its going to be quite a brief post i hope..cuz im in a seriously-wadeva mood again. this is y i dun like to b alone at home. n alone at home includes times even when there r family members in this hse. its more of an emo than a physical thing.
firstly, i have been refered to as a nobody in my own family b4. wads new..im always invisible in someways or another in this family. i'll summarize wad happened.
Chapter 1 it was 7pm on this particular dae i was watching tv n i tot its dinner time, but im not hungry. but wadeva juz go grap some food to eat. so i did, although it wasnt a lot, but its obvious someone had taken their dinner. mama came home at 7.30, looked at the food n asked who ate one of the dishes, n i said it was me. papa came home at 8+ n my mama complained in a pissed off tone dat nobody had their dinner yet even though she came home late.
keyword: NOBODY. which referes to me?
so, papa got angry n said he dun havta come home to all these..(nonsense was wad he meant). n got all of us to sit down so he could start his lecture. i hate these things cuz he always talks about everything..from y we shldnt b having a maid to cook n clean, to how we duno how to take care of ourselves, to us trying damn hard to answer his damn friggin ambiguous qns. how the hell r u suppose to answer that kind of qn??? its like theres no answer to his qns but yet he wans u to read his mind n tell u wad he is thinking of.
end of seriously-wadeva Chapter 1
Chapter 2i am very thankful to this particular person for giving me a chance to experience something i always wanted to experience. he is a guy, one i always tot was nice, damn cool n damn pro. lets call him..Mr. X. he has this thing i always wanted to hav. n i still wan it now.
if u've been following my blog closely, n noeing me quite well, im very sure u noe wad n who im really refering to.
Mr. X really insulted me like i've nv been insulted in the whole 19 years of my life by LYING TO ME about something. oh man, thats like the stupidest thing im sure he has done from the 20+yrs of his life. im not dumb, neither am i born yesterday. all i can think of is "i've played more musical notes than he has eaten rice in his whole life time".
its not the first time i've caught someone lying to me, i mean some ppl r really bad liers. telling me something now, which make me seriously doubt ur lying to me without me even needing to hear how ur voice waver or see how ur face twitch..gdness. there r juz so many loop holes.
but thanx for trying to act nice to me while ur telling that lie. juz lightens that insult by mayb..one divided by zero, which happens to be an error on any proper calculator. Mr. X, i really like to hav that thing u hav, but i hate urs, i wan my own. but even though i hate urs, i still love something inside it, for plenty other reasons, but really i dun like u very much now.
so if u were to ask for a favour again? my advise is to hav someone else in mind in case i still dun like u very much. but i doubt u will eva ask for another favour considering u noe im not as stupid as u think i am.
end of seriously-wadeva Chapter 2
Chapter 3sorrie honey but this chapter is about u. i noe u wun b happy reading this but dun bother trying to xplaining it to me cuz no matter wad u sae i will nv understand how any proj will need a student to go to sch early in the morning n stay till uneartly sch hrs then finally going home with the proj not really completed. by unearthly im refering to time after 9pm. n its not like u go home at 10 u noe, u stay on till 11? 12? for proj??
wad canot b discussed at home over msn or something? at least go home n rest earlier rite? do u havta b facing one another to do the proj? i noe u sae u hav a lot of projs n ur submission is coming soon but i still cant accept it. cuz everyone i noe dun need so many hrs in a day, n so many daes in a row to finish up projs. even if u do, y does it havta b in sch till unearthly hrs?!?!?! if u need ideas u can ask me or someone else who is not in ur proj grp. if u find dat discussing for hrs dun seem to help anione come up wif a gd idea, seek help. inspiration dun come from brainstorming nonstop in a not very friendly environment. ur brain works better when ur a little more relaxed AND NOT SO DAMN TIRED.
i noe u dun wan to either, but i cant help but to nag at how many hrs u spend on resting ur obviously overworked brain. always slping at 2+ 3+ 4+ am for the past how many daes? its not like depriving urselves of slp will help the completion of the proj rite. i dun get how ppl can b discussing proj for so many hrs in a dae.
then u complain to me ur falling sick. its not like im the one doing it to u, ur doing it to urself. so i nag u need to slp earlier but we r talking in circles now do u see? u go on saying u need to do ur proj n stuff.
i believe i've said enuff. really dun bother trying to xplain it to me i've heard it too many times. i juz need to vent my anger somewhere else.
end of seriously-wadeva Chapter 3
Chapter 4im sure everyone is studying or have already studied for the final 2 papers. i haven started. i tried n tried so hard to bury myself into the notes but even as my eyes r looking at the words, even though i am reading them, nothing is registering into my stupid brain. NOTHING. n the most productive thing i've done the past few daes, is reading storybks. i juz finished 1 ytd, n finished another 1 2dae. i went shopping, walked so many places n bought a top for two dollars, four hundered n ninty cents, which in normal ppl's language translates to $24.90. mayb its suppose to b pronounced as fourty nine cents instead. i can nv get it rite. but wadeva.
i've been awfully productive typing this blog too! nice, long n nv ending chapters of complaints.
its 12.54am n im hungry. wads new.
i only noe, Ms. Conscience comes out to bite me when im about to slp. always saeing "ur dead, u haven studied. ur test is only a few daes more to come. ur dead. how can u slp? ur so dead. u better study tml." then 'tml' comes n goes, n nothing changes. i go to bed wif Ms. Conscience nagging at me wif the same old thing. just like wad will b happening within a few more mins. i have a date wif Ms. Conscience!
end of seriously-wadevas Chapter 4
Chapter 5its time to slp. i cant wait till all this nightmare is over. after the 2 papers, im free!
end of long, complaining, never ending seriously-wadevas of life..FOR NOW
~i dont noe if missing u means getting really pissed off not seeing u for so many daes...~
