periodic reviews

Detachment in process..

~market adjustments~

i'm waiting for 'finally'

Status today: Killed by 1st paper.

Prediction of upcoming status: Killed by 2nd paper.

Followed by: Killed by 3rd paper.

And then: Killed by last paper.

Finally: I'm freeeeeeee!

Just hoping to pass everything this time. Super terrible round of exams. Speechless.

~find a way to be free from woes~

^-^

My babie is finally home. After so long! LOLS.

Poor babie got so burnt! But in a good way.. He's now absolutely hot! LOLS! Really! ♥♥♥♥♥ Babie's new tan! ♥♥♥♥♥ Hehehe!!! However, powerful sun also sucked the energy out of my babie =( Don't fall sick please! =(

Alright, it is now time to get back to my books. Have not studied much the past 3 days! How dead am I... *sigh!!*

I miss you sweetie.. SO glad you're back! I ♥ you! Muamuacks!

Now, time to conquer exams!

~waiting for the end of exams~

day FOUR: babielessness

Day 4 has passed. I'm going to see my babie tomorrow! YAAYY!! =D =D =D


Today, just work. Had 1.5hrs break in between though. Made my day a little easier to bear. I think I just cannot stand sitting in a small room the whole day =(. Every time the next student comes in I feel like leaving the room. But when I'm teaching I feel fine. LOLS. Had a nice regular Vanilla Latte during lunch from coffee bean!


Was asked twice to work longer hours by 2 different people. And bugged by manager to consider. Request by manager to teach jazz. L.O.L.S. I don't even think I play well enough.. =( Then again people, I'm still studying! I know I'm cheap labour, but don't exploit my passion this way please! 


Went to SMU to study. They turn off the study room's air condition at 5pm -.-" Air flow really wasn't good. No windows to open. And if you left the door open the stupid security system will beep. -.-" 


Oh well.


Finally home. Still have lots more to study! 


But at least I get to see my babie after so many days of deprivation. YAYY!!! =D =D =D

~i want no more babielessness days!~

continued babielessness

Have been i-a-bing more often than studying the whole of today. Oh wait, I totally did not study AT ALL. Although yes, as usual work took up the biggest chunk. But someone said something nice to me today. LOLS. Someone missed my jazz! No of course that did not make my day any less tiring.. It just gave me more a little to think about. Just really miss my babie. All I want now is a nice warm hug and a nice big kiss.

Shall go shower and sleep. Work tomorrow! =(

~just 1+ more day to go!~

day 2 & 3 of babielessness

Day 2

Yesterday was quite all right for me. Studied at NP's reading room with cuzzie and her friend and her friend's Piglet and teddy (also called Brownie) and my Domo. Super cold though wasn't very comfortable. Then someone set the air condition's temperature to 28 deg. LOLS! It was still cold but much more bearable, cause there were 2 air conditioners. Hahaha!

Then Mr Ang came and we went for dinner around 10++. I love naan and the various curries we had. Super love! =D ♥ work ='(

Day 3

Today, workworkwork day. How to work?! I don't want to go to work! =(=(=( Haiz! Like I said, I need a proper dosage of my babie after a long day at work. Now my babie is not around! HOW?! HAIZ...

Should I bring princess out for a run after work? 10.30pm? LOLS. Tempted...

~我等着你回来~

day 1 of babielessness

Just because I've already sent you almost 40 smses today, and that I still have so much to say, I'll just dump words in this post.

Disclaimer: Not for the nauseous or diabetic or you for that matter.. Unless you're my babie. LOLS.

想你想到半死!!! 快点回来啊亲爱的!!! =(

The feeling of not being able to see you for the next 4days is excruciating! Feel like something is missing..

How the hell am I going to survive the 2 - 3weeks holiday to New Zealand without you?? Can I buy you an extra ticket to come with me? Haiz..

