RESPECT
Someone who will honor your morals.
Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.
Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.
Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.
Someone who will stop what theyre doing just to look you in the eyes....and say 'i love you' ..........AND ACTUALLY MEAN IT!
*****Give the nice guys a chance*****

Holdin Hands
Girls : If you want to hold his hand, gently bump into it a couple of times.
Guys : Grab it if it happens more than once.

Cuddling
Girls : When you want to cuddle with him, tell him you're cold.
Guys : Automatically move closer to her.

Movies
Girls : During a movie, if he puts his arm around you, tilt your head on his shoulder
Guys : Lift her chin up and kiss her.

Loving each other
Guys : When she tells you she loves you, look deep into her eyes, give her a peck on the lips, and tell her you love her too... And mean it.

Laying below the stars
Girls : When you're both laying under the stars, put your head on his chest and close your eyes as you listen to his steady heart beat
Guys : Whisper in her ear and link your hands with hers. Now make a wish about something you would like to happen Between you and your crush....

Guys: no grabbing!!!

how true is the above? i think it really is super cute. hahaha!

ALRITE. dats all for 2nite. dun hav enuff time. warzone in my hse. enemy mite juz storm out anitime. i shall go take cover.

~GRENADE~

lucky girl

ok. ppl hav been asking "y u nv blog bout this thing?". n "who is André??". hahaha! okok. always bz mah so blog a few things at a time. better mah. n Andre..is my new love la! haiyo. simple as dat. alrite alrite. André is my keyboard la! haiyo. hahahaha! dun b so kan cheong la! i said i love single life rite? hahahaha!

FIRST. lets talk bout ytd. =D im a lucky girl, because:

- MY original song, came alive in the studio ytd. although the structure of the song is weird, n quite a few things need changes, but wow. those guys..r great. it sounded WOW! im going to polish up the song so we can jam the full song nx session. HAHAHA! HAPPY!!! i really hope they dun luff at the lyrics though. cuz they haven seen it yet. LOLS. i actually dun hav a title for this song yet. so they kept calling it Grace's song. hahahaha! den they started to talk bout naming the band. n farnie things came up la! like Grace Anatomy. HAHAHA. The Dats. The The's. HAHA. but there is already a band called The The's. farnie. lols! no we haven came up wif a proper name yet. lols!

- vish (the drummer) was saying we shld hang out more. I SUPER AGREE LA!! HAHAHA! they actually wanted to get me to watch a movie wif them ytd. but i cant =(. CURFEW...so they were saying mayb nx wk after my drums or something. hahahaha!

- liang (the rhythm guitarist) fetched me home ytd. hahaha! he drives a pickup. but WOW. cuz theres a subwoofer behind the seats at the back. n i was sitting at the back. wa the sound system was so cool la. n i could feel the vibrations. HAHAHA. i really could get used to being ferried around like dat u noe. HAHAHA =X.

- n they care. hahaha! cuz alvin (the bassist) said "ask them to send u home la!" vish n liang wanted to watch a movie 2gether since i cant go..so i was saying if they fetch me home they mite b late for the movie (although im not so sure there was late nite movies on wed.). so alvin said "dun worrie i'll make it happen". HAHAHA. he was saying cuz its so late n everything. hahaha! SO NICE LA!

- and they're not the only ones who cares. SO MANY PPL DO! juz look at my tag board ar. my dear cuzzies. hahaha! all my dear lovely frens. lols! whether or not u care..thanks! =D

ok so. sunday had a little gathering wif chunz vivz bryan mary likai. hahaha! went to hav dinner at waraku the pasta place. wow. i will go back there man. the food is really not bad. tried the choya wif soda! WA. i love dat drink!!! i shall make my own. its really damn nice la! lols! quite fun catching up. haiyz as usual im the alcoholic. but lucky this time got vivz n bryan. so it was still OOOK la. we drank 2 blueberry house magaritas iceblended. tasted like fruit juice. no kick. hahaha. n 1 shot! i drank mexican flag. wa i love dat drink man. vivz had chocolate mint. bryan had the popper. hahaha.

tue went jogging wif ricky n eve. 3+km but NO MUSCLE ACHE?!?! WHY?! haiz still waiting for muscle ache can. i jog 2+km muscle ache so bad. 3+km no muscle ache. wad is this man? den went udders wif mr b! woo. rum n raisin is not bad! n their durian icecream! wow. so yummie. im DEFINTELY going back there.

ok im juz doing the outlines here cuz im actually late. SORRIE RICKY! again..hahaha. forever late. suppose to meet at 1 but im not aniwhere near ready to leave. cuz i wan to finish blogging. hahahaha! ok hav vox later on at 6. n theres jamming tml as well. then comes SAT! n a super bz sunday.

my parents r SO going to kill me. hahahaha! but hey. i really am loving my life rite now. enjoying the hell out of it.

as Queen says:

Tonight Im gonna have myself a real good time
I feel alive and the world turning inside out yeah!
And floating around in ecstasy
So dont stop me now dont stop me cause
Im having a good time having a good time

~André&Grace~