My jobs

Yesterday was an interesting day! Taught at the usual time at the usual place with the usual students. Found time to squeeze in my other work stuff during lunch hour. Still manage to eat proper food and read story book. I love 1hr 30mins lunch breaks! =) After lunch manager took a picture of me saying that my dressing was appropriate. My picture would be pasted at the pantry to encourage other teachers to dress like me. I just LOOKED like I was dressed appropriately. Actually I was wearing black jeans.. which is not allowed. LOLS. Anyway I came to the conclusion, people there hardly know who I am. Mr Violin Teacher asked me if I'm a new teacher there. He also asked if I taught guitar. HAHAHA. I've been there for almost 2 years!

Then taught some more. Alex didn't turn up at 4.30pm. Canvasing buddy didn't turn up at 5.30pm. Men are always late. *tsktsktsk* When Alex finally turned up, I attempted to teach him aural, and pitching. Intervals and a little singing might help?? =\

Went to talk to branch manager about insurance. Shes actually interested! Yay! Then had another hour to waste before canvasing buddy finally turned up. Within that hour my pitching was being tested by Mr Violin Teacher. And he asked me to accompany him on his violin. Very interested really! He told me that I should pick up violin. HAHAHA! I'd be more than happy to seriously!

Canvasing was productive. Hopefully the 'suspect' will turn into a 'prospect' and eventually a client.

Today finally closed a case. 1. Still fumbling in the warm market. Slowly jumping into cold waters. Jiayou ba!

You know what? Yes, I am beginning to love this job.

~yes i'm ego. i'll show u~

emo-ness is a small issue

There comes a time when theres just so much to do, small, minor details and issues don't matter anymore. As long as such issues don't end up killing me or giving me an ultimate shitty life, I'm fine with forgoing those small little crap. It's the big things in life that matters.

Focus on the bigger things in life! Many small things going wrong may not even measure up to what one big thing going wrong can do.

Short blog from office. Today's agenda? Rush back to somewhere 10minutes away from my home to teach for 1.5hrs. And rush back to office to continue working.

Big things!

~away with the best, throw away the rest~

yep. still pissed.

I know it was my own decisions that got me into the position I am in.

HOWEVER, that would mean I can make my own decisions to have a nice, relaxing day out.

Why did you try to deny me of that?

Am I not working hard enough?

Need I remind you, I started work immediately after my exams ended?

Need I remind you, its my school holidays?

Need I remind you, I had not a single day's rest ever since I started mugging for exams?

Need I remind you, I've not had a nice long PROPER school holiday since I got into uni?

Great.

Congrats. You pissed me off on my one and only rest day.

And! This is my last school holiday. I'll be graduating soon. I think, I don't want to look for a job too. I'll just slack at home. I want to claim back all the school holidays I never got to enjoy.

PLUS the weekends I spend working.

I'll just cross my fingers and toes that would be possible.

~sanity bites the dust~

can't the world just give me a break?

I'm really not feeling very happy.

I managed to beg for 1 blardy off day. I'm already working 7 days a week. Not unreasonable to ask for 1 blardy off day in the whole entire month. Begging off day from my boss, that was fine. Can understand. Now my papa's not happy that I actually take leave just to go to the beach. RIGHT. Tell me what other days I have to go ANYWHERE or rest for 1 whole day? 1 blardy day. Just 1 blardy day. I think for this I get to choose WHO I want to go out with and WHAT I want to do. 1 BLARDY DAY. F. Haven't even started and I'm already frigging pissed off. Blardy hell.

I hate to be the one making all the decisions. Hate it when all everyone else knows how to do is to ask me for this ask me for that ask me to do this ask me to do that. Then ask me howhowhow, whywhywhy, whatwhatwhat.

I'm really so pissed I feel like hiding in the toilet to cry. TAKE 1 OFF DAY SO MUCH PROBLEMS. I MUST WELL WORK MYSELF TO DEATH. NOT AS IF ANYONE CARES.

~if you don't care how I think or feel, why should I care about what YOU think?~

Have not had time to sit down and type a proper post. Every single day is nothing but work. I really really miss my babie.. =( I know I told you I'll be free after exams but turns out I'm even more busy than ever. =( But you've been so sweet to me babie! I love you! <3! Looking forward to next Friday! My one and only proper off day from now till school reopens. I'll try to get more off days! Muamuacks!

Just need to address an issue. Not very big an issue, just really pissed me off. If you don't understand my business, don't judge it. Can't understand why some people who don't understand something can make such strong judgments. I'll just have to assume such people are stereotypes that simply follow the crowd and don't have a mind of their own. Even though there is someone there willing to explain to them what is going on, they simply brush them off thinking that they are smarter than other people. Let me say, from my point of view, making such judgments without knowledge just makes you look plain stupid. Now you're the clown in my eyes, and seriously, if anything were to happen to you, don't say I didn't try to help you. Cause I did. You simply didn't give me the opportunity to help you. In the first place, I simply wanted to share some information with you. If you can't appreciate me as a friend, I don't think I should bother either. If you don't understand my business, don't judge it, seriously. Don't try to act smart you clown!


I'm so tired right now. I just want my babie..

~i'm in screensaver mode as of now~

cliche

What a wonderful beginning to the end of my exams.

This is a battle I have to fight by myself. Because the whole world knew it and heard it too many times. Why do I keep going back to the same stupid situation? Its like I'm stating the obvious. Everyone knows. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do it anymore. I want to give up right now and walk away. So even if we were to hurt for awhile, it'll be okay eventually.

Now I don't have the mood to go to work. I just want to sit at home and rot and maybe let out some bottled up emotions and whatever crap my mind can come up with. I just want things to go away..

~just when I thought the worst was over.. it just began~