Don't like that I can't sms you freely, or call you when I want to talk to you. Don't like that you can't tuck me into bed! =( How am I going to have sweet dreams for the next few days?! =( Bad enough that I have to cram so much crap into my brain.. Now that you're not around, O.M.G. Feels like shit. =(

~be home soon babie! somebody's missing you like mad!~

ahp-daytt

My Babie's leaving in less than 6hrs. =( Sweeeetie.. I'm going to miss you so much!

I keep wondering how I studied for the past exams.. It just feels too damn different this time. Can't say why though. Not studying hard enough maybe? Not stressed enough?? -.-" No idea.. Maybe don't know too many modules this time. LOLS! Skipped too many classes.

Watching show on YouTube. LOLS! Why am I not studying!

~米修米修!~

this is now

*GULPS..GULP...GULP*

*stone*

*dreams....*

I need to sleep. Alcoholic powers reached negative.

~yawns~

lovee!

What a wonderful birthday I must say! =D

Thanks to my dear friends.

ESPEICALLY my dear babie love!!

After nice lunch with dear friends, I went to study. 'Private party' with my textbooks and notes at Starbucks. Study till iTouch ran out of battery, Stonie was experiencing not very excellent battery life, and me? My 'battery' was depleting as well. Thought I was going to faint from hunger. Then babie came to my rescue and brought me to dinner! My dear babie surprised me with a cake. Requested by babie, made by chef. Lols! Big brownie! Yummiee! With nice pile of berries on top of it. The strawberries were the best!! =D

Then had second cake when I reach home. For the past few years I think we've been eating the same cake for a few birthdays. Unless the cake is bought by me. HAHAHA! Not complaining! Just stating a fact, cause it is after all, a nice chocolate cake!

So after dinner and first brownie, my 'battery' was fully charged. Too much excess energy now. EHEM. Too much! Excess energy has to go somewhere, need.. outlet... After 2nd cake plus 2nd cup of alcohol... I'm high on sugar and alcohol... Have not been drinking for SOO LONG.. It affects me quite a bit actually. Excess energy + highness.. is not really a good combination at 12.48am...

~i'm 22. DAMN i'm getting old~

shine before the rain, literally

BUT despite that terrible crapshit today, I had a quite OK yesterday.

Because I had to work as usual, but I didn't need to go Kembangan! That ultra far place that I have to cab to every single week. SO, I had the luxury of meeting up with my babie!

Finally bought a handphone pouch suitable for my Milestone. Bought new shoes too! AND! We had dimsum!

Had a lot of 水饺，小笼包 and 锅贴. Just a little disappointed because they didn't have 烧卖 and erm.. Har gao?! LOLS. What is that in Chinese? 虾？Something. And nai wan bao!

After exams I have to go to my favourite dim sum place again.

Not used to having a camera phone that can upload pictures on the spot.. By the time I wanted to take a picture, the food were 90% in our tummies. Oh well.

~my love for dim sum~

another 'fml' of the year

It's nearing my birthday. And almost every year since I was 16, I either don't feel good about my birthday, as if something is going to go wrong, or something will literally go wrong.

Like today...

Of all the times in the world...

It had to rain

It had to rain today

It had to rain today when I'm about to leave Mac's

It had to rain today when I'm about to leave Mac's on a bike

It had to rain today when I'm about to leave Mac's on a bike without a raincoat

It had to rain today when I'm about to leave Mac's on a bike without a raincoat on my way to work

It had to rain today when I'm about to leave Mac's on a bike without a raincoat on my way to work and without an umbrella

It had to rain today when I'm about to leave Mac's on a bike without a raincoat on my way to work and without an umbrella. And even after getting an umbrella..

It had to rain.

And even after getting an umbrella while a being a little too drenched already cause I was on the bike..

It had to rain.

And even after getting a new umbrella, the new umbrella had to LEAK.

And the new umbrella had to leak on the day I'm carrying my laptop, new phone, and iTouch.

It had to rain, and I had to carry a stupid new leaky umbrella while on the way to work.

