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juz bored so came here to crap a bit. am really bored.

watched new dramas though. stupid webbie, either load only half the show, or has this weirder host that plays parts of the show. so it sorta skips out a lot of things. so the story will sorta jump to who noes where n ur juz suppose to guess wad happened?! wadeva man.

am gaining weight by the tons. getting fatter n fatter. eat non stop. REALLY! yaya now not fat, juz give me another wk, u cant sae im not fat animore. which is bad. ARGH. love to eat, but hate to gain weight. sux.

oo. something interesting. to those who noes me at least quite well, sure noes i dun put on make up at all. except only prom night, n when its absolutely neccessary. other than that i dun even put ani wadsoeva lotion powder or any of those nonsense. BUT, recently i went to this make up class. gosh. it was then i realise how bad i am at make up. HAHAHA. everything went well till the blusher n eyebrow pencil n brush thingy. lets just sae i looked like la bi xiao xin, and hello kitty. it was so farnie i kept luffing at myself. lucky theres only 5 person in that class, n im the only person below 20. ANIWAES. i also realised, the other 3 ladies there had DAMN GD SKIN. dun c a single blemish, or ani wadsoeva nonsense on their faces. we were all made to go under the UV light to see all the nonsense on our faces. u noe, all the dead skin cells, the black heads, yada yada. one of them had skin so perfect, there wasnt anithing, according to the instructor. GOSH. o. 1 more lady was my mama. ITS A MIRACLE. finally my mama brings me out for something girlish.

so now im a proud owner of a mini makeup set, but sadly, without brushes. so hav n dun hav, dun really make much of a difference. HAHAHA. love the lipstick though.

BD is giving me a headache. just thinking of ANYTHING related to it is giving me a headache.

YES LABOUR DAY TML! YES. FINALLY. AN ACTUAL HOLIDAY.

if only tml can come n nv end. HEADACHE LA.

awww. thinking of the electives thingy, mathematics for business, reminds me of A maths. FARMER! haiz. wad a wonderfully hilarious teacher he is. i miss sec sch man. all the fun n freedom. at least sch hols really can b sch hols for at least a few days. now? its called term break. for wad? to chiong all projs n do all sorts of nonsense e-learning crap. BREAK. nonsense.

~Gimmie a BREAK! a real, DECENT break~

THE ZOO

ok. well. the title sure is clear but wad zoo am i talking about rite. my hse is well, as i said, a zoo. a list of wad animals/things hav lived in this property before:

- rabbits

- hamsters

- kittens

- dog

- chickens

- turtles

- meal worms

- earthworms

- snakes

- frogs

- big spiders

- pigeons

- birds

- and loads of ugly disgusting flying things, crawling things, eg. lizards, cockroaches etc.

- termites, had an entry bout these horrid things...destroyers

- once there was this rat that came into my garden, i was in kindergarten or pri sch. cuz i remember my maid and i were holding a broom each and chasing after it. cuz bside my hse, theres this hse that has been empty for quite a few years, so rats n stuffs started to live there. the lucky thing ran away, back to where it came from. YUCKS

- theres quite a few times, BATS flew into my hse. cuz my bro has this bunk bed, no idea wad its called exactly, those u see in ikea, those high high bed with ladder with space below where u can put a table, ya. so this bat flew in and hung under my bro's bed. YUCKS. my papa took pics of it, caught it, and let it go outside. the 2nd time, a stupid bat proved to me bats are REALLY, SERIOUSLY, blind. cuz in my living rm theres this big mirror that stretches from the floor to the ceiling (its purpose is to make the hse look bigger, which i think failed.). and the stupid bat kept flying into the mirror! over n over again. u can juz hear the bump bump sounds. so stupid.

who can beat this man? other than farmers.

so there was this day i came home n my dog kept barking at this corner of the gate, at first i tot it was something on the ground, but cuz its very dark outside, i squinted my eyes and saw THIS!no joke. ya snakes. serious. i remember when i was in pri sch, theres this december morning we were cleaning the whole hse preparing for chinese new year mah. so my maid was pushing my cupboard that was against the wall so she can clean behind the cupboard. n she saw a snake. damn she was so calm. but cuz she was staring at something so i asked her wad she doing, she said theres a snake den i was like "EEE! GOT SNAKE? PAPA! GOT SNAKE IN MY ROOM!" n my papa came with a pail and i think a stick? dun really remember. cuz if im not wrong, i ran out. n somehow my papa did catch the snake n threw it in the toilet. i guess he tried to flush it down the toilet or something. its not small k. but obviously not very big either. den my papa caught it again, n threw it into the big drain outside of my hse. SO GROSS.

but i always blog for some reason, n YES. the 2nd snake encounter in my hse. came home n saw this squiggly looking thing on the porch. my first thought was, SNAKE! but it was a small snake, just about 20cm long, very skinny, its green with some red and black pattersn on its head and body, but mostly green. at first i couldnt see it. as usual it was very dark. n my princess kept barking at the snake. n kept sniffing it. was so afraid the snake would bite her nose. stupid dog. aniwaes the snake started to move, and crawled into the grass, which happens to be, still in my hse. not IN the hse, as in still on the property.

i took a pic, but its super not clear.

its super dark as u can see, i didnt hav the time to change the mode cuz it was running away, into the grass. look VERY VERY closely, u can see this skinny skinny squiggly thing against the very thin red line. HAHAHA.

curious bout the 2 chickens rite. ok. there was once, i duno where these 2 chickens appeared. but my mama juz reared it, giving it rice everyday n a bit of junk. i only noe they stink, n they kept saying their hei ji, meaning black chickens. but i kept thinking they r not, cuz they had white feathers. so wadeva, i was young at that time, so it was the thinking whereby "wadeva adults saes, goes". n 1 day, my ah ma came to my hse, grabbed 1 of the chickens, brought it to the back, grabbed a knife and a bowl, AND SHE SLIT THE THROAT OF THE CHICKEN, and allowing all the blood to drip into the bowl. O.M.G. n she plucked the chicken, n i realised it was black underneath all those white feathers. my ah ma said this chicken was not a pure black chicken. so i juz kept thinking it was like dogs, its a cross-breed chicken. so aniwaes, im glad i didnt name it, cuz its not nice to name ur food. imagine looking at the plate of chicken drumstick n saying "im sorrie Chicky, it was nice noeing u."

no we did not eat ani other animals listed above. the chickens r the only animals reared for its meat. LOL. no i did not hav turtle soup, nor rabbit pies, or dog meat. princess is still very much alive, n so r the turtles. hamsters hav ran away, n some died, most of my rabbits died of old age, 1 ran away, that stupid rabbit is super mischevious. kittens ran away after a while, cuz they were actually strays.

basically, its a zoo out here.

~more dogs, less everything else~

My Birthday! 1604 - Part 2

SUNDAY 15April

went swimming on sunday, have sunburn now. WOO. its damn red man. n it hurts. but i LOVE! love swimming and love the burn. sadist, but yes i love the burn. gives me a sense of achievement. lols! no pics on this day=(.

MONDAY
the actual day itself. finally. more pics!Chocolate fondue for 2 at Haagen Dazs. It looked like there were so much food we would not b able to finish it. there were the solid icecream balls that can be dipped into the chocolate fondue. HEAVENLY MAN. super YI JI BANG! this was before dinner actually. we had dessert before dinner. HAHAHA!! LOVE!

that was around 5+? was so full after that didnt feel i could eat anything. so went walking around everywhere, deciding where to eat our dinner, and we went to cityhall. walk around raffles city and honey bought me this! the sushi pen!! SO CUTE LA!! loveee.

after that we went walking around again, till bout 8+ we decided to eat at Surf & Turf @ Suntec.

Flower Crab Bisque. a little on the salty side. but its still not bad.Wild Mushroom Soup. DELICIOUS. the most mushroomie tasting soup i ever had. very nice!Tennessee Bourbon Sirlion. something liddat. LOL. i ordered it to be medium rare. its super nice. can really taste the bourbon taste, the juice is super sweet, the meat tender. and it came with this garlic sauce, a perfect match if dipped with the right quantity. hahaha. YUMS.Honey's redwine duno wad. LOL. cant remember the name. had quite a bit of red wine taste in it. not bad! honey had it with black pepper sauce. YUMS too!Medium rare. YUMS.

if mine is medium rare, honey's one is just a little after rare. ITS SO RED and not to mention, BLOODY. the blood ar the xie ar, di di di. dun believe how red it is? i compared it against the napkin.doesnt the middle look rawish?!?! this honey stubborn dun wan to get them to change. finished the whole slab. carnivore. LOL.non-poison. my cranberry juice.

honey's non-poison. fruit punch. LOL.