And while on the way to work being constantly dripped on because I can't find where the bloody rain is seeping through the new leaky umbrella, my student had to cancel lesson.

My student had to cancel lesson after all I've been through, and really wet + carrying all my electronics.

And now my poor babie must be very pissed with me cause he had to ride in the rain just because he thought I had to go to work

And my poor babie must be very pissed with me now cause the rain made his iTouch and earphones swim in rain in the bike's box

And my poor babie must be very pissed with me now cause I didn't want to leave Mac's when the sky was dark

I didn't want to leave Mac's when the sky was dark because I wanted to study

And this is the first time in a long long while I wanted to study this bad and had so much energy to be able to concentrate on what I'm studying.

BUT it had to rain.

It had to rain today.

And the bloody rain just stopped, after me all drenched and pissed, with my poor babie pissed at me too, and finally home, all changed and bitching about the blardy rain.

It had to stop now.

You can't hold in your pee anymore, and can't pee at the right time.

Mother nature must be getting really old.

~chronicles of the blardy untimely rain~

pissed mode ON

Hate this particular last minute change. Hate it when I have plans with my babie and it gets DESTROYED like that. I hate it. I need a proper dosage of my babie after work especially and I didn't get enough today. PISSED.

THEN, babie pass me my cheque from that music school. Owe me 2 months of salary, FINE.. They UNDERPAY me. WTF MAN. How the hell that school survive till now?!?!?! The management SUCKS BIG TIME. They've got good teachers there, not all are, but I know at least 1. Without good teachers they are nothing. Don't they realise that?! I'm not saying I'm a good teacher, just saying they don't know how to appreciate their human capital. Fine maybe they don't even intend to 'retain' a 'human capital' like me, but use your brains and think. If I spread the word, IMAGINE... Word of mouth marketing is the best and least costly. It can also be the most lethal. STUPID. HATE you idiotic asses for pissing me off. PLUS its really dumb to try to cheat a finance person of her money. I count every single cent very very carefully especially when YOU were the one who asked for MY help. Now that I HELPED you, I expect proper and CORRECT compensation.

This stupid school either not heard of business ethics and corporate governance, or they simply CANNOT COUNT. Management that CANNOT COUNT = MAJOR FAIL. They are MAJOR FAIL either way actually. So pissed. Totally pissed.

Good thing babie passed me subway cookies. Needed something sweet to calm my nerves. Feeling better already! Thanks babie! Muamuacks! Is that why my students gave me chocolates today? They foresee me being in this 'high blood pressure' situation? What a coincidence..

~Chocolate cures almost everything!~

must read!

Straight off from our favourite webbie, FB. So true so true!

43 things a GIRL wished her BOYFRIEND knew !

#1 When you break her heart, the pain never really goes away. (*Nods head vigorously*)

#2 When she misses you, she's hurting inside. (*Continues nodding..*)

#3 When she says it's over, she still wants you to be hers. (*Tilts head* Depends really..)

#4 When she walks away from you mad, follow her. (Umhmm!)

#5 When she stares at your mouth, kiss her.

#6 When she pushes or hits you, grab her tight & don't let her go.

#7 When she starts cursing at you, kiss her and tell her you love her.

#8 When she ignores you, give her your attention.

#9 When she pulls away, pull her back.

#10 When you see her at her worst, tell her she's beautiful and when a girl says shes ugly then she wants u to say ur beautiful or pretty back'

#11 When you see her crying, just hold her and don't say a word. (*Nods head vigorously*)

#12 When you see her walking, sneak up and hug her waist from behind. (Ummhmm!)

#13 When she's scared, protect her. (Who else but you?)

#14 When she lays her head on your shoulder, tilt her head up and kiss her.

#15 When she steals your favourite jacket, let her keep it and sleep with it for a night.

#16 When she teases you, tease her back and make her laugh.

#17 When she doesn't answer for a long time, reassure her that everything is okay.

#18 When she looks at you with doubt, back yourself up with the truth.