THURSDAY 12April
before i announce the present honey bought for me, i havta explained the 1st day of bdae celebration. my papa bought me tix to watch Phantom of the Opera. It was excellent! just dat the seats r not exactly gd. but cant blame my papa cuz its sorta the company bought the tix in bulk n my papa bought 1, the other one was free, juz for me n my honey to watch the show. hahaha!

so. honey bunny loved the Phantom of the Opera a lot, he went to buy damn gd tix to the show again. OBVIOUSLY it cost a BOMB. tix as shown below, totalling up to almost $300! crazy man! MUAHAHAHA. im going to watch it again on 9th May!! which is our 2yrs 11mths 2gether. HAHAHA!

HOHOHO. as u can see, 1 tix is $147. its the bestest seats to me, though its not the most ex. cuz its at this seats u can see EVERYTHING clearly. MUAHAHAHA. EXCELLENT!

hav loads of photos to upload, since i hav not blogged for so damn long. will come back nx time. need slp after loading full tank in my stomach for these 5days. sure fat. LOL.

~I'm 19~

My Birthday! 1604 - Part 1

2dae is my bdae, also the first day of sch, sadly. but aniwaes, i had one of the best bdaes since 2005 when i was 17. for the past 2 years i always felt something was going to go wrong before my bdae, but this year, i didnt feel anithing! cuz when i felt something was going to go wrong, something does go wrong. this year, everything was right. i guess things r starting to look up for me. muahahaha!

FRIDAY
firstly, ITP is finally over. was given B+ in the end. some things sort of cocked up towards the end. but ok, im happy its finally over, my sup bought me n Eileen a chocolate and cheese cake from starbucks. which happens to be just bside ocbc. but nvm, at least we didnt leave without anything. LOL. but Eileen n i decided we needed to get some things for the 2 teams, online and offline, so we went shopping during lunch break. took 2 hrs. bought 7 pens for the team leaders and our sup totalling up to $44. and 2 box of chocolates for the rest of the team members.

only managed to take 3, forgot to take the rest. there is one sunflower for the sup, a purple lilac, or wadeva flower its called, its very pretty, for the offline team leader, a pale yellow rose, n a purple rose. they r so damn pretty i bu she de to give it out. haiz. then after we gave them prezzies, they gave us 1 each too! duno if they had it b4 hand or bought it last min. LOL. it is a damn cute handphone holder. i named mine Happy! Look at Happy!! Its so cute!! with the cute little feet and red heartshaped tail! so cute!!!

next. after ITP ended i had a celebration at IKEA. woohoo!! the swedish meatballs and chicken wings are SO YUMMIE!! love. its actually also a pre-celebration for my bdae. hahaha! bought a very soft cushion. so nice. hahaha.

SATURDAY
went out for dinner with family. the dinner is to celebrate my bdae too. the buffet was great. the cold dishes were the best! the entries or isit starters or isit the same, wadeva it is, was ok, but the main dishes was super disappointing. the desserts are also not bad. but of course, the best were still the cold dishes. LOBSTERS and OYSTERS. oooooo!! YUMMIE!!! RAW oysters, kept wanting to eat that, finally got to eat it. LOVE!! my whole family ate 15 lobsters in total. hahaha! an average of 2-3 per person. LOL. i ate 2. so sweet and suculent. OYSTERS!! yumms.The remains of the lobsters and oysters. pic of my papa's plate, cuz i forgot to take my own. =(

My plate.

Honey's plate.

My new found fav poison of choice, Daiquri. It has this limey tasting blended ice with alcohol. hahaha!Honey's choice of poison for that day, Harvy Wallbanger. Orangy taste thing. cant figure out wads inside though. lol!

Reflection of food in this blue glass. A SMILEY! the smile part is actually a knife. it looks bent u see. how cute. LOL.

end of part 1 of pre-bdae celebration. MUAHAHA.

~I'm 19~

F. loads of it

STOP TELLING ME, TO "UPGRADE" MYSELF, TO STOP WORKING SO I CAN PICK UP NEW STUFF, WHEN UR NOT EVEN LETTING ME.

IM INTERESTED IN LEARNING A NEW LANGUAGE, I WANT TO SIGN UP FOR IT, AND THERE U GO SAYING I CANT GO?! WAD FRIGGIN SHIT DO U WANT.

MAKE UP UR FRIGGIN MIND.

SO MUCH FOR "THIS IS THE TIME FOR U TO LEARN THINGS".

I WANT TO LEARN N NOW U SAE I CANT? ITS JUST A BLOODY 1 AND A HALF MTHS TO LEARN THE BASICS OF A NEW LANGUAGE. FFFFFFFFFFF. I DUNO WAD UR DOING TO ME BUT I HATE IT. STOP TELLING ME THINGS WHEN UR JUST GOING TO FRIGGIN CONTRIDICT URSELF.

I HATE WADEVA THAT UR TRYING TO DO. FULL OF SHIT. BLOODY HELL.

~im just cursing so much, i dont sound like myself animore. but who cares. WHO CARES~

did i grow up according to plan...

compared once again to someone better than me in every way. yes she's my dearest cuzzie. she does everything better than me in studies, music, social life, etc. she made it to a gd jc, she joined a course she wanted to study, language wise she's so much better. music wise, she's joined a band, shes the keyboardist and singer. such a wonderful voice she's blessed with. she's so sociable. very gd in studies, very nice person to be wif. for everything above, im at least one level below. therefore i've been compared to her since i was young.

what isit my parents want me to see? they regret having me as their daughter? so fat, ugly, stupid? yes i love my usher job even though its meaningless. i've lost my interest in piano. come on, all my cousins have new pianos like once in a few years. look at the one im stuck wif. y isit u can change a new car even though the last one wasnt a wreck, but yet u cant get me a new piano that is just sucky. im not the only one playing it in this hse. the sound juz dun sound right. fine. i work. save. lets sae i get to buy a new piano for myself. how bout that? OH RIGHT. i forgot. i cant work cuz u dun like it either. so wad am i do to? wait till i get married which is when u said u'll buy me a new piano? GREAT. mayb i can get my kids to play it instead.

i hate being compared. its so unfair. i noe theres nothing i can do that is right. everything i do is just average, or worse. i suck in everything. get urselves a new daughter then. all i need is some small room for me to rot and die in. some money to live by the daes. or rather, just kill me. or shall i try to do it myself.

u said im spending all my time working, im doing nothing for the family. rite. i bought stuffs for the family, what happen to the food in the end? it ended up in the trash. no one thanked me, no one said anithing but "the food spoilt". HOW NICE. how bout, "i dont feel appreciated". fine mayb its just once. but i'd rather u noe, SEE or SENSE some kind, ANY kind of thanx for at least taking the effort n spending the money to BUY the stupid thing.

then comes the tix to the show Titoudao. who were the first 2 persons on my list. both of u. how was i thanked?! tell me how my didi cant ever study on his own, even for one night, just to spare a few hrs to watch a stupid show. fine at least papa came. but wad did i get for asking him, n even accompanying him to watch the show even though i watched it like 23 times? "YOU'RE NOT DOING ANYTHING FOR THE FAMILY". right. RIGHT. not a single word of thanx, no one said "im sorrie i cant go, how bout u give the tix to someone else". but rather i got "so late then tell me, im very busy u noe. u choose this wk, this is the most bz wk. BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH" YOUR MOST WELCOME.

i even typed a 2sms long msg begging u 2 to go for the show. its not for the free tix, its not cuz the show is damn nice, i stated specifically, i just wanted u 2 to relax for 1 night. i noe how difficult it is to be parents, how hard it is to work everyday, so here u r, ur one and only daughter, asking u to take 1 ONE night off to watch a stupid show that lasts like, 2hrs. if u add in travel time, the most is like 4hrs. ISIT THAT HARD TO ASK OF U 2? ok then again, my papa turned up. i told him 1 person watch the show alone very sad, so i offered to watch the show wif him. he noes i watched the show like a lot of times. i can just recite a few lines here n there wif the actors, i noe all the tunes of the songs, but yet, i chose to watch the show again cuz i just dun wan my papa to b alone.