#19 When she says that she likes you, she really does more than you could understand. (*Nods head again*)

#20 When she grabs your hands, hold hers and play with her fingers. (It'll be good if you grab mine first sometimes =D)

#21 When she bumps into you, bump into her back and make her laugh.

#22 When she tells you a secret, keep it safe and untold.

#23 When she looks at you in your eyes, don’t look away until she does.

#24 Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything.

#25 Don't let her have the last word.

#26 Don't call her hot, but gorgeous or beautiful is so much better.

#27 Say you love her more than she could ever love you.

#28 Argue that she is the best girl ever.

#29 When she's mad, hug her tight and don't let go.

#30 When she says she's OK, don’t believe it, talk to
her about it, because 10 yrs later she'll still remember it.

#31 Call her at 12:00am on special occasions to tell her you love her.

#32 Call her before you sleep and after you wake up.

#33 Treat her like she's all that matters to you.

#34 Don't ignore her when she's out with you and your friends.

#35 Stay up all night with her when she's sick. (Wish this was even possible...)

#36 Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid. ( =) )

#37 Let her into your world.

#38 Let her wear your clothes.

#39 When she's bored and sad, hang out with her

#40 Let her know she's important.

#41 Kiss her in the pouring rain.

#42 When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is; "Who's ass am I kicking today baby?" (HAHAHA! Sweeet!)

#43 After she reads this, she hopes one day you'd read it too. (Though I think just reading is not enough... Actions are more important!)

~it's not just me~

喜事

喜事喜事! The person who dumped her shit on me is BACK! And shes planning on taking her shit back! OH if only she knows how to work FASTER. Slow poke. What need time to inform parents. -.-" Not like there's SO many of them.. Only 3, plus the international school. Just need to say 'HELLO I'M BACK!'. Simple right?! -.-" SLOW + EXCUSES -.-" THEN I'll have more time to study! YAY! So super happy!!! Can't wait for all these shit to disappear.

Although I have to admit I feel sad because I do like my students regardless of their skills and ability, I do love them all... They're all good students in some ways! She did say she didn't want them, but whatever. I can't handle them all. TIME is the factor. I have the 心，but don't have the 力. But it is better this way, I believe it is. Must learn when to let go!

Psycho-ing in process, as you can see. Too much blabber.

OK I shall do mask tomorrow. Have not done it for at least 1 week. =( No wonder breakout again. HAIZ.

Must study!

~MUST!~

urges

Never stopped wanting to learn vox and drums. Still wish I could learn them all now! How I miss the days I don't have school, and my week was packed with jazz, vox and drums and work on the weekends to feed my passion(s). Hahaha! Had so much more time to hang out with friends, meet with my babie. I had MORE social life back then. ARGH I miss those days...

Oh my dear school, you destroyed me. By the time I'm done with school, will I even have the time to do all that again? In the 2 years I could have done so much more.. Not implying that studies are not important, but studying something related would have been more worthwhile.

Stupid world why the hell do you need a piece of paper as proof. There's so many people out there without paper who could do better than those in monkey suits.

Hell, just have to make the best out of it.

~ prioritize~

what's a wkend?

T_T So touching ah the Korean drama!

Many new happy couples & 1 POS. Oh I do think you deserve it.

Suay suay picked sai lang's call today. KNS.. -.-"

Student cried today =S Don't know why! She suddenly started tearing. Scare me. Am I that fierce!? Can't be right, I didn't even scold her.. =(

Jamming was fun though! My babie is sooooo zai!

Will see my babie again tomorrow! Watching How to Train a Dragon! So sad not in 3D anymore =( But! It is a nice movie.. Hahaha!

I think I might have split personality. Mood swings too often.

Need to sleep. Start studying tomorrow! HAIZ!

The definition of long weekend in my books, long working hours plus no slack time, no chill time. Short lunch / dinner breaks and too little of my babie. THAT is a blardy LONG weekend.