NOT DOING ANYTHING?! let me see. wad did my BROTHERS do for the family? ok so its the "always working, trying to earn money, buy things, offered tix, always go out early and come home late and is super tired" person who is WRONG AND NOT DOING ANYTHING FOR THE FAMILY.

the last time we ate out, mama got petty, n papa wasnt very happy bout that. no one else wanted to do anithing bout the eating out part. so once i reached home, i was ordered to look at some restaurant's webbie, and left to make decisions for the whole family myself. ok, so fine im not so sure if everyone will b happy but i knew if i didnt do anithing, papa will b super unhappy. so i made reservations for 5. ALL FIVE OF US. end up only 4 of us went. WHY. cuz mama was being petty. CANT U JUST JOIN US? SO WHAT IF UR NOT HUNGRY. ISIT SO HARD TO ASK OF U JUST TO JOIN US FOR DINNER AS A WHOLE ENTIRE FRIGGIN FAMILY? FREAKS N UR SAYING IM ALWAYS NOT HOME.

you just hav no idea how much i do not want to take money from u. U HAV NO IDEA. i get money, u say im wasting money. i work u say im wasting my time.

WADEVA I DO IS WRONG. fine. FINE. wadeva.

my life is screwed, i hate wadeva im doing now, i dun like to study wad im studying now, i found i dun hav much interest in finance, i dun hav interest in stupid classical music animore, i think i've just lost interest in EVERYTHING. cuz it juz so happens that someone can do better than me. EVERYONE is doing better than me. ya im the worst la. wadeva. ya its true, i loose interest in things very easily so wad am i to do now. i hav no idea myself. I JUST DONT KNOW ANIMORE. mayb i should juz stick to wad im doing now, finish it, hate it but still work that line for the rest of my life. which means its as gd as not having a life. SO WHAT WHO CARES NOW. WHO CARES.

it hurts when u disapprove all along. i try hard to make it. i just wanna make u proud. IM NEVER GONNA BE GOOD ENUFF FOR U. im sorrie i cant be perfect. i try not to think about the pain i feel inside. nothings all right. nothings gonna change the things that u said, nothings gonna make this right again.

~WELCOME TO MY LIFE~

My Prettiful Baby

i have a headache. quite a bad one, but im hoping for it to last. SO i can drag myself to the doc to take MC. at least i wun feel so damn guilty, u noe for lying. 9 more daes, which is 72 more hrs on the damn phone, itp will soon b over. i hope for the end to b soon even though sch will reopen soon.

my time table SUX! i've got monday blues again! dammit. 9am to 9pm on mondays! ARGH! so super horrible! sux big time man. haiz.

honey's bdae was on fri, 30/03.

HAPPY HAPPY (belated) BIRTHDAY HONEY BUNNY!!

wo ai ni! though it wasnt as nice as i wanted it to be, i hope my honey had fun. hahaha. at least wif his bros. THANX TO U GUYS I HAD NO MOVIE TO WATCH K! i was so nice to NOT watch a movie cuz i knew u guys wanted to meet up wif my honey. HMPH! but anithing as long as honey is happy. =D

working 2 jobs is not easy. but when it comes to spending, its just so much easier to make decisions. HAHAHA.

2dae being april fools day, reminds me of a song a band member of Black Forest, "Mr Happy Shoes" wrote. its damn nice. we should all support this local band Black Forest. Listen to them n u'll noe y. hahaha!

yesterday was the last dae of Titoudao. had loads of mixed feelings. *AHH!! ni shi bu shi ____. AHH!! wo hao xi huan ni de xi!! ke yi gei wo qian ge ming mah? AHHH!!* firstly, im glad its finally over, cuz theres no more dong dong qiang n stuffs. but then again, i'll miss watching the show! i'll miss my Sebastian Tan's powerful vocals, Karen Tan the super friendly lady wif beautiful unique voice, and finally, the super farnie Lay Kiao a.k.a Chua En Lai. i'll miss them all!!! haiz~

but well, theres new shows coming up next. Blithe Spirit. I believe this will be a nice show. Selina Tan (not so sure if her name is spelt right) is the lead actress i think. should b a very interesting show. cant wait to watch it. sadly i dun think Selina is a very friendly person like Karen Tan. although she spoke to me before, dat time was quite ok. haiz~ actors n actresses ar, we also humans leh, y look at us like u so damn big shot. zhen shi de. tsktsktsk.

but the show im most kim tiu about, is Broadway Beng!!! can see my Sebastian Tan again!! lalala. hahaha!! super mesmorized by guys who can sing with damn nice and powerful voices. BUT i only love 1 guy, my honey bunny. honey theres nothing to b jealous about. wo zhi ai ni yi ge. hahaha!

i love my baby!! so prettiful!!

~We can never earn enough. Qian shi yong yuan zhuan bu wan de.~