~just a little bit more love~

there's a farnie feeling deep inside your gut

Referring to the post on Mar 21st, it still persists! Its a great thing, love. Once you found it, you don't want to lose it. Always remind yourself not to 'slack off'. Especially after the honeymoon period. This is 1 thing in life that needs lots of constant reviews (besides your insurance portfolio & investment portfolio) and it has the lowest risk with the highest of returns you can ever find. Ok, probably not the lowest risk if you really put your 101% of heart and soul in it, but treasure it well, you'll get a lifetime of returns! Not talking about anyone in particular seriously. This is a post for the general public. Hahaha! That is if theres any 'general public' besides the few I know who does visit this blog. In fact I only know 1. My dear CHUNZ! Who is busy with her new love too. LOLS

Need to go to work. Sometimes I forget my exams are in 3 weeks time. DAMN. Work is all over the place. Stupid school still owe me money. Sickening. Their management sucks. And their stupid 'rule' that states I have to give them a cut of my earnings for teaching private students that their teacher no longer wants is even more dumb. Sorry I'm just not THAT dumb. Its my money I'm not going to give you anything. YOU STILL OWE ME MONEY! ASS!

For the record I wasn't complaining about Cristofori. They're alright! Especially the people there. =) And the students! I compare them to my private students, within the same 30mins spent, students in music schools seem to learn much more... Maybe its the environment. Stuck in a small room with just a piano, no distractions.

Can't wait for exams to be over.. Too much to do, so much money to earn, just need time to do it. HAHAHA!

~through red~

A circle & a squiggle

This is you babie!

Circle: You are a people person, the shape with the most empathy, perception and consideration for the feelings of others. You listen and communicate well. You read people and can spot a phony right off. You like harmony and have your greatest difficulties in dealing with conflict and making unpopular decisions. You are easily swayed by other people's feelings and opinions. You can be an effective manager in an egalitarian workplace, but have difficulty in political environments with a strong hierarchy. If you're a woman, even if you're not a circle, some circle traits have been conditioned into you.

This is me!

Squiggle: You are creative, a "what if" person who's always thinking of new ways to do something. Your mind never stops and you do cognitive leaps -- from A straight to F. You see the forest and miss the trees. You don't like highly structured environments. You don't tolerate the mundane well and have a short attention span. If you don't get excitement at work, you'll cause it elsewhere in your life.

More bout squiggles http://www.psychometricshapes.co.uk/squiggle.php. Hahaha! How true!

Babie readreadread!! Sounds just like me right? HAHAHA!! AND those words in bold were not done by me, I copied everything straight from the webbie. LOLS! Reallyreally sound just like me. HAHAHA

The SQUIGGLE PERSON is far from tidy. These individuals tend to be exceptionally creative, flamboyant, dramatic, and witty and, are the messiest and least-organised (yesyesyes this is ME) of all the Shapes. They can however, be very motivating people to be around.

Such people are surrounded by half-finished work (super true) and their desks are strewn with half-eaten food and old coffee cups. (JUST LIKE ME! MESSY! Many cups and food on my table. HAHAHA!) There are no family photos in the Squiggle's office and though to visitors their office may seem messy, to the Squiggle it is not because they usually know where most things are! (MESSY yes but YES I do know where my stuff are. HAHAHA) If the Box person is chalk then the Squiggle is the proverbial cheese! Squiggles view themselves as being unique and challenging the"status quo". Some may even go to extremes to illustrate this.

The Squiggle can never go anywhere without carrying a lot of things (SEE this is why my poor bag is in the state its in now. Cannot blame me. I'm a squiggle!) and are usually flustered, harassed and in a hurry. (Yes always rushing!) They rarely finish a task (have not finished anything yet) and struggle immensely with routine work. This is not surprising given the fact that Squiggles undergo constant change and that they are very easily bored, (explains the millions of things I'm doing at once) requiring constant stimulation in both a personal and a professional capacity.

Not so sure about the rest of the article though. LOLS! Oh well. Good to know. HAHAHA.

Hmm. We both don't have ANY straight lines...

~Squigglies~